— 天海 蘭太郎 .

i shall find again my spirit, as before, ascetic. 16 june 2019 to 18 june 2020

[orchidhelm]

hi there. sorry about the larger text; i’m sending this from mobile.

i’m temporarily cutting activity on this blog. i don’t know how, but my muse for amami just isn’t there. dead. exhausted. i don’t think forcing it will help, either. i’m not feeling especially confident in my portrayal right now, and i think i need some time to sit back and probably redo a lot of things. i want to rethink my writing. i want to get a better grasp on my characterisation. 

but most of all, i want my portrayal to be the best it can be, and this is not something i can deliver right now. i honestly think just replaying the game could be my best bet.

i am not leaving. i am not abandoning amami. but for now, i will not be active as him. i’ll still be around on my sonia.

hopefully my next post here will be when i’m a lot more confident!

[orchidhelm]

yeah so that was a fucking lie. although this account will remain as an archive of my time here, i have no intention to come back.

[orchidhelm]

hi there. sorry about the larger text; i’m sending this from mobile.

i’m temporarily cutting activity on this blog. i don’t know how, but my muse for amami just isn’t there. dead. exhausted. i don’t think forcing it will help, either. i’m not feeling especially confident in my portrayal right now, and i think i need some time to sit back and probably redo a lot of things. i want to rethink my writing. i want to get a better grasp on my characterisation. 

but most of all, i want my portrayal to be the best it can be, and this is not something i can deliver right now. i honestly think just replaying the game could be my best bet.

i am not leaving. i am not abandoning amami. but for now, i will not be active as him. i’ll still be around on my sonia.

hopefully my next post here will be when i’m a lot more confident!

[orchidhelm]

it’s my blog’s anniversary so. renamed.

amnesiacdreams to orchidhelm.

here’s to another year!

[orchidhelm]

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hey like this post and i will poorly edit your muse into their rantonysona. i’m not fucking joking. 

[orchidhelm]

[wickedlymeme]

“I wish it could always be like this.”

“You’re always there for me.”

“The stars are the only thing that makes sense.”

“There’s more out there, you just have to be patient.”

“It doesn’t all have to be existential dread.” 

“You’re so much different when we’re alone.”

“I like it when the worlds quiet.” 

“There’s a place for us somewhere.”

“They’ll name constellations after you one day.”

“Your hearts beating so fast.”

“They don’t know what they want.”

“You don’t know what you want.”

“That’s what they’re supposed to say.”

“We really don’t know what we’re doing.”

“I miss the old you.”

“Nostalgias a trap.”

“Aliens are out there.”

“Did you hear that?”

“I really want pizza right now, think it’s open?” 

“What time is it?”

“But why would they abduct cows?”

“We’ll all be dead soon enough anyways.” 

“I wish we didn’t have to sleep.”

“What do you believe in?”

“What happens after we die?”

“Seems like a silly thing to say, don’t you think?” 

“And what’s your excuse?”

“You’ll get it together soon.”

“Sometimes I feel like I’ll never have it together.”

“It’d be better if people weren’t so afraid of their feelings.”

“You keep quiet and we both lose.”

“I wish I could save this forever.”

“When did you realize you were in love with me?”

“The rooms spinning.”

“I loved you long before you knew.”

“I’m not afraid of death, I think it’ll be peaceful.”

“The Universe is too big for that.”

“Do you think we’ve met in other lives?” 

“I’d come back to haunt you.” 

“Would you come back to haunt me?”

“What’s alternate universe you doing right now?”

“Tell me a secret.”

“Why haven’t you told anyone?” 

“I wish we knew each other sooner.”

“You’re a game changer.” 

“I’m a game changer.”

“Don’t ignore fate.” 

“Ignorance isn’t bliss.”

“What, is that a conspiracy theory?”

“It’s probably the Illuminati anyways.” 

[dovingmemes]

random sentence starters: the third

change around as you see fit!

“ i want to be like you. “

“ that is … literally illegal. you’re describing something illegal. “

“ what’s the plan here ? “

“ please just … come home. “

“ all i’m saying is that jurassic park could happen ! “

“ jeez , who pissed in your cornflakes this morning ? “

“ i’m a simple person. i see a cool rock , i pick it up. “

“ you’re so cute and i literally can not handle it right now , so i have to go— “

“ hey , uh , what do you got there ? “

“ we’re not friends. “

“ so , do you come here often or … ? “

“ slow down , i just want to get to know you … “

“ i’m angry at you ! i’m upset ! and you … you don’t even care ! “

“ will you promise to marry me in the future ? “

“ what are your thoughts on having kids ? “

“ oh , come on ! they were literally holding hands and becoming self aware of their own mortality ! it was a sad moment— stop laughing at me ! toy story 3 didn’t have to do us like that ! “

“ you’re my best friend. i’ll always have your back. “

“ … do you want to do something stupid with me ? “

“ you don’t have to be jealous , you know~ “

“ sing me a song. “

“ did you do this ? “

“ for once can you please be honest with me ? “

“ lets run away together. anywhere. i’m tired of this life. “

“ are you binge watching that show on netflix again ? “

“ how much britney spears i’ve listened to in the last 72 hours is none of your business ! “

“ god … i can’t look away , it’s like my eyes are drawn to it. “

“ why are you leaving ? “

“ admit it … i drive you wild. “

“ you’re so infuriating. “

“ i hate this town. “

“ i’m one call away , okay ? just one call. “

“ you want me so bad , don’t you ? “

“ i’ll just live in the forest as a goblin. “

“ you don’t know what i’m capable of. “

“ you want a tattoo of what now ? “

“ i can’t believe i’m confessing this but … i really really like you. “

“ look me in the eye when you’re breaking my heart ! you don’t get to look away , dammit ! “

“ i can’t believe we’ve just sat here for four hours and have done nothing. “

“ hey , hey , hey … guess what ? “

“ you are my platonic soulmate. “

“ someone thought we were a couple so like , we totally just hit best friend goals. “

“ the bigger the boobs , the stronger they are. that’s anime logic , at least. “

“ i can’t believe i fell in love … like an idiot. “

“ i’ve never fallen in love before … what’s it like ? “

“ hello ? 911 ? i’d like to report a murder of my remaining brain cells …. “

“ wow , look who remembered my existence. “

“ you want to hear a story ? oh uh … well … uh … l — let me tell you all about how this boy’s life got flipped turned upside down— “

“ … not many people really talk to me … “

“ tell me all about you. anything. everything. “

[prescited]

hey y’all! the name’s nina! i am here to share a wide selection of canon & oc muses from a variety of different fandoms, including, but not limited to: dangan.ronpa, boku n.o hero academia, gra.vity falls, your tur.n to die, & many more! please give a ♥ or a ↻ if you would like to interact! 

rp blogs only. personals, do not interact or you will be blocked, period.

[orchidhelm]

ladies, gents, nonbinary friends, exams are OVER. i’ll hopefully have sonia set up by,, soon. very soon. :D normal activity will resume starting now.

[orchidhelm]

i awaken from my slumber to say 1) i’ll be changing my icon very soon for pride and 2) if ur acephobic u can piss right off my blog t(^-^t)

[orchidhelm]

@gcods asked: 

 he was a skater boi~

non cogito quid dicis, sed tibi respondo. ave rantonius, imperator tumblris. 

...is what i was gonna say. i have no reply for this. this is literally the peak of my youth and it is spent on a rantarou amami skater edit. i don’t have words. i’m

[orchidhelm]

NEGATIVE QUALITIES: ZODIAC EDITION.

bold what definitely applies to your muse. italicize what somewhat applies to your muse. repost, and do not reblog.

ARIES : tries to do everything at once, doesn’t know when to stop and take care of themselves, bends over backwards for everyone even if someone did them dirty, has entirely too much on their plate.

TAURUS : idealistic, spends a lot of time trying to impress others, doesn’t like to apologize, eating is a coping mechanism or just addictive personalities in general, a tad codependent.

GEMINI : the most flip floppy people ever, what’s today’s mood?, never apologizes, in denial 90% of the time, their way is the highway, desperately needs a break, they have a hard time setting goals because their goals scare them.

CANCER : the literal meaning of I’ll give you the shirt off my back, isolates themselves in fear of someone hurting them, wants to change but is scared of change, complains a lot but never takes advice people give them.

LEO : no one takes them seriously because they feel they always have to portray themselves as the fun one, is actually really sad inside, honestly needs a hug, exhausted always.

VIRGO : can dish it but can’t take it, rushes everything, anxious, plans their future but forgets to live in the moment, sometimes ignores their friends because they have so much on their mind, talks about themselves a lot and sometimes forgets to ask the other person how they are.

LIBRA : solves everyone’s problems but their own, is actually really sad and lonely, gets easily heartbroken but tries not to show it, will do anything to justify bad decisions, honestly just wants everyone to love them but doesn’t really love themselves.

SCORPIO : easily set off, will give anyone the cold shoulder at any time even without reason, keeps a lot in, so observant that they oftentimes find out things that hurt them, too many “what ifs” swirling in their heads, has trouble showing their true selves.

SAGITTARIUS : impatient, brash, commitment issues, body issues, doesn’t realize they don’t need to change for anyone, has a lot of different goals to a point where they get overwhelmed, just wants to disappear and do what they want without anyone questioning them.

CAPRICORN : scared people won’t like them unless they’re at the top of their game 24/7, takes a LOT for them to talk about their feelings, secretly struggling, fake happy, needs a plan but doesn’t know what that plan is, confident but insecure at the same time, wants to be stable but sometimes wishes they could drop everyone’s expectations of them and live normally.

AQUARIUS : gets heartbroken like 30 times a week, trust issues, can be unmotivated and disinterested, feels they have to adapt to every person they meet so they can be liked, doesn’t know how to tap into their emotions despite being very intuitive, confused, expects little.

PISCES : empathetic often to a point of no return, plays the victim, doesn’t know when to say no, cynical, hermit, is very impatient, trusts everyone too much, can be secretly very critical and judgmental, can only tolerate maybe ten minutes of social interaction, needs a lot of validation.

tagged by the absolute queen that is @truthuncovered​ tagging: go wild lads. steal it off me.

[orchidhelm]

@ctrlaltkibo​ asked:  

 📱

drafted message to: kiibo-kun  :  hey, my wifi’s down so i can’t email you the documents right now

drafted message to: kiibo-kun  :  haha. just realised that won’t send

drafted message to: kiibo-kun  :  can you call me? i need to ask you something. nothing bad, just about that email about the final exams since i missed class

drafted message to: kiibo-kun :)  : i get how you feel, yeah? but i honestly don’t know how to help. relationship stuff isn’t my thing. maybe ask someone from the other classes?

message to: kiibo kun :) : i’m heading to the airport now, so mind if we pick this up later? i really can’t miss this flight.

[orchidhelm]

@dearleader​​ / @offiiciium​​ asked: 

 ⚠ kichi :3c

[orchidhelm]

psst. hey, it’s ruri.

i’m giving myself today to do whatever, so,, anyone want an amami in their inbox? 

i’ll also do sonia, even if she’s not formally active! <3

[phantomemes]

starters  /  prompts taken from f. d. soul’s work ,  between you and these bones .  feel free to change pronouns  /  tenses as necessary .

‘  the problem is you keep trying to use your eyes  ’

‘  how i soften when you pull me against you  ’

‘  you are teaching me to love  ’

‘  i will pretend that i have not already heard the question in your eyes  ’

‘  you perhaps will become my swan song  ’

‘  it is a very human thing to love  ’

‘  you are my good days  ’

‘  i have been loved dearly  ’

‘  i promise you will not always be this war  ’

‘  thank god for the stubbornness of organs  ’

‘  it takes me seven days to stop being in love with you  ’

‘  there will always be another day  ’

‘  there will always be another mercy  ’

‘  perhaps i will take up dancing again  ’

‘  what a pretty little disaster you will be  ’

‘  i am terrified for you  ’

‘  i will fold inside of myself  ’

‘  today i am thankful  ’

‘  i didn’t want to sleep because i didn’t want to wake  ’

‘  come and get me  ’

‘  i tell myself i do not need you  ’

‘  i think i broke again last night  ’

‘  i’m just trying to connect with you  ’

‘  you are an ocean that will perhaps never stop crashing  ’

‘  burn the house down in search of yourself  ’

‘  don’t you dare ever stop looking  ’

‘  i struggle not to feel guilty  ’

‘  you are a wild  ,  unkempt thing  ’

‘  sometimes it is a very sad thing to be human and longing  ’

‘  find that you are made of russian nesting dolls  ’

‘  the trees are always kindest with spring comes  ’

‘  teach yourself the hymns again  ’

‘  he is every amen i have ever laid down on lips  ’

‘  this life is an altar  ’

‘  i am sorry i do not have more time  ’

‘  there is a mountain in me  ’

‘  by the morning i am a triumph  ’

‘  there are words playing hooky in the back of your throat  ’

‘  today is by far the most beautiful creature i have ever come across  ’

‘  there are many things that will fit beneath your skin  ’

‘  forgiveness does not take up much room  ’

‘  some days you will breathe and it will be enough  ’

‘  you do not have to hold it quite so tightly  ’

‘  there is a prayer in me  ,  still  ’

‘  you scare me a little  ’

‘  you can be a good thing and not a whole thing  ’

‘  there are flowers in my chest again  ’

‘  the rain comes and sounds like you  ’

‘  i cannot tell you why i still trust god  ’

‘  find peace and build a home out of it  ’

‘  there is never an end  ’