Hi! You can call me Spoon, not too comfortable using a name I really go by here. This is a super secret blog, after all. I'm 27, just got my Bachelor's degree, I'm a literature and linguistics nerd and I minored in creative writing!
I play video games, read books (always taking recommendations for my TBR), collect miniatures, and roleplay!
I have a cat named Allie who is about 13 years old and she is a menace and also my sweetest little buddy.
Fandom Stuff
I love spider-man to a concerning degree. I'll post a pic of all my merch eventually.
I'm a fan of all things Marvel, and if I don't know something about it, I'll look it up and go down a rabbit hole. I write a lot of fanfic including co-writing with @plasmas-arcade who does the the editing and posting process because he's more dedicated than I am (and I forget to do it)
What I Do Here
I run some roleplay blogs on here, including @even-better-john-walker, @official-jakeyoung and @peeber-parker
You'll see me most active on the John Walker blog because he's a blast to RP with.
IMPORTANT NOTE: Especially on my main blog, this one, I post and reblog NSFW content. Don't interact with me regarding that if you are a minor. Otherwise, thirst with me over fictional men (and women). I keep the horny posting contained mostly here rather than the RP blogs.
HIDDEN SECRET:
I use this š¦ emoji when I send anonymous asks!
I think that's it! If you are following me, (why?) Thank you! And enjoy my constant ramblings and reblogs. <3
āreligions are flawed cuz people are flawed!ā itās def not cuz they have legal control of systems that consistently oppress minorities LOLā¦. also why stand up for christians when they think youāre a damn freak yourself?? anyway op is right and we need to be more anti religion. judaism is no exception yall treat women like shit too. and idc ur local faction thatās āaccepting of everyoneā cuz having a little lala club means nothing in the face of, again, the rigid systems religions have set in place to cause the pain and suffering of those deemed different from them. you might as well just be a mormon at this point. GET ANOTHER ALTER OUT THIS ONE NEEDS TO STICK TO AO3
idk if itās just one person sending these asks but can you not be an antisemitic fuck in my asks please
iām only answering one of these (this one) and deleting the rest since all of them tell me to kill myself and make fun of me for having DID.
you all claim to want better for the world while making fun of a jewish disabled person WHO LITERALLY IS MORE OF A COMMUNITY SERVANT THEN YOU WILL EVER BE.
You sit on the fucking internet making fun of a random fucking single father instead of actually going out and changing the world. How fucking pathetic are you people???
ANYWAYS:
You guys are all Stalin worshipping psydo-intellectuals who donāt even know how to actually support real suffering people because you donāt do an ounce of real life mutual aid.
Itās monday, so iāll be heading down to the farmers market and sitting with the church group (OF WHICH IM NOT EVEN A PART OF) and will be helping raise money for Palestinian families such as my own. Because some people like me actually GIVE A SHIT. AND HAVE HOPE.
Anon asks are being turned off also, because you fucks canāt behave yourselves and act like grown ass adults.
I pissed off the pro-Authoritarianism side of tumblr... how will I ever recover :(
This is me coming out as anti-facist, anti-authoritarian, and anti-dictator.
But in all honesty, if your opinions were defensible at all, or you were actually good people like you probably think you are, you wouldn't be telling me and my partner to kill ourselves.
Yelenaās favorite thing about Walker is that she really doesnāt have to be careful with him. Heās more fun to mess with than anyone else in the tower. Not only is he a grown man, (whoās almost a foot taller than her with years of military experience), but heās also a super soldier.
Heās her favorite sparring partner because she knows she doesnāt have to hold back. She knows she canāt hurt him, not really, so she gives it everything sheās got. Heās back up and ready the second she takes him down, usually grinning or egging her on, unwilling to let her win.
Sheāll punch him in the arm after he makes a joke at her expense, knowing it wonāt even leave a bruise, despite her using her full strength. Sheāll poke at him or pinch him whenever the opportunity arises, only to be met with a quick hand brushing her away like a gnat.
When he asks her to pass him something, sheāll purposely hurl it has hard as she can in his direction. Most times heāll catch it, rolling his eyes as he does so. Sometimes sheāll manage to catch him off guard and the item will hit him square in the chest, only knocking the breath out of him for a moment before he recovers. She always grins triumphantly when she manages to surprise him.
Her goal of course is never to hurt him, itās just nice to not have to calculate her every little move in fear of injuring the other person. Sheād never had that before. She was always the fastest, the strongest, so sheās never been able to just do without thinking. The couple times sheād really gotten a good hit in or thought she mightāve actually hurt him, sheād stop immediately to check and make sure heās fine. Which he always assured her he was.
He of course doesnāt mind being the target of her shenanigans, sheād know it if he did. He honestly thinks itās kind of funny/fun to watch her really put her full effort into something thatās not a life or death situation. Heās remembering what itās like to be a big brother, and sheās learning how to be a little sister again.
*if Iām not mistaken john has a little sister canonically, and ofc Yelena didnāt really ever have much of a chance to be a little sister, besides when she was little.
John talks a fuck ton. Certified yapper. It feels like he never sits still, and that heās never heard of comfortable silence. The second his eyes open in the morning, he up and moving and his mouth is running.
But he also listens.
He knows how each of his teammates take their coffee, (or tea, in Avaās case), and how they like their eggs. He knows what street Bucky grew up on, and can recite the names of every airmen in Alexeis squadron from his time in the service.
He observes.
He knows Yelenaās preferred brand of mac and cheese, and what one to get if theyāre out of her favorite even tho she never told him. He knows that bob prefers paperbacks over hardcovers, and that Ava has to sleep in complete darkness.
He knows things about them that they might not notice themselves.
He knows when Avaās pain is bad, her posture curves inward slightly, as if she were folding in on herself, and her hold too tightly on anything in her grasp. Her breathing becomes methodical, deep inhale and slow exhale, trying to switch her focus over from her aching body. On those days heāll silently bring her weighted blanket, make sure the showers were clean and ready for use, and switch her Earl Grey for Chamomile to help with the inflammation.
Heāll ask Alexei for help, with little things. Grabbing stuff from top shelves, opening jars when cooking, asking him to dry the dishes as he washed them. He even let the older man help him train, even thought heād show John moves he knew he could do in his sleep. But he knows Alexei enjoys feeling useful, enjoys giving advice and teaching him things, just as any father would. He likes seeing the proud look on Alexeiās face when he uses some of the moves heād been taught, during missions.
Bucky does not like dealing with things alone, despite what he says (and maybe believes), but he doesnāt know how to do it any other way. So after a mission goes sideways, or bad news gets delivered, heāll seek Bucky out. He never goes too far, not really wanting to truly get away. Sometimes itās down to the gym, sometimes heāll take a walk, other times he waits until the ungodly hours of the morning before appearing at the kitchen island, eyes glazed over and unfocused. John doesnāt talk, he knows thatās not what he needs. So he sits, or stands, or walks beside him. Never getting too close, but close enough to say, Iām here.
Despite her best efforts to keep her emotions under wraps, Yelenaās bad moods are always the most obvious to John. Not because she takes it out on him, itās quite the opposite actually. She starts to pull back her taunting and jabs, letting the opportunity to make a quick joke at his expense pass by. So heāll provoke her. Sure, not the most mature approach, but he knows it works. Heāll push her buttons, not in a way that truly does any harm, but just enough to get her to give in. Suddenly, the flood gates open, and John is getting an earful about whatever it was that had her down in the first place. By the time sheās done ranting, and she catches her breath, he knows sheās already feeling better. Back to her mischievous self, sheāll snatch the snack out of his hand or flick him as she makes her way out of the room, none the wiser that this was his plan all along. Despite incurring the wrath of the smaller blonde, he finds himself smiling.
Bob gravitates towards people naturally, never too far from one of his friends, trailing behind them like a shadow. But he doesnāt allow himself to touch. It makes sense to John, if he had to power to send people spiralling back into their most shameful moments with just a brush of hands, he probably wouldnāt wanna touch anyone either. But Bob clearly Bob wants to. He sits close to Yelena during movie nights, hovers over Avaās shoulder as her Tea brews, stands close behind Bucky during training. Hell, heās come a to sit on johns bed with him more than once, but heād always keep space between them. So he started pushing. Sitting on the other side of Bob during movie nights, causing Bob to be hip to hip with both him and Yelena. Purposely holding his waist as he moved behind him. Moving the stools in the kitchen closer together, causing shoulders to brush as they ate. Eventually, he noticed Bob would be closer without any coaxing. Heād sit with Ava and read, and let Yelena grab his hand to drag him wherever she pleased. Heād even fallen asleep on johns shoulder last time theyād watched a movie.
UPDATE. The pro-Stalin crowd are also NORTH KOREA GLAZERS. WHAT THE FUCK
*gestures to the defectors* the fact there are DEFECTORS from North Korea in the first place- what are we talking about here folks, have we LOST OUR MINDS?
Like, yes, the U.S. has a robust propaganda system that warps how we view things but guys it's okay to not approve of authoritarianism, dictators, and genocide and still be a communist! You can be a communist and condemn all those things!
UPDATE. The pro-Stalin crowd are also NORTH KOREA GLAZERS. WHAT THE FUCK
*gestures to the defectors* the fact there are DEFECTORS from North Korea in the first place- what are we talking about here folks, have we LOST OUR MINDS?
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