Erm.. what the krill? @orangepeel36 - Tumblr Blog

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Any Pronouns, seriously mix and match im trying to figure myself out and it might help 😭

This blog is really bad and you should probably not follow it it's mostly random bullshit and my interests. I do DnD stuff, play drums, TF2, and sometimes I code stuff. I'll randomly post about it sometimes and there's nothing you can do to stop me. I think im really funny so laugh at my jokes and we can be friends. That's all have a good day bye

It's so weird having recovered from and moved past my traumas because now I think about it and it just makes me really really angry that people took away my childhood. Like, I wanted birthday parties and kisses goodnight and shit. I don't remember anything from that long ago but I know I still want to have had them so I must have then too. It just makes me angry now tbh and I don't know what to think of that.

#maybe it's okay to be angry though #or maybe it isn't and i'm a freak #def a freak 👅

gaymolegaming

I feel like a lot of people dont pick up on that: when youre texting with someone and they ask you a question theyre probably very much aware that they can simply google it. The reason theyre asking you instead is because they like talking with you and want you to explain it instead

#nobody has ever done that #unless people just don't like talking to me which is very possible #that's okay though i'm a sexy badass

kcamberart

wooper & wooper & wooper & wooper(s)

#i love it so muuuuuch #i'm crying

toskarin

adjacent advice: if you need more confidence, get a cool jacket or a haircut or something and think about how cool it makes you. this is loser advice, but we're all losers here. swallow your pride and roleplay as a cool guy and you'll become a cool guy.

toskarin

it might help to think of yourself as a character designer and also yourself as a character, which is again kind of insane person advice, but this is an insane-person-for-insane-person audience blog

#this is literally what i've been doing can confirm it works #i also have a bunch of cool little button ups not #another good thing to do is make yourself look like the kind of person you're attracted to

fluff-pillow

Bug lady

#I LOVE HER IM STEALING HER SHES GOING IN MY CAMPAIGN NOBODY CAN STOP ME

this-bi-or-that-bi

Are you a no shirt bi, or a no shoes bi?

orangepeel36

i'm a no bitches bi

deanwinchesterapologist

The funniest type of tumblr users are the ones who will see a post saying something like "I love smiling at strangers on the bus" and comment "not everyone has the ability to show kindness to others you fascist #ableism" and then you look at their blog and it's all 0 note posts about how miserable and alone they are

orangepeel36

wait but my blog is about how miserable and alone i am

energyprison

Sometimes when a post flops its not because the post itself was a flop. Often its simply that the wisest of your followers were at work or asleep and didnt see it

orangepeel36

all these wise-ass prawn bots following me are asleep rn 😔😔

curioscurio

crazy how some bitches will be like "the curtains were blue because the curtains were fucking blue and any attempt at further literary analysis is pretentious and stupid" and then need chat gpt AI to write their school essays for them

orangepeel36

right bc my thing is like... if it didn't matter why did the author mention it??? why would the curtains just be blue if the author didn't explicitly want them to be blue??? a good author randomly brining up the color of the curtains makes even less sense than it being metaphorical you neolithic hominids

there's an untapped fortune in rustic metalhead aesthetics

rustic and metal both share horns, antlers and animal skulls, so throw some wrought iron trim and splintered wooden balusters on a wall, hang up a cow skull and then just throw spikes on it all and boom badass

a little doodle for clarity, and maybe this doesn't quite do it justice but like, there's something here right?

#rustic #metal #rusticmetalcore #can we call it that??#i think rustic metalcore sounds cool asf

hi tumblr, i'm using this to vent now because i desperately need to do something to make myself feel better and the idea that somebody might at least know what i've been going through makes me feel somewhat better for some reason.

i feel like shit. i've been going to therapy and for a while it helped but i think i was just distracted. my family fucking sucks. i love my siblings and the idea of leaving them alone has been the sole thing keeping me alive for a while now. but my parents, who i don't even live with anymore, still manage to be an ever present part of my life and they drag it down. they have since i was little. i can't remember nearly any of the childhood, but what i do remember is mostly outbursts, yelling, anger, etc. the earliest memory i have is in the old kitchen of my childhood home, i had written a note and hung it up on the fridge. it was some sort of list of basically just different ways to phrase of "i'm worthless and i do nothing" and i walked into the kitchen and hung it up on the fridge right in front of my mom. she took the note and asked me why i wrote it, and i remember she was concerned but i don't remember what she said specifically. after that i remember crying behind the couch in the little playroom we had. so i've been a hot mess sense birth apparently. i'm diagnosed and medicated for depression and anxiety, and while i don't think it's as bad as it used to be i'm really really struggling rn tbh. i feel conflicted because on one hand, my parents put me through a lot as a child and now i'm forced to heal wounds that aren't my fault and i'm suffering for their mistakes and it makes me angry. and i'm so angry and they won't leave me alone and they keep pushing and pushing me and i don't want to be angry at them because i know that they've been through a lot too. they were both abused by their parents when they were little, but neither of them seeked out help for it and instead just had me and destroyed my life instead. i know that it's not entirely their fault, but i know it's certainly not mine and i'm hurting so bad for it. the worst part is the only reason i've gotten any help in the first place is because they caught me trying to commit my junior year of high school. that's when i got prescribed my meds and they helped but i'm still not okay and i don't think i ever will be and it's their fucking fault.

i dipped my balls in peanut butter