I just finished watching clone wars for technically the first time (I was really young the first time and didn't understand what was happening) and I haven't cried over a show in so long hoo
The amount of stuff that happens and that they reference my heart can't take it-
Starting off strong with the talk about how Ahsoka sees the hypocrisy with supposedly being a peacekeeper but being a soldier for years instead and Rex saying that he wouldn't even be around if the war hadn't happened.
Like Ahsoka feeling what happened with Anakin and the Chancellor and hearing that before order 66.
And then Referencing everything with Fives and Tup and in Rex's report that they pull up he's so discouraged and knows that no one is gonna listen to him and he even points that's out before he starts. He's distraught after the death of his friend and upset by how it was handled, and he just knows that his efforts are going to be ignored, but he tries anyway. To find justice for Fives and Tup.
And Then ahsoka risks her life to save Rex and the revelation that all of the clones had been programmed since the beginning to follow this order and hooo i don't know if that hurt anyone else but after hearing Rex talk about how the Clones wouldn't be alive if it hadn't been for the war and that in a way he was grateful for the war and then finding out that He was designed as essentially a double agent and that his will to choose could just be stripped away without his knowledge.
And also his facial expressions during this entire episode make my heart break. Especially in the scene where he's crying cause he doesn't want his brothers to die and he doesn't want to hurt them because they are being controlled against their will. Rex has been through so much in this series and to see him finally reach the breaking point.
And again when he mumbles "Maybe I don't want to be commander anymore" or something along those lines I don't remember the exact quote but that little moment hit hard at least to me cause it just shows how much pain he's in. He's been a true and amazing captain and commander for years and now that the truth is unraveling and everything is falling apart (literally) its like he's lost his sense of identity and doesn't know what to think anymore. And ya know what, yea maybe he doesn't want to be a commander anymore. Not after realizing he's been tricked and lied to for years and now stands about to be executed by his brothers.
And him trying to talk to Jesse and get him to stop, but he can't. It's like he's talking to a complete stranger. Like, Jesse was one of my favorites and watching those scenes. That's not my boy that's not my boy what did you do to my boy??!
And the burial scene...I lost it. Both of them just looked broken after this scene and when Ahsoka threw down her saber... I can't even put into words why that hurt so much but it did. They both loved all of the clones so much, and respected them and buried them properly.
And then to top it all off, the end scene with Vader??? Him finding where the 501st died, and Ahsoka's saber. I don't know exactly the time line here, and i am definitely not qualified enough to talk about the significance of it, but like my brain is racing trying to figure out how he would have reacted to that.
So much happened in that episode and hoo. I loved it and hated it at the same time. If you excuse me I'm gonna go try and fix my shattered heart cause oof that was like a sledgehammer to a glass window. ;-;
