soph ✩

she/her | scorpio

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hi im soph ☆

SHE/HER | 20 | SCORPIO | KATSEYE LOVER | PROFESSIONAL MANON YEARNER

MUSIC I <3...

KATSEYE

anything that sounds remotely good

CONTAINS...

✩ pretty girls (katseye) ✩ music (also katseye) ✩ smaus & other fics (again! katseye!) ✩ whatever else i'm obsessed with this week

✩ MASTERLIST

pls interact!! i'm always looking for new friends

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i told you things | moon song

pairings: sophia laforteza x fem!singer!reader synopsis: when sophia finds love in someone else, y/n chooses distance over confession, letting the years they spent as each other's safe place fade into memories neither of them know how to forget. what sophia mistakes for growing apart is really the quiet heartbreak of y/n learning how to let go. usually love stories begin with saying “i love you” theirs begin when neither of them does.

“you were all at once 'til the fade to black. 'til the yellow glow turned a little sad.” previous | main | next

y/n is two chicken nuggets in when she can't take the bouncing of sophia's leg anymore. she's talking about everything except whatever warranted an ''i need to talk to you'' text.

she's currently sitting with her knees to her chest on the other end of the couch, picking at her fries.

y/n decides to watch for another minute, hoping sophia would finally spit out whatever had her so anxious. when she ultimately doesn't, the singer lets out an exasperated sigh.

''are you planning on telling me what's wrong?''

sophia looks up at her with wide eyes.

''nothing's wrong.''

the other girl looks at her with furrowed brows, head slightly tilted to the left in confusion.

''you said you needed to talk to me?''

''i do.''

''okay.''

silence.

y/n raises an eyebrow.

sophia groans and lets her head drop so she's staring at her lap.

''the girls think i like mila.''

there it is.

something inside y/n goes very still, her chest tightening before she can stop it.

she keeps her face neutral.

''oh.''

sophia glances up at her.

''that's all you have to say?''

''what do you want me to say?''

sophia sits up straighter and decides to close some of the distance between them.

''i don't know... tell me they're wrong.''

y/n almost laughs, because she knows they aren't. she spent weeks trying to convince herself otherwise, but looking at sophia now, she can see it clear as day.

''are they?''

sophia glances back down at her lap, picking at a loose string of her sweatpants.

''i don't know.''

that answer somehow feels worse than a yes.

y/n looks down at her hands, spinning one of her rings around her finger in hopes of keeping the tears at bay.

''okay.''

''mahal?''

she looks back up to find the filipina watching her, brows furrowed deeply, completely unaware of the pain written across her best friend's face, of the tears she refuses to let fall.

''help me.''

the older singer swallows heavily. of course she'd ask. she's her best friend. she should've been prepared for this.

but she really wasn't.

she wasn't prepared for the pain inside her chest that made her feel like she was going to throw up.

''how am i supposed to help?''

''tell me how i'm supposed to know if i actually like someone.''

y/n has to bite her tongue to keep a sarcastic remark from slipping out. she knows all too well what it's like to feel this way. she could tell her the truth. she really could.

instead, she shrugs.

''do you think about her when she's not around? do you get excited when she texts you? when you know you'll see her again soon? do you feel different when you're with her? like everything and everybody else kind of disappears?''

those feelings only scratch the surface of what sophia makes her feel, but she'd never let her know any of that. using them to help sophia figure out if she has feelings for another girl kind of feels ironic, but she'd do anything to help her, anything for her.

sophia smiles before she can stop herself. it's small, soft, and almost automatic.

and that's the answer.

y/n feels it before sophia says anything.

''yeah. all of that, yes.''

y/n looks off to the side, forcing a smile onto her face.

''you like her.''

sophia stares at her with wide eyes.

''oh.''

it’s the same kind of realization she had with the girls earlier, only this time, it feels heavier. more real.

sophia laughs and lets her head fall against y/n's shoulder.

y/n lets her.

she always does.

even now.

even when the contact feels physically painful, burning her skin.

''do you think i should do something about it?''

there it is.

y/n could say no.

she could tell sophia to wait, to really think about it, to leave it alone.

instead, she looks down at the girl whose head is laying against her shoulder. she looks scared but so happy.

y/n can't force herself to be selfish. she can't be the person to ruin that happiness for her, even if it ruins her instead.

''yeah, maybe let it be something.''

sophia looks up at her, chin digging into her shoulder, and smiles, unaware of the ache slowly settling deeper into y/n's chest.

''okay.''

y/n wishes she hadn't asked. she wishes she hadn't answered. she wishes she was brave enough to tell her the truth.

but telling her the truth meant risking everything.

their friendship.

their bond.

but most importantly, sophia's happiness.

she couldn't do that.

she could never do that.

especially because she wasn't her happiness anymore.

it was someone else now.

and maybe that was okay.

as long as that bright smile never faded.

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alright but like yn is down BAD 😭😭

as my friends would say,,, i'll help build the pavement so she can continue dragging herself across the floor for her LMAO

can you REALLY blame her?

cmon she’s so babygirl 😭😭

your friends are so real tho

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i told you things | staying

pairings: sophia laforteza x fem!singer!reader synopsis: when sophia finds love in someone else, y/n chooses distance over confession, letting the years they spent as each other's safe place fade into memories neither of them know how to forget. what sophia mistakes for growing apart is really the quiet heartbreak of y/n learning how to let go. usually love stories begin with saying “i love you” theirs begin when neither of them does.

“you were all at once 'til the fade to black. 'til the yellow glow turned a little sad.” previous | main | next

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Turns out....the "lego" figurine is actually a connect blocks figurine and I've been reading it as lego all the time 😞 I fooled myself. Do you still wanna see it?

😔😔😔

ofc i do 😋

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your smau is keeping my therapist employed

they’re so very welcome 😋 tell them to split the cash tho

staying friends is safe (doesn’t mean you should) actually gave me trauma so guess i could say the same 😭😭

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omg i somehow just realized all the chapter titles of your smau are songs!! (fellow laufey fan??)

anywaysss- i’d like to say thank you for the amazing smau, your writing is so delicious 💖💖

and alsoooo thank you for feeding us with sophia x reader content 🥹

I ADOREEEE LAUFEY!! that woman knows how to break my heart 😭

i love you thank you <3

you’re so very welcome 😋 can’t wait to finish this smau and start the next

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ohh i’m so excited!!! for the angst and the growing apart!!! i hope we get to see jealous sophia at some point too. like she’s with mila and reader starts talking to another person and shows them her songs first, and does everything she and sophia did with them instead and seems okay to anyone on the outside THE VISION IS SO CLEAR!!!

its gonna stay painful for a little while longer 😭

def some jealous sophia, not in the way you think tho 😛

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how many things by sabrina carpenter kind of gives me sophia and reader vibes

oh you’re really onto something w that one ouch

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i told you things | let you break my heart again

pairings: sophia laforteza x fem!singer!reader synopsis: when sophia finds love in someone else, y/n chooses distance over confession, letting the years they spent as each other's safe place fade into memories neither of them know how to forget. what sophia mistakes for growing apart is really the quiet heartbreak of y/n learning how to let go. usually love stories begin with saying “i love you” theirs begin when neither of them does.

“you were all at once 'til the fade to black. 'til the yellow glow turned a little sad.” previous | main | next

sophia barely gives y/n enough time to say hello before she starts talking. ''okay, first of all, you're making 4 hours sound way worse than it was.'' y/n leans back on the couch inside her studio, phone wedged between her shoulder and ear, chewing on her lips. a nervous habit she picked up when she was younger. ''it sounds exactly like 4 hours, fia.'' sophia laughs. y/n closes her eyes. there it is. that sound. the one she's spent years trying to pull out of her whenever sophia's had a bad day. now it's just getting tossed around, but not for her. not because of her. ''she's just really easy to talk to,'' sophia continues. ''i don't know. we started talking about music, then her family, and suddenly we were on the topic of the most embarrassing things that ever happened to us.'' ''important first date questions, i guess.'' there's a pause. y/n's stomach drops, her heart twinging with pain. then sophia laughs again. ''it wasn't a date.'' y/n looks down at the guitar resting across her lap. the guitar she's spent all day writing songs about the girl talking to her with. ''right, fia.'' ''at least i don't think it was.'' that hurts a little more. sophia doesn't sound opposed to the idea of it being one. sophia keeps talking. y/n lets her. she always does. she listens to every little detail she didn't ask for. the stupid jokes mila made, the pastry sophia didn't like but ate anyway because mila seemed so excited about it, the way they didn't notice how much time had passed while they were talking until the sun started to set. and between one story and the next, y/n realizes something she wishes she hadn't. sophia sounds happy. not the fake kind. actually, genuinely happy. y/n presses her fingers onto the strings of her guitar, softly strumming. ''you should see her again.'' sophia goes quiet. ''you think?'' no. y/n doesn't want that. she doesn't even want to think about it. ''yeah.'' ''good, because i think i really want to.'' y/n swallows the pain down, not wanting her best friend to notice how much hearing that shattered something inside of her. ''then you should.'' ''i will. anyways, play me what you were working on with olivia.'' y/n stops her fingers from running across the strings of her guitar. ''not this one, fia.'' ''why?'' ''it's not finished.'' ''okay, but when it is, i want to be the first one to hear it.'' ''yeah, of course, you’ll always be the first. but i really gotta go, fia.'' sophia lets out a sigh of disappointment. ''okay. goodnight, y/n, i love you'' ''i love you too, sleep well'' y/n hangs up the phone with a smile that doesn't quite reach her eyes and a feeling so heavy in her chest she feels like she might throw up. but it was fine. it had to be. sophia was happy. that was all y/n had ever wanted for her. so why are her cheeks suddenly stinging and wet? why did saying ''i love you too'' suddenly feel like the cruelest thing she's ever done to herself?

a/n: ive been at work all day and then spent the rest of the day with friends, but didnt wanna leave you guys hanging 😭 enjoy

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omg hi queen i love ur smau btw doing gods work please never stop i LOVE sophia i LOVE your chapter titles ik exactly all those lyrics 🙏

the actual greatest oat saying ts to me????

i fucking love your smaus and the taylor references so bad don’t even 😭

need to know what happens next so bad 🙏🙏

werephia????? batman????

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hi! 😛

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i told you things | bags

pairings: sophia laforteza x fem!singer!reader synopsis: when sophia finds love in someone else, y/n chooses distance over confession, letting the years they spent as each other's safe place fade into memories neither of them know how to forget. what sophia mistakes for growing apart is really the quiet heartbreak of y/n learning how to let go. usually love stories begin with saying “i love you” theirs begin when neither of them does.

“you were all at once 'til the fade to black. 'til the yellow glow turned a little sad.” previous | main | next

sophia has somehow already taken over most of y/n's couch by the time the opening credits of the movie she picked roll. one leg is comfortably tucked beneath her while the other is stretched across y/n's lap, like they've done a million times before. a bag of sophia's favorite chips sits between them. sophia has three different blankets piled around her despite insisting she wasn't cold ten minutes ago. y/n glances down at the girl with amusement. ''comfy?'' ''very.'' the singer snorts at the filipina. ''yeah, i can tell.'' sophia smiles at the sound without looking away from the movie playing in front of them. y/n rolls her eyes at the smile on the younger girl's face but makes no move to move her legs. this is normal. their normal. sophia in her apartment, complaining about the movie she picked while denying every offer to change it. sophia snatching the bag of chips away from her before the other girl can grab any. sophia reaching blindly for her drink and somehow managing to grab y/n's instead. it's them. normal. y/n likes normal. especially after the last few days, when her normal had been interrupted.

halfway through the movie, sophia perks up with a little gasp. ''oh my god.'' y/n looks over at the girl, startled. ''what?'' ''mila loves this actress.'' there it is again. that name. mila. y/n avoids looking over at sophia, choosing to keep her eyes on the screen. ''oh, does she?'' ''yeah! she was telling me about it the other day. apparently, she's seen every movie and show with her in it.'' sophia laughs quietly. ''that's kind of cute.'' ''right?'' sophia's face lights up in that casual way it seems to lately whenever mila comes up, and y/n hates that she notices. she hates even more that she's beginning to recognize that smile. a smile that wasn't because of her. ''she has really good taste, actually, unlike you.'' ''unlike me? get off my couch,'' y/n says, nudging her leg off her lap. sophia laughs and catches y/n's wrist before she can fully pull away. ''i'm kidding, mahal.'' her fingers stay wrapped around y/n's wrist for a second longer than necessary, her thumb brushing over the soft skin before dropping it. and with that little touch, the uneasy, insecure feeling in y/n's chest lessens. she's being ridiculous. mila is a friend. sophia has lots of friends. sophia is sprawled across her couch, across her, touching her so gently and calling her mahal like she's been doing for years. nothing has changed. nothing is changing. y/n stares at the tv, the scenes changing, but she has no idea what's happening anymore. a few minutes pass before the filipina speaks again. ''i've told her more about you, by the way.'' ''you did? what did you say?'' ''that you're annoying. i also told her more about your music. she likes it a lot.'' something strange twists in y/n's stomach at her words. not hurt, not yet, but close enough to it that she notices. ''what else did you tell her?'' ''i don't know, stuff. i talk about you a lot, apparently.'' y/n tries not to react to those words but fails miserably. ''you do?'' she asks, an octave higher than usual. ''mhm,'' sophia replies casually, like it means nothing. like it doesn't make y/n let that annoyingly large smile slip. like it doesn't immediately make her heart swell in adoration. sophia turns back to the movie, focusing her eyes back on what's happening in front of her. ''you're my favorite person, of course i talk about you.'' for a second, y/n allows herself to forget about mila and the feelings she has regarding the girl entirely. she looks at the girl beside her, seeing everything she wants. she's comfortable, familiar, and so close that she can feel the warmth of her body radiating. y/n is her favorite person, she tells herself that can be enough. with a content smile, the girl pulls the blanket higher over both of them, and it's no surprise to her that twenty minutes later, sophia's head finds its usual place against her shoulder. the singer looks down at the girl and lets herself believe that maybe she's been worrying over nothing at all. sophia is still here, looking so incredibly soft, so incredibly hers.

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i told you things | From The Start

pairings: sophia laforteza x fem!singer!reader synopsis: when sophia finds love in someone else, y/n chooses distance over confession, letting the years they spent as each other's safe place fade into memories neither of them know how to forget. what sophia mistakes for growing apart is really the quiet heartbreak of y/n learning how to let go. usually love stories begin with saying “i love you” theirs begin when neither of them does.

“you were all at once 'til the fade to black. 'til the yellow glow turned a little sad.” previous | main | next

a/n: sooo!! phone girly has a name taglist: @h0llyy @neptun0l0gy @graceeeeeesblog @needmeganskiendiel @yournextdooralien @ctrlamira @manonsseptum @goldenkoifish @lecialeaked @jellaaa @rosier9 @scarly07 @ryujinryujin @ky-012 @foulstrawberryfest @aeriyism @arihiu @andyyyyy14 @kyaitosz @skiendielific @bootsnic @t4mmyl4f0rtez4 @trintrillakilla @sixflame438 @pplanetmarss @9solarz @urwavvy @meganlvr (28/50)

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Hiii!

hi hi hi!!

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i told you things | you're here that's the thing

pairings: sophia laforteza x fem!singer!reader synopsis: when sophia finds love in someone else, y/n chooses distance over confession, letting the years they spent as each other's safe place fade into memories neither of them know how to forget. what sophia mistakes for growing apart is really the quiet heartbreak of y/n learning how to let go. usually love stories begin with saying “i love you” theirs begin when neither of them does.

“you were all at once 'til the fade to black. 'til the yellow glow turned a little sad.” previous | main | next

taglist: @h0llyy @neptun0l0gy @graceeeeeesblog @needmeganskiendiel @yournextdooralien @ctrlamira @manonsseptum @goldenkoifish @lecialeaked @jellaaa @rosier9 @scarly07 @ryujinryujin @ky-012 @foulstrawberryfest @aeriyism @arihiu @andyyyyy14 @kyaitosz @skiendielific @bootsnic @t4mmyl4f0rtez4 @trintrillakilla @sixflame438 @pplanetmarss @9solarz @urwavvy (27/50)

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i told you things | Cool About It

pairings: sophia laforteza x fem!singer!reader synopsis: when sophia finds love in someone else, y/n chooses distance over confession, letting the years they spent as each other's safe place fade into memories neither of them know how to forget. what sophia mistakes for growing apart is really the quiet heartbreak of y/n learning how to let go. usually love stories begin with saying “i love you” theirs begin when neither of them does.

“you were all at once 'til the fade to black. 'til the yellow glow turned a little sad.” previous | main | next

taglist: @h0llyy @neptun0l0gy @graceeeeeesblog @needmeganskiendiel @yournextdooralien @ctrlamira @manonsseptum @goldenkoifish @lecialeaked @jellaaa @rosier9 @scarly07 @ryujinryujin @ky-012 @foulstrawberryfest @aeriyism @arihiu @andyyyyy14 @kyaitosz @skiendielific @t4mmyl4f0rtez4 @trintrillakilla @sixflame438 (23/50)