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Once she stopped rushing through life, she was amazed at how much more life she had time for.

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Reasons why I like tumblr

1. None of my family is on here

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2. It’s like a secret society

[mochadeelightful]

3. I can post whatever I want 🤷🏾‍♀️

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4. Everyone is weird like me.

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5. There's a sense of stability even when my mental health isn't.

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Perfect Crown really went full circle on this.

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Never beating the he falls first and falls harder allegations.

Of course he's been in love with her since forever. Otherwise where's the fun in that, right?

Aaah, my heart.

[pahintulot]

A befitting ending for Min Jeong Min.

I guess as viewers, we all knew that at some point, Min Jeong Min is a ticking time bomb. He loved Hui Ju and there's nothing more dangerous than a powerful man in an unrequited love who never got his chance. But we all hoped that he wouldn't turn bad. But of course, he turned exactly just that.

I wasn't really surprised. We expected it. So when the daebi mama said that nothing will hurt more than when Hui Ju delivers the final blow—it really makes sense. Because the scene is supposed to make Min Jeong Min pay for his crimes using the sharpest blade—Hui Ju.

I can't feel bad for him because he's had his chances. He's been with her since forever. Wan was right when he said that she was never really his in the first place. He should've told her how he feels. When he had the chance.

Too bad he didn't.

[pahintulot]

How could someone in love be calm?

I heard from a drama that someone in love couldn't be calm. I didn't fully understand it until this scene played. Because the looks on their faces—angered, determined, and terrified—are the looks that you give when you think of losing the one you love.

Someone in love could never be calm. Because calmness sometimes means indifference when it comes to love.

And people in love carry with them the storm inside their hearts—a storm that will get wild with anxiety, fear, and burning passion every single time even with different or no reasons at all. Because to love is to put your heart open and pray that it won't be cut.

So yeah, someone in love couldn't be calm at the face of something like this.

[pahintulot]

Can we all just celebrate that this is the first time that Seong Hui Ju stepped towards the Grand Prince?!

Should we expect more moves from her from this point forward?

Honestly, I am confident that this would be a happy ending. I just hope that they will deliver a good one though. Because the build up is actually okay for me.

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Seong Hui Ju is just as down bad for our Grand Prince I-an

I think this scene marks the unfolding of Hui Ju's feelings for the Grand Prince. The look on her face says it all—she didn't like the idea of losing him too. I am really excited to see how far she would go for the Grand Prince too.

I just hope that she won't ruin herself in the process. Because she worked hard for everything in her life too.

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Seong Hui Ju, the Grand Prince is at your beck and call.

This scene is just so cute—it's like she only needs to say it once and he will make it happen. They say Seong Hui Ju shouldn't lead as the Grand Princess, that she has to let the Grand Prince take the first step ahead before she goes—but Hui Ju is born to lead the way.

And now she has the Grand Prince wrapped around her fingers.

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He was so terrified.

After facing so many tragedies of people he loved the most, his immediate thought was it was his fault. Everyone was so unfair to him in the first few scenes—they act as if he wanted this to happen and that it was his fault when he was just as, if not even more, terrified than them about losing her.

Grand Prince I-an has already lost so many people. And I think at this moment, Hui Ju knew and understood where he was coming from. And she knew just what he needed.

I am so rooting for a triumphant and satisfying end for this couple. Like they deserve a heck of a happy ending for all these roller coasters.

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We always love a yearner—and even more so if he is a Grand Prince that looks at her like this!?

This is as good as a confession, right?

But I do wonder if he can still say the same once Hui Ju finally fell madly and deeply in love with him too. Will he be able to keep his restraint and keep their agreement that they will divorce soon after?

Because our Grand Prince I-an has been in love with her since their school days. And like he said, he always practiced restraint. But now, Hui Ju is just in his arm's length, can he really let her go in the end?

I truly hope not.

[pahintulot]

Oh, to be loved like this.

It was truly heartbreaking, to be honest. But I am just glad that she finally knew the truth despite it being so late. The shoes were hers all along. And the reason why her husband couldn't go on was maybe because he feels that something was weighing on her heart.

This is probably my most favorite story from this kdrama so far. It was touching and a complete tear-jerker to be honest. Imagine you spent your whole life believing that you deprived your husband of his great love when all along, you were his great love?

To be loved like this is rare. He said he only remembers her name, and that is everything.

My heart really goes out for this story. May this kind of love find us—steady, patient, and deep. Like the shoes that will always lead you home.

[pahintulot]

some versions I'd like to have

I do believe that there are many versions of ourselves.

But among these versions of mine, my most favorite will be when I was sixteen to eighteen--because I feel like that was my most radiant, passionate, and clever self.

I had confidence, I had dreams, and I had this unquenchable thirst for knowledge when I was around that age.

Because right now, I just feel like a mock up version of that passionate girl. I am trying. God knows how much I try to show up every single day but it wasn't as easy as before.

Maybe I still have that passion, maybe I still have that dreams but it comes in a very different look. And quite frankly, I don't know what terrifies me more--that I love the old version of me or that I am trying to be that old version when I knew, I knew too well that I would never be one.

I can only hope that a few years from now, I'll see the version of myself that would become my new favorite. That I will learn how to reconcile who I was to who I am becoming and love the version of who I will become.

I don't want to be that person who hated who she become. Because I want to love every single version of me. Even the ugliest. Even the not so clever and the stupidest. I want to grow and become a person who carries all the versions of herself with grace and dignity.

Someone who became wise not because she let go of who she is but someone who is wiser because of the versions of herself who learned, and learned despite it all.

I want it all.

[lessismore-falak-i]

and I pray, and I hope.

[wetheurban]

May you love yourself more than you love the idea of someone else choosing you.

[pahintulot]

I just finished two Ali Hazelwood books in two days and I realized that I haven't highlighted a single thing in those two books I finished. And for some odd reasons, it made me sad.

Because I used to be the kind of reader who highlights everything she finds sentimental. Going back to when I read the Love Hypothesis a few years back—almost every chapter has a highlight.

No, the quality of the story did not change. It's still a romcom. But I guess I changed?

And it's really sad.

It felt like the bookworm girly who finds everything romantic just suddenly disappeared. Like no traces of her left. And I loved that version of me. How she inhaled books like it's her oxygen and consumes series like it's a health supplement.

Now I feel like a desensitized adult with the kind of text I am required to read nowadays. I am still not sure how I will reconcile with this fact.

But for now, I'll allow myself to be sad.

[pahintulot]

I am really trying so hard to avoid soc med right now because I don't want to watch XO Kitty Spoilers 😭 like I am still recovering from wisdom teeth surgery (teeth yes because I got two bottom wisdom teeth out and another second molar on the right) so I can't really laugh right now 😭😆

I need self control yes?

Also proud of myself for really pulling through the surgery despite my fear. Guess if I could take out two wisdom teeth and a second molar at once, I can conquer anything lol 😆