ozworld

21, diary

[ozonedecay]

Anglerfish

She’s going to leave me

Sixteen moles on her back / Same color as her eyes / As her hair

Before she bleached it ginger / And dyed mine black

Crouched over in that cramped camper / Face pinched from the peroxide / Smell stayed for days

Woke up together with migraines / Couldn’t open the windows Mosquitoes and moths / Midnight opportunists

Started nipping at me after that / Needs fresh air

Just some room

But she keeps me from rigor mortis / Stiffening up with my arms branch crooked / From leaving a black stain on the floor / In the shape of a man

Need you / I love you / Need you

Do you need me?

Wrap her in my throat / Turn my mouth inside out / Swallow

She’s an anglerfish / Sharp tooth silence

Pretty glow in my dark / Wish I could / Absorb into her / Inject myself into her

Hug her like / Hydrogen bond / Graft myself onto her / Siamese twin, October in Vienna

Walk on the street / Just passing through / Parallel park the camper I can do it, she can’t / She needs me / Doesn’t know how much

Threats everywhere / Walks ahead of me

Reach out, tug her back / Stay on the inside / Make sure everyone knows

I have the right to touch her / To take her / To squeeze like this / Right on the waist

She barks louder and louder / Nips at me / Scrabbles against my chest

I let her think she can hurt me / With her weak slap and push / Whines when she gets kicked

Because I know her Sixteen moles / Little Machiavelli / I know her

She smells my stench when I’m dying / Hears my rattle / Bites my hands when I feed her / She knows me

So when I thrash her body / When I give her what she gives me / When I’m changing the locks and keeping the keys / Prune her so she can grow right / Best if it’s me

Just did it once

Just once / Because / Need to protect her / Try this shit with someone else / Won’t end as well

When she’s thrumming I don’t decompose

She won’t leave me.

[ozonedecay]

Depop reseller gf and stock market bf

[ozonedecay]

i wrote this about 3-4 years ago and i am now 21 years old and i did in fact get my version of this last year and it was fucking awful because he was a crypto truther in 2024 and i wanted to kill him and once we actually woke up and the first thing we did at 10 am in the morning was get into an argument about stocks and crypto where he wanted to invest in "HOGE" or fucking whatever lmfao. and i was like that is fucking stupid

then i wrote like 3 poems about it

anyway now i am embodying the

stem bf humanities gf

trope and it's fucking awesome

[ozonedecay]

I got a tarot reading and the main takeaways are:

I am headed down the right path for my chosen career, and if I keep working towards it I can lay to rest the conflicts that might make me feel trapped.

I need a healthy sense of competition in order to succeed. I need to find it so that I don't stagnate.

My bf and I have heavy potential to be long term together if we can work out the current issues in our relationship (mostly me), but it was mostly optimistic.

I know tarot is kinda iffy but it really makes me feel so hopeful :)

[ozonedecay]

I can both change so much and yet stay the same over the course of one year. Kinda scary and exciting. What parts of me are permanent and what parts of me still need to mature!!

[musicktoplayinthedark]

Throbbing Gristle

[gglilyallin-deactivated20250618]

L to any puppy fans who havent heard from ogre since 2019 but my astrology app gives me weekly updates on his emotional state

[gglilyallin-deactivated20250618]

this wasnt intentional i just ran a romantic compatibility on him once and now it tells me how he’s feeling every week

[areyoutheregoditsmecarolina]

[ozonedecay]

The show Euphoria makes me so angry and annoyed and yet I still drag myself to the computer to watch when a new episode comes out. It’s genuinely self harm at this point LOL

[catchthirtythree]

[ozonedecay]

Imagine being a little ugly white dog with eye crust and an owner that doesn't care for you correctly. And you smell bad because things get caught in your fur and because of that nobody wants to pet you. Imagine being that little ugly dog and trying to get attention from people and always wondering why nobody wants to pet you and always pushes you away ohhhh my god

[ozonedecay]

with the rapid rise of “Indie sleaze” and “blog revival” on the horizon I brace myself for TikTok refugees trying way too hard to be cool and maybe even resuscitating Tumblr lol

[ozonedecay]

[madatmost]

[blacksabbathcoversproject]

Jello Biafra’s run for Mayor of San Francisco, 1979

Jello’s platform included:

Requiring businessmen to wear clown suits within city limits

Holding elections in which police would be voted into office by the neighborhoods they patrol.

Tearing down Pier 39

Legalizing squatting in vacant, tax-delinquent buildings

Paying the unemployed to panhandle in wealthy neighborhoods

Banning cars citywide, and

Erecting a statue of Dan White (who assassinated former Mayor George Moscone and Sup. Harvey Milk the previous year) and having the parks department sell eggs, stones, and tomatoes with which to pelt it.

Biafra, whose campaign slogan was “There’s always room for Jello”, came in fourth with 3.79 percent of the vote.

[ozonedecay]

I GOT INTO ONE OF MY DREAM SCHOOOLSSS

[sacredcitycenter]

[fuzzyghost]