It's been a while
So, it's been a while. I'm alive, well physically. I graduated uni last year don't know if I've mentioned that. I have a job and I hate it. I'm stressed, depressed, and lowkey suicidal. I dated someone decent earlier this year. Lasted almost 5 months and I genuinely felt loved and understood, but he ended it because he "can't see himself loving me" so I don't know what I was feeling. It was perfect till it ended. Except he didn't love me or want me or care about me and was just wasting my time while he wasn't truthful about his intentions. I don't know what love is. How someone can make you feel so special but not mean it. Did I do something? Am I that easy to ditch? Worthless is how I feel and I can't get him out of my mind. I don't know how I can trust another man again. How can I get played and have literally no clue? He thought about it for two days two fucking days and called it quits. Like I never mattered. Anyway, I'm searching for new jobs and unfortunately him in other people.
