Seriously I’m so lost but have to pretend that everything is fine..I’m struggling and battling against myself, one part of me have a lots of goals to reach so many dreams to achieve and the other part just don’t give a f* abt anything in this world..how? How is this possible ?? Yesterday I woke up and was planning to do all the possible things to bring my grandparents visit China the next summer, I was looking for the price of tickets, how could I save enough money for this trip and all..and today I just wasn’t feeling well at all..not physically but..it’s hard to explain..I just didn’t feel like doing anything at all.. And I couldn’t do anything, I didn’t ate nor drink I just wanted to disappear..and here I am now, cannot sleep at all..it’s 3:45am