Pace of Existence

Nothing ever stops you bleeding

[paceofexistence]

[paceofexistence]

you tumblr guys are crazy, my ugly body was reblogged almost two thousand times

[paceofexistence]

9 years ago, now at 57.5k, suppose did something right?

[thehopefulquotes]

You’re seeking something, but at the same time, you are running away for all you’re worth.

Haruki Murakami (via thehopefulquotes)

[homunculus-argument]

I finally found some sort of an actual explanation of what "stimming" means, and apparently it's just when you do shit - whether it's neutral/postive like moving back and forth, or negative, like compulsively picking your skin - for mental stimulation, because your brain is understimulated and needs something to do.

Which sounds exactly like the kind of weird shit that horses start doing when they've been left alone in a stall for too long and haven't been getting proper enrichment.

...Are we all just improperly kept animals? Be in a neurotypical environment for too long and you start doing zoo animal shit.

[perfeqt]

“Life is about evolving. Don’t stay in a situation that’s not helping you grow mentally, spiritually, and emotionally.”

— Unknown

[conscious-love]

When you choose a partner you are also choosing someone who will have the ability to influence your daily thoughts, feelings, and mental health. Choose someone who is emotionally safe. Choose someone who has a kind heart. Choose wisely.

letstalk.mentalhealth

[evenfallmuse]

And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.

-Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore

[surqrised]

“At your absolute best, you still won’t be good enough for the wrong person. At your worst, you’ll still be worth it to the right person.”

— Karen Salmansohn

[paceofexistence]

Or

some people are just weak little shits

never feeling enough no matter how hard one tries, dragging people down w their lack of self worth

always blaming others

[weltenwellen]

Mark Wolynn, It Didn’t Start with You: How Inherited Family Trauma Shapes Who We Are and How to End the Cycle

[paceofexistence]

So my trust got betrayed by my partner. Multiple times. Lying to cover up the lies, for more than 1,5 years, constantly covering up more and more.

I am still not sure if everything is out. I’ve got the truth in pieces and only because I pushed and begged.

I’m trying to deal with it. But I have no clue how to. I don’t know which direction to choose. I’ve read talking to someone who ‘has survived betrayal in a relationship and has come out on the other side’ might help.

Anyone here who has gone through something similar and might fancy a chat?

[paceofexistence]

BPD doesn’t pair well with a partner who is continuously lying, triggering every single nerve

[thoughtkick]

Mean people don’t bother me a bit. Mean people who disguise themselves as nice people bother me a lot.

Unknown (via thoughtkick)

[thoughtkick]

“It’s so hard to leave- until you leave. And then it is the easiest goddamned thing in the world.”

— John Green; Paper Towns

[perfeqt]

“The worst distance between two people is misunderstanding.”

— Law of Attraction (via quotefeeling)

[paceofexistence]

But I was young

I was in love with the idea of love

[paceofexistence]

[paceofexistence]

One moment, there you are, slumped on the sofa, drooling away in happy open-mouthed assent, the next you've come to blows with your partner. The thing about honesty in relationships - a thing so blatantly obvious that it seems a miracle couples haven't coughed quietly and pointed it out more often - is that it doesn't exist ...