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Mahilig ako magkape sa umaga sa tanghali sa gabi at miski hating gabi ay wala akong pinipili

Gusto ko yung timplang mapait yung tapang na 'di nakakapagbigay kalma. Yung nagpapanginig nag bibigay bilis tibok ng puso ko gusto ko yung ganun

At ayoko ring mag pa timpla ayokong umasa sa iba na mag takal at mag pakulo ng mainit gusto ko ako lang, Dahil ang proseso ng pagtitimpla para sakin ay nabibigay romansa—mula sa pagpili ng paborito kong baso sa pag takal ng mga saktong sangkap at paghihintay sa pagkulo ang tubig ng dahan dahan pero kasabikan naman ang laan, hanggang maingat kong sinasalin ang tubig dahil ayokong matalksikan mapeklatan at masaktan.

Siguro marami nga akong seremonyas at buladas na bakit ang simpleng bagay ay ginagawa kong komplikado pero paumahin dahil sa ganito ko tunay nalalasap ang sarap ng pagpapahalaga

Para sakin walang tiyak na kapareha na pedeng ikumpara o ihalo sa kape dahil ayoko ring mag matamis bakit kamo?

Dahil ayoko ng may kasalo, minsan kong sinubukan mag dagdag asukal paputiin at pakalmahin ang dilim—minsan korin itong nagustuhan, pero madalas ay nauunahan pa ako ng mga langgam para ito'y tikman

Marahil sasabihin ng iba ay wala namang mali dito kahit gatas o pulot ang ihalo pero para sakin nawawala ang halaga ng dapat ipakita nawawala ang lasa napapalitan ang kulay nawawala ang kaluluwa ng dapat ay bida.

Matatagal narin nang huli kong natikman ang tamis, matagal tagal konaring iniiwasan ang asukal sa garapon naging mistula nalang siyang palamuti sa mesa para 'di masabing kulang, nandiyan pero hindi bubuksan.

Naging natural na sakin ang paginom ng madalim na kape na habang ako'y tulala para ba akong hinihikayat na sumama manatili sa sulok at nerbyusin sa kaba tunay ang bangungot sa umaga at matagal ko na tong tanggap ang tingin ko dito ay kalinga.

Kaya hindi ko maintindihan na sa tagal ko ng umiinom nito bakit ngayon pako nagkulang

Bakit nagbago bakit iba na ang kinasanayan kong lasa

Mula sa pag inom ko ng purong kape sa umaga sa tanghali sa gabi at hanggang hating gabi hindi kona matikman unti-unti at konaring nakakalimutan

Pero alam akong wala akong binago kalkulado koparin mula sa pagpili ng paborito kong baso hanggang sa pahihintay sa tubig na kumulo at maingat na paghahalo

Pero bakit wala na yung pait bakit wala na yung dilim at lagim na dala ng tasang iniinom ko, Wala nang nerbyos wala na yung nginig wala na yung bangungot habang gising ako sa umaga

Pero napapatulala parin ako habang hawakhawak itong tasa, iniisip na anong mahika, hiwaga o sumpa ang kumapit sakin

para palitan ng tamis ang pait na dapat ay para sakin

Alam kong diko ginalaw ang asukal sa mesa pero nalalasahan ko nalang ay tamis, hindi ko matanggap na untiunti nang tinatanggap

ng sistema ko ang lasa at dahan dahan nakong nagpapaubaya

Hanggang ngayon tasang dilim na may tamis parin ang natitikman ko malabo at mala burado na ang lasa ng nakasanayan pero tanda ko ang unang lagok ko ng pagbago nito—tiyak ako Ito'y dahil sayo.

Mula sa hindi inaasahan na tawag marahan kong tinignan ang pangalan sa telepono kahit alam kong ikaw lang naman ang tanging nakalagay dito,kaya kahit ang kanan ay wala namang laman mas pinili kong ibaba ang tasa kong kape sa kaliwa para masagot ang tawag mo, mabilis at dahan-dahan namalayan kona lang lumamig na ang kapeng tinimpla ko sa haba ng ating kwentuhan

Alam mong hindi ako umiinom ng malamig na kape pero dahil nanghinayang ako pilit lunok ko itong nilunon at dun ko unang natunghayan ang mahikang dala mo, na pano mo na bago ang matamlay na panlasa ko patungong buhay.

Na pano kumulay ang dilim na hindi kinakailangan ng asukal at gatas kundi purong ikaw lang— Pinanginginig at pinabibilis parin ng timplang kape ang tibok ng puso ko pero alam kong hindi na 'to nerbyos; Alam kong hindi na.

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Sa loob ng kwadradong sisidlan ng mga pinaglumaang pagmamay ari

ng mga taong inuumuga sa kakalilok ng luha at ligaya

makabuo lang ng isang makabuluhang piraso

na maitatago sa sulok at pader ng museo

Mga obra na higit sa kulay at putik ang pagkabuo

Mga libro na hindi maalikabukan sa paglaho

Mala misteryong establisyemento at kapanapanabik na tagpo

sa loob ng museo ako nakabuo ng kwento

Tiyak akong nasa ulirat ako ng panahon nayon pero sa totoo inakala ko talagang

isa ka sa obra na karugtong ng paborito kong pinta sa pader

Aaminin ko na napatid ako sa unang sulyap

nadarang sa pangalawa at nag patihulog nang ako’y bumabad na

Kabisado konaman ang buong pasikot sikot ng museo naiyakan

konarin ang mga piling obra, pilit kinilala ang mga nakatagong ganda

naging paboritong lugar sa bahagyang ginhawa

Pero hindi ko maintindihan nung panahon nayon bakit ako naligaw

Sunudsunuran ang mga paa kong umindayog sa lahat ng iyong hihintuan

pilit na pinakukunot ang mga kilay na nag kukunyaring iniintindi ang matagal ko ng kabisa

Sa gitna ng pagbabad ko sa pagsulyap natunghayan ko na may malalim karing pagtingin sa obra

sinisimot mo ang bawat espasyo at hulma hindi hinahayaang makatakas ang mga kinakatago nitong misteryo

Ngayon ako unang na inggit sa walang buhay na pinta sa pader

Anong pakiramdam ang matunaw sa tingin mo

hanggang saan kaya ako tatangayin ng maganda mong mga mata na may lalalim sa pang-unawa

Sa kasagsagan ng pagbabad ko ninais kopang magpa dausdos pailalalim ng iyong lalim lalo na’t

dahil sayo napagtanto kong hindi ko papala kabisa ang lugar na ito

Ikaw ang ekstensyon ng museo na matagal ko ng hinahanap

Bakas sa labas ang iyong ganda pero pag aaksayahan parin kita ng panahon sa pagunawa

sa paghahanap tungo pasikot sikot na mga sulok na iyong kaangkinan

ikaw ang ginhawa na nais kong maging tuluyan;

Isa kang mamahalin at antigong hindi puwedeng makulong sa kwadradong establisyemento

karugtong ng kagandahahan mo ang kalayaan

at malalim parin akong nakatingin, kahit kinulong kana sa bisig ng nag mamay ari sayo

Madiin kong pinako ang mga paa ko at hinayaan nalamang na humabol ang paningin ko

sa pag lisan ninyo

Nasa ulirat panaman ako na matanggap na ang ninanais kong tuluyan ay mayroon ng piling bisita

Paborito koparin naman ang pintang nasa pader pero ngayon halata na ang pirasong kakulangan nito

Nakakatawang isipin pero hanggang ngayon nakababad parin ako

Sa loob ng kwadradong sisidlan nakabuo ako ng kwento

hindi ko kinailangan na maglilok at mag pa umaga sapat na ang ligaya at luha.

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It Takes Two to Tango:

It Takes Two to Tango is a short film about Linh and Uyen who chose to have a great time and unwinding on a club or a Resto bar.

In a depressed day, Linh finds to Uyen – her bestie to have fun and relax. Seem like Uyen’s world has bring Linh up until Uyen reveals a secret that made Linh seem like dangling in the middle of an abyss.

The main conflict and issue about this story are for the reason that Linh have a big burden that time she was pregnant in young age and she doesn’t know who’s the father in her womb.

The story runs for just a minute and that few minutes I realize the strength of this short film by its dialogue even the silence gives impact to release the un- touched emotions of the character if you asses it seriously you’ll find that the characters moving and living inside the film that makes the acts realistic.

Despite visual was not so good because I think they over used the natural lights and because of that some shadows were expose on the other hand if the cinematographer really intent to play with the shadow to produce mood it really helps.

However, the panning and camera position was really good I see the proper levels and chosen subject to expose the mood of the film.

The music director really hit the proper song suited for the scene however, I heard some conflict on the volume of song sometimes the background song overlaps the volume of the dialogue maybe they just use the actual camera recording of the boom mic was not in a good position or maybe they just do that to minimize the background noise.

Director. Le Can Truong made a symbolic title for this film despite there's no explanation inside I realize that the real issue about this film is not the women who become pregnant from the young age the real issue is about the man was not seen inside of the story, where he is and who he is because the women Linh doesn’t become pregnant by himself because It Takes Two to Tango.

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Bleached Bones Avenue:

During World War 2, an intense battle between the Japanese and the British took place across Myanmar. Consequently, the people of the region faced many violent atrocities against their communities at the hands of Japanese soldiers. After the war, the Chin State in Myanmar was closed off to foreigners, a ban which was only recently lifted in 2013. As a result, the Japanese government made efforts to reclaim the corpses of the fallen. The task fell on the local Zomi people, who still to this day dig through the mountainous area in search of the fallen.

“Bleached Bones Avenue” follows a group of diggers over a period of a couple days, as they arrive at the base to get briefed, grab supplies, then head up the mountain to dig. It is within this process that the futility of the situation becomes conveyed, with such an expansive region slowly excavated by a small handful of locals. Consequently, this quick view into a ‘day of’ explains why the process that started back in 2013 has yet to come to an end, and may never finish.

The factual content in the short is limited in choosing to focus on the task over relaying historical information. As a result, the film may not appeal to all fans of documentaries who Favor information over conveying experiences. Even if there is some cross over, the focus of the filmmakers is apparent.

Looking at the technical aspects of the production, the movie does contain a great deal of visual flair through both slight experimentation as well as the landscape itself. However, it is somewhat hard to not attribute the beautiful cinematography to the remote and picturesque backdrop of the mountainous area. Regardless of reasoning, the end product is profoundly beautiful in exploring the terrain, complimented by stylized black and white segments.

“Bleached Bones Avenue” is a quick, 15-minute look into the lives of the Zomi people tasked with an arduous task. In capturing a single day, the doc proves to be a fascinating look at what the people go through and offer the audience a look into a remote area and a topic rarely if ever discussed. However, the length also hurts the films capability to offer more historical, anthropological or political insight into the operation, which will undoubtedly limit its appeal. On the other hand, the time restrictions present a documentary that is quick and easy to consume, making it a worthy experience despite possible shortcomings in execution.

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BASURERO:

“A see with no catch is a market without fish”

The title of this film was Basurero act by Jericho Rosales who’s portraying the role of bong. With a large family to support, Bong becomes desperate for money and turns to dumping conscience becomes miserable and the fear on his mind telling the possibility he can become trash like what he dumps, someday.

The production delivers a rather chilling portrayal of poverty and murder within the Philippines. It succeeds through avoidance of portraying actual acts of violence and instead focuses on how the human rights violations can affect individuals.

The story runs by the help of narrative scheme the ability to achieve a profound and chilling message within the confines of a short run-time shows that director Eileen Cabiling had a clear understanding of the statement she wanted to get across and the most effective way to deliver it.

The production does boast some impressive visuals. The opening shot at night, including the image of a body sinking through the water sets a strong tone that stays consistent throughout the production. Every shot seems well framed and location work feels spot on, filling the screen with impoverished areas, as even the land that Bong fishes off of is littered with garbage. The music compliments the visuals well, but don’t really stand on their own.

Everything was impressive done in the short mean of time.

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See You Next Century:

Director James Lee uses a series of still frames to tell the story of a time traveller going back to visit his wife. The wife, who has not yet met the man, begins to feel the charm and love of a relationship that carries a profound romance despite never meeting previously. As time progresses, the man reveals that the trips in time are tearing his memories apart and that their meetings have to come to an end. But one final gift to his wife gives them the chance to be together and avoid tragedy.

Projects that utilize stills to convey a story rely on the success of narrative, audio and quality of images, as performances, cinematography, and many other facets of traditional film are pushed aside. This also puts emphasis on the few creative elements, that are able to be critiqued, under Critical observation.

Looking at the audio and visual presentation, the stills used are well selected with no photo feeling redundant or unnecessary. These photos catch the wonderment of romance, the wonderment of time travel and the air of mystery of the whole situation. The stills are complimented by a score that flows well with the tone of the story, transitioning along with the dialogue and the scenario presented. The actual voice over work is clear and matches well with the images. Overall, the presentation is superb in executing the elements essential for a production

The story, which is possibly the strongest aspect of the production, really melds the genres of science fiction and romance in an engaging way. With the narrative coming from the perspective of the wife, we get to experience her coming to terms with two different abstract concepts of time travel and an implicated romance.

So far in all short fill that I watched for this project this film is my most favorite and gives me motivate to create a this kind of film experiment in the future.

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The reason why this short film caught my attention is because the effort they gave to produce this compare to others,the technical and Cinematic manipulation is outstanding.

The story start on major conflict when the father loss his daughter everything awful events happen. Before his daughter died he saw a man standing in front of his daughter and the man's hand was glowing the first thing come from the mind of the father is that man killed her daughter and from that moment the hatred and grivious act was started. The father spent her whole couple of years to find evidence and details about that man just to avenge the life of her daughter. Then after a year he saw someone who have same tattoo and supernatural powers. He follow this person to the point that he abducted this person with her GF. The only thing that the father's want is to make this person felt what he experienced from the past. However he didn't succeed on what he wants and realized that the killer he thought for over a years is the one who try to save her daughter from accident.

The plot was very simple but the twist inside the conflict is mind-blowing, I want to commend the foreshadowing from the first part that connected into the end of the story.

Maybe the edit cannot compare from the foreign country but the desire to execute this kind of film can trigger everyone to produce CGI level kind of movie.

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This film titled Moral was made in 1982 a Filipino film directed by Marilou Diaz-Abaya. The whole story is focusing on four women who were bff’s portray by 4 great actresses in the Philippines. First is Ana Marin as Maritess, next is Gina Alajar as Kathy the third one is Sandy Andlong as Sylivia and last is Lorna Tolentino as Joey.

The whole story possesses the reality of what woman dealing in their lives in this society as a woman. From the start of the story the scene tells that the four-woman was close to each other like a sisterhood and as a friend. They are both student in same University. Sylvia is the most matured in the group her characters was brave and trustworthy despite of being single mother her attributes as a woman can’t be deny the next is Maritess in the first part of the story the setting of the scene was focus on her wedding day and even she’s pregnant Maritess still continuing her college life with her friends the characteristics that I saw to this woman is a Daydreamer her poems were amazing and interpret her truly desire. The third one is Sandy the most talented and passionate women in the group her talent was singing she’s on fire on her desire to be on top and have solo album. The last one is Joey her attitude and character embodied the mean of black sheep in the group even thou her contribution is essential to fulfil the missing part of the group.

Like what I said this film revolves to all women reflecting their point of view in this kind of society. We all know the unheard struggle they are experiencing and embracing every day from stereo type system and because of this I become enlighten from some small glimpses that I overlook from them, and this is all kinds of women I encounter while watching this film:

The traditional women: This title I given was referring to the head of the home where Maritess where living and this is the mother of her husband. This kind of mother-in-law is typical mother-in-law that I know here at the Philippines were even their sprout have own family they still have grudge of possession between a mother to their son. This line gave me the reason to emphasize this insight.  “Kagaya nang sabi ng nanay, ano ang silbi ng babae kung hindi to manganganak, ang babae pinanganak para manganak. Ang sabi pa ng nanay ko ang babaeng baog daw parang balong walang tubig, salok ng salok ang lalaki wala paring mangyayari” The whole mean of this qoute is the reason why women exist in this world is just to produce other lives and if she can’t do this her existent is useless. Yes, this is harsh word that you may receive from older human and this kind of mindset still exist and pass from different generation. From the first word this mother-in-law telling the story that her mother told to her before, so it means. This kind of mindset was occurred before when some women accept the stereo fact that they are just child bearer. If we reflect this in 2021 I can say that this kind of mindset is off to our new society and the minimal person who follow this close minded.

Daydreamer yet oppress: This woman I telling is Maritess, Maritess was a fond of poetry and this kind of talent reflects her characteristics as an innocent and optimistic woman. She wrote poems base on what she feels and interpret it proudly. However, despite of being candidate from lot of opportunities she was lock up as a wife to her husband. Maritess was graduate on bachelor degree but not like others student who pursue a career her life revolves on mother duties. “Bakit hindi ba yung lalaki yung nanganganak? Bakit tayo yung nahihirapan nang ganito? Every day I feel used I feel abused. Buong araw ako nag ttrabaho sa bahay, buong araw din ako ginagamit ng baby ko, pag dating ng gabi ang asawa ko naman yung aasikasuhin ko. Siya naman yung gagamit sakin...... Parang wala na kong Personalidad ngayon parang nalang akong Makina” Maritess say this quote after she realize that she doesn’t want to stay as a mother, wife and son-in-law forever. There’s a lot Maritess right now a woman who stop being herself because of responsibilities that turns into burden they think that bearing a sibling can flip your life into constant duties and everything revolving for your family. Good thing at the end of the story Maritess didn’t stay as a prisoner but she lifts her identity as women far from what society Identify her.

Passionate heart yet opportunist: If you ask me who’s the most focus and consistent in the group that was Kathy because of her talent she become passionate and straight forward through life maybe she’s not the bravest but her attitude to find ways makes her eyes blind from fears and distraction. Her turning point in this story is when she realizes after everything, she did is meaningless because the process she pursue are not meant into her desire success

“Sagutin moko, satingin moba magiging magaling akong singer?.......... Siguro medyo late na,pero narealize ko. I don't want to sing anymore if I can't be very good” she asks this to her friend sylvia and after that she decide to left her build name at singing career and after that she decide to herself to train hard as a singer. Kathy is a kind of women who passionate and self-driven she doesn’t let others makes her life into material but she’s the one who did that to other.

Matured women yet masochist: Sylvia is the most brave and matured women in the group there’s no such things in this world that makes she back off. sylvia is the most brave and matured women in the group there’s no such things in this world that makes she back off. She teaching at catholic school for all women student despite of having old tradition implemented to that school her character and identity remain. She also a single mother and base on how she raising her son she is a modern mother, parenting while studying is one of kind she did however there’s one only conflict in her life and that’s the issue between her ex-husband,

“Mahal mo ako, mahal ko yung asawa ko yung asawa ko mahal si celso, si celso pinamimigay yung sarili sa ibang lalaki.  Pede na tayong mag tayo ng TEAM!

At first when sylvia knows that the other partner of her husband was also a man she cried a lot and ask herself what she done and why she’s not enough but after the first meeting between her and Celso her husband partner they become friends and pursue polyamorous relationship, a kind of relationship who ware open for more than two people while other man in love to Sylvia, Sylvia was in love to her husband and her husband was in love to his partner but celso also entertain others.  A s you see this is not a typical kind of relationship but Sylvia overcome this for the sake of love. Do you think she’s wrong is this immoral? For me it’s not, because she did things what other people only think, she sacrifices far greater behind others who thinks they are in love.

Free Spirit yet not Satisfied: “Malalaman mo daw ang personality ng lalaki kapag tinitignan mo ang brief niya, Kapag ang lalaki gust ng brief na masikip ibigsabihin insecure siya,Kapag maluwag ibigsabihin tamad siya. Kapag gusto naman iisa lang kulay lalo na puti ibigsabihin mahilig sila sa birhen..... Sa dami ng nakita ko pede nako mag patayo ng DEPARTMENT STORE”This last character was the most awful story for me. Joey was a drug and sex addict in her group of friends she’s the living black sheep despite of being little sister. Even though she identity man like just a material that destine to use Joey once become in love into men and he was activist in their school his character was a brave man and not afraid in responsibility however this man has relationship with other women that’s the reason even Joey tempts him he resists and reject her. Because of being broken hearted she become more worst to the point she confines into hospital and doctor said that she can bear a life into her womb. Despite of being dark everything has a reason Joey didn’t do that just because she wants it.  Her life was become miserable since she was a child when her parent split apart that’s the reason why Joey really hates men. Based on what Psychiatrist said to her that she was stop growing since when her parents move away to each other and that’s the reason why she did those things. Joey is a kind of women who experience unfortunate events that makes her life accept and embrace everything just to live.

The whole story tells a lot on what we overlook in society that each woman in this world was also a main character in their own stories. They work and receive unexpected experience more than on what we think of they are just not a piece of material or a bridge to produce lives they are living god, and that’s the think that we must accept in this kind of generation.

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UKAY TAMIS

"ummm Jam, saan pala tayo pupunta?"

"Ikaw bahala"

"Ikaw, saan mo ba gusto?"

"kahit saan..... Yung gusto mo"

"Ah, Alam kona! after nito saan mo gusto kumain?"

"ok lang kahit saan, dinaman ako mapili"

"Kanina sabi mo ako bahala kung saan tayo pupunta,tapos ako rin bahala saan tayo kakain. Ano ba talaga gusto mo?"

"Actually ok naman kahit saan, kasi yung gusto ko kasama kona."

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Iniisip ko paminsan na mula rito ay merong malayong lugar na ni minsan dipa nahapo nang aking isipan,

Isang isla na ni minsan ay dipa na nadapuan nang mapupulang paa ngunit pinamumulaklakan nang mayayabong na halaman.

Malamang ni minsan umiyak din sila— ni minsan nakaramdam din sila ng piitan mula sa hamog ng katahimikan o dikaya ang katanungan nilang di' masagot na hanggang kailan? Na nag papaaala na mas mabigat ang minsan kaysa kadalasan, na minsan kahit ang sinasambang paraiso ay maaari ding maging kulungan

Pero ang pambihira ay nagawa nilang lumago kahit walang tumutugon sa kanilang pangangailangan napatibay nila ang kanilang mga ugat nang hindi sila pinagmamasdan. At kung dumating man ang panahon na may maligaw at pitasin sila ng tuluyan taas nuo parin nilang maipag mamalaki na—

Minsan sa walang hanggang karanasan kinaya kong mabuhay bago moko hawakan