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[outsiders-apo]

Hopefully this is a way that- that Owen's Voices can talk to me withough him hearing? I don't know. I hope this works. I... yeah. I hope this works out.

Ask me questions, I suppose?

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Voices: - Sword Voice - Turtle Voice - Salt Voice - Last Voice - Pastry Voice - Ace of Voices - Raspberry Voice - Drained Voice

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[outsiders-apo]

Hi there, I’m Gilded Voice :)

I’ve been lurking for a while, listening to you talk to the other voices- and wow, that sounded way creepier than it was supposed to.

Uh, so anyway I’ve just decided to introduce myself because… I’m not sure. Just because.

— Gilded Voice

PS: I want to mention (the reason being Owen asked about this) that I am not actually shiny or gilded, it’s just the name I chose.

Gilded Voice, huh? Nice to meet you.

...Nah, it's not creepy. I'm used to it.

You don't need to have a reason! I'm happy to have another Voice to talk to, and I don't think I've heard you before, so... nice to meet you, again!

(Thanks for the clarification, I can see where he got the misconception.)

[outsiders-apo]

hey Apo!

I um- I think things need to change. We’ve been sitting here for a while just- not doing anything. I’m not content with taking a backseat anymore.

I think you should go see Owen. It’s- he definitely doesn’t want to kill you, we can hear it in his thoughts a little bit. But also he probably will anyways, so be careful.

I’ll try to keep you safe though! I was thinking, it hurts Owen when we get too loud, and we can change some things. Like the weather!

hope you’ve been enjoying the sun, because I’m ready to try summoning some heavy downpour if it makes you harder to attack. >:3

-Pastry Voice

Hi Pastry! What's up?

...Oh?

...Oh.

Oh, Pastry, I don't- I don't know, is that safe, is it- I'm not sure if that's advisable, I... I don't really- I mean, don't get me wrong. I want to see him, I do, but like... are you sure it's safe?

You say you can hear into his thoughts, but... how do I know if that's reliable? You say he doesn't want to kill me, but he probably will anyway? Remind me why you think this is a good idea?

...maybe I should just try and restart the run again. It's gone differently this time, so at least things can change, but I can't help feeling that I fucked it up, somehow. I dunno. Are you sure going to see him is the play?

If you think it's a good idea, I'll do it. I trust you.

And if I get hurt...

Well...

There's always another repeat, isn't there?

[outsiders-apo]

Heyyyy

I have a horrible terrible question…

I don’t want to start drama or make people [voices] freak out… I’m Supposed to be Silly guy… not Stress guy….

How do you take care of a broken deamon horn? Or *Demon, I guess?

…

-S

Hi, Scaled!

...

Oh. Oh, no. Scaled, what did you do? Or should I say- what did Drained do?

How do you take care of it? I suppose I am the best person to tell you this. Well, you're going to want to file down the ends where it- where it broke off. So you don't accidentally hurt yourself, because it's sharp, like glass, but stronger. You should keep it wrapped in cloth, because otherwise, it'll just hurt. Horns don't look like it, but there are some nerve endings in there, and when you break a horn they get all exposed, and it hurts like hell. That's basic stuff, like what I was able to do in the Maze, but I'm sure in the outer worlds there are, like, surgeons or lotions or something.

.

.

.

...I'm assuming you're talking about a broken horn, not fully torn off. Because if a demon's horn is fully torn off... well, you'll need a lot of fabric to stem the bleeding.

[outsiders-apo]

psst, Apo! :D

I made something:))

It’s tiny you! As I told Owen with his, I had to take creative liberties because I’ve never actually seen you, but I think it’s okay!

oh, also the way mini Apo is glued makes him look slightly taller than mini Owen, and mini Owen’s expression is a grumpy face, so it looks like he’s mad about it >:)

Hope your clothes are dry! -pastry voice

Awww, Pastry! These are lovely! I- holy shit, I-

Fuck, sorry, I didn't mean to cry, I just- have you ever had a friend who, one day, just... hates you? And I know why, I know why he hates me, he's prejudiced and brainwashed and racist.

But I've been through this so many times, and before his memories come back, he's always so... I dunno. He's the friend I've always wanted.

...And then memory returns or whatever, and he's not.

And I'm expecting it every time, and it never surprises me, and it's stupid to still get upset.

But every time, it hurts.

I just want to see him again. But like, when he's not pushing a spear through my gut or something.

...

Voices, this might sound stupid, but... what if I went and saw him?

(Oh, and Pastry, I can one hundred percent confirm that I am taller than Owen, and it does piss him off. Always.)

[outsiders-apo]

uh oh, you better tell us anything you plan to do (㊀⏠㊀)

I’m serious! Don’t do anything stupid without telling us! You’re making very ominous planning sounds and I don’t like it! (Ò⏠Ó)

oh, uh- the rain might be my fault, sorry? I discovered I can actually summon rain because I wanted Owen to try storm painting- long story- and then I think Gilded tried? But then they summoned a whole thunderstorm and-

point is: oops? Uh, let me try something…

☀️☀️☀️

did that- do anything?

-pastry voice

I... I will, I promise, once it's more... fleshed out, in my head. I know I'm making very ominous planning noises, and I will try my absolute best to let you know, but you need to understand if I'm not able, okay?

PAHAHA- no worries, Pastry! And thank you for the sunshine. It's nice- hopefully I can dry off my clothes a bit. I feel a bit odd just lying flat on my back, out in the open, but I suppose it's fine. The Maze is fine during the day, after all.

[outsiders-apo]

Hi Apo! How are you? Anything you want to ask the voices?

I'm alright, Eko- nothing in particular, I don't think? How's Owen doing? How are you all doing? It's been- a bit.

It's been raining a lot recently, so I've been soaked to the bone- not much shelter out here in the Maze, heh. But I'm getting by. Thinking about how I'm gonna return to the clearing, because I definitely need to- I dunno.

Running away was not the right plan. I need to get Owen reeled in, and I need him to understand-

I just hope I didn't fuck this repeat up beyond repair. I really, really want to save him. To save everyone.

maybe more than i want to save myself...

Oh, fuck.

I might just have the beginnings of a plan...

Fuuuuuuck

[outsiders-apo]

Hey Apo, are you doing okay?

I mean physically. You've probably gotten okay at living in the maze if you've done it so many times, but just to be sure.

Do you have shelter? And food? I wish I could bake you guys pastries.

...I'm not- I'm not mad at you anymore. I still can't believe you ran away, but I'm just...

I'm too tired to be mad.

Owen mentioned the house a while ago, the one you guys said you'd buy together if you escaped? Painting the sunset?

It made me want to come talk to you.

-Pastry Voice

I- I'm alright, yeah, I'm-

I'm trying. I'm trying. It's- it's so hard out here, I miss Rasbi, I miss- I miss everyone, Pastry, I'm so scared. I'm- I know I've been here before, I've done this all before, but it doesn't make it any less terrifying. I hear things at night and they're scary, I'm scared, I don't know what to do-

I'm sorry. I've- yeah.

Thank you for not being mad at me.

...

He- he did? He talked about- about the house? Yeah- heh- I guess that was the plan. We were gonna- we were gonna paint the sunset? He never mentioned that part, but we were gonna have two cats, a black one for him and a gray one for me, and we would have a garden with tomatoes, and just- I-

snf

I'm sorry, Pastry.

Fuck, man, I'm so sorry.

for everything

[outsiders-apo]

Apo.

I-I don't know if I'm thinking straight, but do the winners get put back in the maze? Like if they survived before are they still there when the maze resets? If so, what is the point of escaping. Umm.. actually it might be best if you don't think about this... Whatever.

Best wishes, or something - Branch Voice

I... yeah

they do

oh no

was there even ever a way to get out?

[outsiders-apo]

Hmm. Interesting. And you're not going insane; I'm pretty sure I'm real. An insane person wouldn't care if they were insane. Trust me, I know.

I... okay.

Thank you for the... reassurance? I think?

Anyway. Thank you, Eko.

[outsiders-apo]

Hi, Apo! How exactly are you talking to us? You mentioned before that it was different from your Voices, and (at least for me) the connection just sort of, appeared one day, out of nowhere. How did it work?

It's... you know, I don't think I'm totally sure myself. I just... okay, this is going to sound odd, but it was all mind games, right? I just... I imagined a door. A door to Owen's mind.

And then I imagined opening the door.

And you all just came... spilling through! I guess you could just be figments of my imagination, but oh well. I... I honestly can't really be doubting the only outside connection to any living thing I'm getting right now, heh.

...I think I might be going insane in here.

[outsiders-apo]

Okkayy- I'm back.

It turns out Pastry Voice does in fact not have a house, so the best I could do was leave her near Owen.

We spoke, but I didn't mention you, so don't worry. He said she wouldn't attack me if I stayed. He said she talks about me a lot.

I think I believe him. But I'm still scared.

Um- someone did this earlier, I think it was Salt? They like- shared the memory of a conversation with you.

I don't really want to share the conversation me and Pastry Voice had, plus I think you saw it anyway, but maybe I can do this?

Yea, that's what she did. It was terrifying. I've never seen a ghost glitch like that- I didn't even know we could!

-Salt Voice (I'll go back to Anon after this)

Oh you left her near Owen? That's good. Thank you for not mentioning me, and... yeah, yeah, she does talk about you a lot.

It's understandable to be scared. I'm scared half the time, for god's sake, like- yeah. I think that was Drained who shared the memory with me, or maybe Scaled. One of the two.

Siblings are hard to tell apart sometimes, pfft.

Oh.

I can see that.

Oh, no, that's- that's- that's distressingly similar to how Owen acted. I don't... that is not good, Basil. That is not good at all.

I hope she's okay, is she still... is she still unconscious? Or what?

Yeah, um... hoping the best for you, Basil. I hope stuff gets better between you two, but I...

I dunno. Things happen.

[outsiders-apo]

Hello, hello!

So, when you mentioned that you thought Owen saw you, but you weren't sure? Yeah, pretty sure he saw you. I asked him what he would do if he saw you in the maze and his answer was along the lines of that he would pretend he hadn't, because if he saw you then he would probably have to do something about it and he really doesn't want to. He got rather... upset? Scared? At the thought of you getting hurt or killed.

Also, talking Owen out of the whole hating/imprisoning demons thing, might be possible? He's already starting to doubt it, and whether he's doing the right thing. He talks about fighting demons like it's something he has to do, but also really doesnt want to. He still talks about hating demons, but it seems more like a conditioned response or learned behavior than anything else. He sounds like he's trying to convince himself more than us. Its... a work in progress, but there is progress.

Hope this helps!

-Purple Voice

Oh. He... oh. That's... that's good. I'm... that's really good.

Oh! He might actually be able to be talked out of it? That's wonderful. I'm- that's really lovely. This is really good news, Purple.

Thank you.

I... it's hard to hope sometimes, and you've just made it a bit easier for me. Thank you for the update.

[outsiders-apo]

You know fights were never my sort of thing, they were always more a deal for Void. or hell no one won a debate against Danger.

But hey! Why not try something new while rotting away here. And Last is a great teacher.

i don't know where Last learned how to throw a punch like that. They knew how to do a lot of cool moves. Most of which hurt. Which was nice. It helped.

To feel something. Just a reminder that somehow i still exist. it actually quite interesting that the only thing i can physically feel is pain.

And they even taught me some of the stuff so, we're friends now!

I know you said not to. but you couldn't stop it so why care!

I really think i'm starting to go insane. What about you? How are you holding up?

Do you have anything to go against Owen with? If i were you i'd take a page of his book and try to exploit his past traumas against him. which is actually incredibly easy to do with how many he has.

i'm not very funny am i?

Well then if your too nice for that....maybe turn his own plans against him. Apparently he wants to but the demons in prison. Maybe try locking him up instead if you don't want to hurt him.

If you want to be such a hero, then you don't even have to put him in that same cell he died in.

But Apo,

Promise me you'll stop him. Please?

-Salt Voice (Jade)

Salt Voice! Jade! It's been a little while, hasn't it?

I... Jade, I'm- you can't- you can't. I'm sorry, violence isn't the answer, Last is a bad influence, you-

You realize that if you turn to violence, you're just as bad as Owen, right? I'm- I'm okay, but that's not-

No! I'm not going to fucking manipulate him, Jade, what the fuck? What are you talking about? I'm- I... yeah. I'll find a way to imprison him.

I... I can't promise anything, Jade, but I'll try.

I'll try.

[outsiders-apo]

@#$^)%&, what the fuck? did you follow me here?

Uh- yeah... I had to make sure- well, it doesn't matter.

It totally does matter! I thought I was going crazy! What the hell did you have to make sure of that would provoke you to stalk me across the void, after running away?

I-

On the topic, why did you do that? Was it something I did?

I-I can't-

Can't what? Oh no- don't you dare run away! I've been going mental sitting around with Owen in the clearing wondering what the fuck I could possibly have done- HEY!

*SMACK*

...

GODS ABOVE WILL YOU SHUT UP? I'm sick of this bullshit! You killed someone Ryka! I watched you kill someone! so forgive me if I have a hard time pretending not to re-

...

Not to remember...

You didn't remember.

Shit- I'm- ...Ryka?

...

...

... Nonononononononononononono I-I didn't why would I I-I'm not himI'mnotlikehim whywouldIamIlikeOwennononononono

...Ryka... Ry- Ryka you're glitching- Ry- RYKA-

*Thud*

Oh- oh shit- Apo- Apo does Ryka- I mean- Pv, does she have like a house you know of or something? She just passed out and I don't-

-Basil Voice

Pastry Voice? I don't know, I don't remember, I-

Oh, fuck. Oh, shit. This isn't- this is not good. I don't know what to do. I don't know- maybe Owen can help? Or maybe not, I'm... fuck.

[outsiders-apo]

Wha- uh- the fuck?

Dude, what the hell? Forget Basil, how the fuck did you just kick me out of your mind???

You know what- never mind. I'm back, I'm kind of mad about it, and I'm probably going crazy because...

Oh, Fuck. Uh- Hi?

...Basil?

Remember, Pastry Voice? I'm the one who let you guys in here, I'm not bound to you like Owen is. I can get rid of you if I need to.

And, uh... I hope you're not mad at me?

[outsiders-apo]

Heheheh yeahhh

Scaleds bites don’t hurt at allll

I DONT HAVE FANGS

L

DO NOT L ME

L~~~~

You-!

Go on, bite me.

>:/

I don’t wanna now

Yours, winning, Drained

I agree with you. Scaled is totally taking the L.