NAIWAN SA ERE

24 years of existing in this world full of shits.

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Pa-Subscribe naman po! 😂

Hi mga ka-Tumblr!! So, I started to have my YT Channel for cover songs. Baka naman po pwedeng pasubscribe jan! Hehehe Link below on my first cover!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1L-KO1kqZeM

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Kung sino ka man, sobrang excited na kong makilala ka. Take your time. Pinagdadasal din kita 🙂

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I have loved you in the past.

But I refused to accept this feeling due to the circumstances that I can’t handle it. My thoughts were not okay. I am not okay. I was hoping that someday you’ll still be there. The day that I was ready - TODAY.

“Today” I am expecting that this will be the happiest day until I found out that our feelings were not the same again. You lost your feelings while I am now ready to conquer the world with you. All gone. I am now alone. All I can do is to blame myself for everything. For the times you reach out your hand, I refused to give mine. For the times you give me encouragement, I kept my toxic behaviors.

Sorry. I still love you but you can now go with your present.

[matabangutak]

Sana huwag mong maranasan, na isang araw, gigising ka, na ikaw na lang, ang nagmamahal.

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Ayon. Sakit ah.

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Bakit ba ang sakit ng mga kanta ng The Juans.

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“Kamusta?”

Pwede ko bang isagot “hindi okay”. I mean sakto lang. Hindi ako masaya, hindi ako malungkot. Pero minsan wala akong maramdaman. Empty kumbaga. Kapagod minsan ng life.

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Kahit sabihin kong “Mas gwapo ako don” ng ilang beses, hindi pa rin maaalis ang reality na hindi na magiging tayo..

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So I was watching Episode 5 of Fight For My Way. Kapit tayo mga ka-Unemployed

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“Kapalaran ko ay magbago..”

[naturaekos]

“Silence is essential. We need silence just as much as we need air, just as much as plants need light. If our minds are crowded with words and thoughts, there is no space for us.”

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I’m trying to revive my tumblr account. So hello naman dyan mga kakosa! 🤣

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That uncertainty kung hanggang kailan nakahawak sa ‘yo yung ‘tao. Pwede kasi sobrang higpit ngayon pero anytime pwede rin siyang bumitaw kung kailan niya gusto. Ang tanging humahawak lang sa inyong dalawa ay ‘yong masasayang alaala na natatakot ka na ring mawala. Kaya you have that anxiety everyday na para bang it’s a ticking time bomb na anytime pwedeng sumira ulit sa nakasanayan mo.

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Ayan tuloy, sakit diba?

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“Sa pag-agos ako’y magpapatangay sa kawalan”

[rachelmaree]

Now accepting curious anonymous messages 🌚

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#TeamUnemployed

Akalain mo yon?

Makakatatlong taon na pala ko. Pero parang wala pa rin akong ambag sa lipunan?! Hahahahaha! The last post in my Tumblr was “Day 18/18: Certified Public Accountant na ko!!!”. Yes, but after that? What’s next?

I worked immediately 18 days after releasing the board results. Ang bilis pero ang nasa isip ko non ay kailangang magtrabaho para kahit papano naman magkaroon ng pakinabang sa bansa. Pakinabang na rin sa sarili for experience. Sino bang may ayaw ng experience? Oops. Hahajk lng. Pero ayon, sa Audit Firm ako nagwork. So I worked as an Audit Associate then napromote as an Experienced Audit Associate after 6 months. Pero yung job description is basically the same. In short, alalay pa rin. Hahaha!

After 1 year, napromote ulit as an Audit Supervisor na. This time hindi na ako ang alalay. Hahaha. Magkakaroon na kasi ako ng staff. Pero nagdalawang isip ako if itutuloy ko pa ba tong kabaliwan ko na magpakalunod sa trabaho sa audit firm. Alam naman ng mga kapwa ko CPA (kung CPA/AccountancyStudent ka man na nagbabasa ngayon), na sobrang toxic ng work sa audit Firm. Also, in general, the higher the position, the more responsibilities you will have. At that time, after I promoted as a Supervisor, I tried to look for opportunities outside the Firm and unluckily wala akong trip na trabaho. Or kung meron man akong naging job offer, maliit lang sweldo. Therefore, I gave the Firm a chance to have me again for another year (akala mo kawalan lol). Sobrang daming napagdaanan ng katawang lupa ko to survive that first fucking longest busy season sa buong history ng Pilipinas. Hahahahaha!!! Medyo OA yata yon. Sino ba naman kasing hindi makakapagcelebrate na from Nov 2019 up to June 2020, all you can do is to finish all the tasks na binibigay sayo ng client, ng manager, ng partner. Minsan sabay sabay pa sila naguutos. TEN Engagements (Ten Companies) ang binigay sa akin, yes Same deadline lahat (Supposed to be Apr 2020 ang deadline, pero dahil nga sa pesteng COVID, namove ng Jun2020 - kaya tinawag na Longest Busy Season ng mga Auditors). After filing ng mga reports, mapapasigaw ka nalang talaga ng “Putangina! Natapos ko!!!”

After that Busy Season, nasabi ko sa sarili ko na “This will be my last.” Sa tingin mo? Last ko na nga ba talaga? ... Shempre, pinagisipan ko muna. Haha! Napromote kasi ulit ako. Hindi ko alam pero noong time na yon. Nasabi ko sa sarili ko, “Bakit ako. Bakit ako prinomote”. Ang weird diba? Taong napromote pero malungkot. Haha! So yun na nga, napromote ako as Senior Audit Supervisor/Assistant Audit Manager. By that time, nagdalawang isip ko kung itutuloy ka pa ang pagiging external auditor na career ko or maghahanap na ko ng bagong opportunity. Pero alam ko sa sarili ko na sobrang pagod na ko. Mukhang kailangan ko ng magpahinga. Andami ko ng nakausap na pinipilit akong magstay, dahil one busy season nalang.. Manager na ko. Sino bang ayaw non? Gusto ko pero iniisip ko kung kakayanin ko pa ba ng isa pang busy season, given the situation right now. Soo.. I finally decided na ayoko na talaga. I formally tendered my resignation last October 1, 2020. Walang lilipatan na work, pero magpapahinga. Lakas ng loob ko no? Hahaha!

As of now, I belong to the #TeamUnemployed. Magkakaroon ba ko ng trabaho? Siguro? Abangan....

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NAKAKAMISS DIN PALA ANG TUMBLR!!!

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Yes. Walang perang makakatumbas dito.