Welcome to the place where the snake won't stop consuming its body until it rots to death<3
☆Meet the Author/Artist! (Though I deeply apologise if my drawings and writings doesn't meet your expectations, I'm still a late-bloomer in this damned AI era)
☆In my opinion, I'm not that talented to start doing commissions, so don't ask me until I said I so<3
☆My stories are going to be involving a lot of sensitive topic that may trigger some people, so I advise you to read the TW and CW.
☆MDNI? I don't think my works are that nfsw-ish for now, but maybe it'll change in the future
Just call me Tin or Qil!
They/Them (or ANY pronouns because I'm not really bothered)
Young Adult (Though I don't really prefer people to pry into my personal life or anything)
Let's just say I'm from Southeast Asia (Guess??)
I only write and (sometimes) posts drawings of:
☆ My Ocs
☆ Fandoms that I know (Drawings only, once in a blue moon)
Trigger Warnings for My Stories
Content Warnings for My Stories
My Ocs Masterlist
(Note that some is already written and others might not)
☆ Omitted Cì'ěr Dandansoy
° Merle Von Schaf (sheep)
° Egidius Von Schaf (goat)
° Cymric Sylor (Cat)
° Elian Lázaro (Dog)
° Aisha Lázaro (Butterfly)
° Ri Jeong-Ae Fidèle (Bunny)
° Puso Duhaylungsod Pagasa (Parrot)
° Lat Duhaylungsod Pagasa (ox)
° Aiguo Ashcroft (Bear)
° Cichlids Muse (Desdemona, Red Lionfish)
° Viola (Boy alias: Cesario, Glass Catfish)
° Ri Seom-Bin Fidèle (Crane)
° Ruìzhé Ashcroft (Polar bear)
° Chrysocyon Rule (Willis Stoltzfus/ Fox)
° Amos Stoltzfus (Pika)
° Aoibhe Ó Séaghdha (ravens)
° Asenath (Okapi)
☆ The Longing and Resentment of The Sea
(this one will probably go through a lot of development)
Imagine yourself in Elian Lázaro shoes (might as well be Cymric x reader):
Angst below the cut
Cw: yearning, denial of news of someone's death, rivalry between two old enemies, yandere??? Brief mention of violence (not towards you), self harm (character)
Okay, now, imagine that you're a detective. A pretty well known in the city you're currently live in, to say at least.
All you know that they took your idiot away.
You're no longer dating that "eccentric of a guy" sailor. After knowing he's an agent that's working for an illegal agency. Although, not much info about them could be obtained from just searching them up on Google. Perhaps you should ask Seom-Bin about this agency later. A heavy sigh left your lips before you subconsciously clenched your jaw in frustration and devastation.
The idiot who plays his harmonica while waiting you at the harbor. He always greets you with that dumb nickname he gave to you, while also pointing at the newly formed rainbow, smiling as he stated that you look as beautiful as-or even more than- the colourful rainbow.
The idiot that feeds fresh fish (he goes fishing on weekdays) to your neighbour's service dog that you're currently taking care of. Is she trying to set you up or something?
That took you to dates on a boat (he insists it won't flip over while ur both in the ocean) and immediately going back home when you're feeling seasick and puking everywhere in his boat. Everyone could see his focus is solely on you, but you couldn't. Not after what had happened in the past.
One that lets you play with his fingers while you're both were cuddling in your usually pristine place, your fingers rubbing against the place where his pinky fingers should have been.
An idiot named Cymric that kids call him "Alien" for having only eight fingers.
Yeah, that idiot. Well, he's your lovesick idiot, damned guy who has eyes of moon and sea if they decided to have a child. They took him away from you.
Now, he's...gone.
Like, gone for real.
He thought both of you still have a chance to get back together in this lifetime.
The officials had contacted you, his ex. You don't want to admit that you're still together when they thought you were, but imagine how they'd handle his case and once they had discovered his body later when they knew that he's just a nobody in the society? Despite him being everything to you.
So you just pushed that thought aside, signed a contract regarding him as his husband (you're currently legally guilty of perjury by doing this) and apparently you're supposed to accept that he's now dead, not just missing for weeks- no, months-wait, how long has it been?
Anyways, he's dead. That's what they told you.
You're lucky that Cymric also matched your stubborn self. Though, you would rather bring that issue to your grave.
So you still wouldn't accept his "death", he's probably still somewhere, still searching for something- or maybe someone that could 99.999% be...you.
He...He couldn't possibly be this easy to give up. You know him, even after you two had not been together- he's still lingering at the harbor, waving at you. Like he didn't just shattered your heart into pieces.
You didn't see the bruises and deep scars on his arms and body forming from inflicting damage upon them during one of his manic episodes. Thinking how he could have saved you both if he weren't just forced to be an agent in RMS.
At least he'd stop now that he could see your face. His El Coconut.
Yeah...only that Bangsat and the others aren't bothering his head for now.
"Where yer goin', El Coconut? May I follow???" He'd ask you while you'd just glare at him.
Shh, don't mind that he just entered jail two days ago for punching a foreigner. That person was insulting his detective, his beloved El Coconut. He'd do anything to protect who he loves, despite the circumstances.
Okay maybe he starts to feel guilty after your endless nagging at him to change your habits. He'll discuss yhe matter with his system later.
"You're the most reckless person I've ever seen."
"So...Do I get a kiss?"
"No."
"Awh."
One particularly rainy night...
He asked you what you'd do if he turned into a rock. There it is, one of his hypothetical questions again.
Tho...This time he sounds more serious than usual. More than he has ever been during you two were dating. You brushed it off, claiming maybe he just took this kind of things seriously.
"I'd kick the rock until it got washed by the shore."
"Why would yer do that???"
"Because I...can. Happy?"
Cymric pouts, tossing his harmonica at you. Your hands were quick to catch it before it fell to the ground. You glared at him. He paused for a moment before doing something that suprised you at that time. Since you're both in your bed, he pulled your blanket to his side before dumping all of the fabric onto you, snorting before nudges your body against his.
"...Good guess, El Coconut."
If only you knew that was your last interaction with him before he decided to destroy your life.
Now it's just you and the rusted harmonica. Not even Viola- his crew member, knew about his whereabouts now. They had shared worried glances among them, just each of them patting your shoulder and wishing you the best.
"Come on, Cym, don't do me like this. Don't leave me..."
You felt...regretful. It's been decades since you had felt this one hell of an emotion.
Sorry for being harsh and distant when you were dating with them.
For doubting every foolish things he'd do for you that he had a malicious intention behind each of them . A late criminal's son, a child who's abandoned by his prostitute mother.
Someone who wouldn't be accepted by society by seeing himself as a man.
You knew you had wished for this when you were ending things with the poor guy.
You knew that he's homeless, just after you had searched for him in a moment of yearning one time, you had saw him sleeping near the harbor. Wait...Didn't he have a place to stay before?
Whatever.
But please, you need them to come back to your arms. You'd promise Cymric Sylor to be a better man in secret. Now that he's gone...
"Not like this."
You ran and quickly grabbed your things that had been left at home and dialed up a familiar number. Well, after unblocking the person had you finally dialed up his number.
Beep...beep...
"What do you need, Sleuth?"
Finally. Goddammit, Jeong-Ae. He's the only option left despite him being your worst enemy ever.
"Wait...Haha! How the hell did you get my precious little number? Did you stalked me to get it?"
Fuck him. Why is he acting so...unserious? Did he not feel sad after his favourite agent has disappeared?
"I won't share things or someone with you anymore, you know? Especially Cymric. He's always been mine."
You tsked at him. He continued to giggle softly on the other side of the line.
Hesitation floods your mind- did Jeong-Ae not know about Cymric's disappearance? You definitely think it's not recently that news had been viral. Or is this man is out of his damn mind?
"H-hic- damn it-"
Ah, nevermind. Jeong-Ae sounds like he's trying so hard to not sound like he just finished crying and we know he just cries around his favourite person.
"...W-well, why do you call me huh? And since when did you obtain this secret number of mine, hmm?"
You rolled your eyes in annoyance, ignoring his ridiculous question and immediately told him what you needed.
Well, not after blackmailing him...because he won't just help you for free.
"Oh~ And I thought detective is siding with the law?"
"Do you want to find him or not?"
...
"...Fine. But don't expect any of those foolish "friendship" things coming from me."
Jeong-Ae hangs up on you.
Oh, Fidèle sounds a bit...Happy? He really likes Cymric- wait you shouldn't forget that Cymric is yours. You wouldn't let that scumbag take your idiot sailor.
Not until Cymric himself has detached himself from you, you wouldn't let him go.
Feed your dashboard by answering my question, blogger.
I rarely skip tutorial, especially when it comes to art or writing or even character designs tutorial. Game tutorials? Yeah unfortunately I have to watch them unless I want to glitch out and probably crash the game or found a bug by accident ✌️😭 totally not speaking from experience
Even some that I already know will still be revisited sometimes so I could refresh back the knowledge that I've gained on something.
But like repetitive and disruptive tutorials? Oh boy I'm sprinting like lightning McQueen on transberry juice from those annoying tutorials that most of the times never actually did or give anything.
Feed your dashboard by answering my question, blogger.
I'm not really a gamer tbh, but in my opinion, I personally thinks that Mouthwashing has the best lore (probably because I haven't actually played any games like Elden Ring or smth like that)
I really liked the symbolisms in the game AND the diversity in the characters in the game. My personal fav is Daisuke and Anya.
Who's the most jealous (and spiteful) one out of all?? Definitely not Elian, but his face says otherwise
Tw: Body Dysmorphia and Hypersexuality mentioned under this picture
Welp, might as well write a short drabble about them
That one with the not-too-pleased expression is Elian Lázaro, a Colombian boy reaching his late twenties. He's a forensic detective and was known for his eagle eye and ability to read someone's body language, though he struggles with his body (could be seen in one of my posts where he kept adjusting his binders whenever someone mentioned about how he'd look more beautiful if he didn't transitioned) internally. Other than that, he once broke his leg while riding a bicycle when he's a child, so now when the swaying motion happens whenever he's in a ship or something- he easily gets sea sick from remembering the exact moment before he crashed.
The over-the-moon one is Ri Jeong-Ae Fidèle, a Korean-French boy (Born in Korean, was raised in French) is a head surgeon in the RMS agency. His age is probably one year younger or the same age than Elian. He's known for his quick thinking in overwhelming situations, his stamina in bed and his connections to his "sisters" who's actually a couple of middle aged ladies who is content being married to each other and wants someone to take over their reign though despised being addressed as aunties. Unfortunately, his "libido" (or rather, his coping mechanism disguised as taking the lead in bedroom activities) usually took over his logical side of his brain as it stems from his childhood trauma.
Drew this w my fingers (it kinda look like yn tho🫤 BTW Vesperianation is my username on Pinterest, don't search it if you don't want to die from cringe. Oh and I actually based it on a base i saw a glimpse of in Pinterest but now I couldn't find it😓)
