soooo … hi there KJNMEKRJHNM
i don’t really owe the internet anything but i do have friends here so i feel like updating what exactly has. happened. 🥺 nothing bad, i haven’t been awol bc of some tragic circumstances this time around lol.
actually my life has kinda entirely changed. i, uh, drove to my partner’s house a bit back and more or less helped them run away from their abusive household and now we’re living together, figuring stuff out, having to work through Life tm and stuff like that. honestly it’s just a huge change and i was already so airheaded about roleplaying before that even happened and then that became a thing and `everything changed` KJNERHM also i graduated college and i have a job and we’re talking about marriage and it’s jUST A LOT happened at one time
tbh i’ve lost muse for most of my characters here, i think that was p obvious before all of this happened… i’ve been floundering with threads for a while now. i still want to roleplay, but as much as i love characters from otome and having a multimuse and being able to focus on w/e muse has my interest in that moment… tbh i really miss having a single character blog where i can just pour ALL of my heart into one character and have everyone interact with them. it is a little disheartening being so split up on a multimuse sometimes bc i have so much passion for certain characters that just aren’t that popular to interact with, or ppl have more passion for interacting with characters who i have sorta fallen out of love with? and it’s really hard to keep up motivation for writing like that, esp when i’m juggling life things in between. i don’t have the time i used to and i don’t have as much of myself to split up between 9347937497 different characters AND fully flesh them out.
writing juliet and kuma where i met a lot of you, i had enough passion for them that i stuck with that one singular muse for YEARS before i lost interest and had to find love elsewhere. i’m… currently in a place where i’d like to try to find that love again. not necessarily with those muses, as much as i loved juliet and mono/kuma, their times have passed.
i want to pick up a singular muse. one single blog. pour all of my devotion into that character. not make the same mistake i did ages ago where i’d make 500 blogs. not make the mistake i did this time adding 100 muses.
i want to come back to roleplaying and rediscover all the passion i had for it bc it’s always made me happy, i don’t really want to leave when i still do have free time i can devote to writing… 🥺
i’m going to spend some time thinking over characters that i actually feel attached to beyond just a passing interest. sdv alex and foodfan sweet tofu are the biggest contenders. louis from code vein too, just having the one blog maybe i could actually focus on DEVELOPING him and being happy w my portrayal. maybe i’ll do something brand new and whip out a random muse even i don’t see coming idk KJNEKRJHNM i need to consider.
whatever i decide to do, i hope i’ll still see some of you around when i figure out what muse/blog setup and all of that. in the meantime, i’m sorry for all the threads that have dragged/dropped while i’ve been trying to figure things out. and i’m sorry to my ship partners, i’ve kinda let y’all down big time kejnrhm. i’m going to take time to consider things.
thank you for reading, sorry for the long post !! nice to see some of you still on my dash <3 i’ll see you soon, i hope? 🥺
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