The Disorder(tm)

celes, 18, she/they || don't follow this blog if you aren't mentally ill and/or a trauma survivor || this is a sideblog and can't follow back! ask for my personal if you want

[justjames]

:))))))

[c-ptsdofficial]

me: *is left alone for 0.10 seconds*

me: i am… unlovable

[liz-cat-meow-deactivated2020011]

[avpdfuuka]

wikiHow to Disappear From Peoples’ Lives Not Because You Don’t Like Them But Because You’re Easily Overwhelmed By Regular Social Interaction

[stolligaseptember]

sometimes i think the only emotion i can feel is anxiety

[flipclock]

me: i’m going to clean my room! i’m going to take a shower! i will wake up early and take care of myself! brain: u know whats fun? rotting.

[thebookgirl-helen]

[strawberryhorrorshow]

Being abused made me such a “good kid.”

I was

Always polite

Never acted without permission

Never spoke out of turn

Always did what I was told

And it’s shitty that I was considered mature and praised for those things, and all of those characteristics have translated into me being an immature, “bad adult.”

Now I

Have difficulty making a keeping friends

Can’t act without permission/am dependent on others for direction

Am terrible at communicating

Have no agency/personal compass

It’s a really difficult thing for people who were abused as children to grapple with. What made us good children make us bad adults.

[badlydrawneverything]

[yayoroses]

tbh i didn’t plan to make it this far in life so i’ve no idea what i’m doing

[ventsnstuff]

Me @ my childhood traumas:

[recaption]

[stckwll]

[chronyck]

[dankmemesreasonforliving]

[mspaintsuggestion]

[bohrderline]

Nobody seems to talk about how much worse mental illnesses get when you experience a menstrual cycle