Walking Disaster

selective || semi-active || indepedant Jinx from League of Legends/Arcane Series tracking: paintemblue

[tadpole-art]

Were they ever really that different?

[daexflurry]

Small promo. Hythlodaeus FFXIV roleplayer here. Open to OCs, different verses and most things. Sorry for the mess. I'm still setting up everything! Like if you want to interact. Reblog to hopefully spread me around! carrd.

[paintemblue]

Just thinking I should make an RP blog for a FFXIV muse I've been on for a while. I'll put the name under spoilers just in case people haven't met him in Shadowbringers/Endwalker yet, buttttttt...he's my favorite. And he's a constant muse alongside Jinx sooooo...tempted. Very tempted.

His name is Hythlodaeus and I love himmm. JUSt LOOK AT H IM! And yes I put him in the recent summer event outfit!

[manincaffeine]

not to be horny or anything but i’d listen to your problems and run my fingers through your hair.

[paintemblue]

[fortunxa]

look at her 🩵 ×͜×

—source ! 𒅌

[paintemblue]

Lurking because I'm at work, butttttttttt I do wanna get into RP some more so I'll be posting more memes for people to send in, and getting to replies. Also good morning!

[ready-addie]

forgot about this amazing social media for quite some time..

[paintemblue]

❛  i'm sorry i couldn't be what you needed me to be.  ❜

She didn't expect to bump into her sister after what felt like an eternity. Of course, she always thought of her in the back of her mind. The different scenarios of them seeing each other were mainly bad because she couldn't think positively about the meeting in general. It was always going to be a fuck show. It had to be, she told herself one day while eating a pomegranate. The simple lives of being children were gone; now it was just explosives and a whole lotta punching between them.

So, she kinda expected to be swung at. They could yell at each other and get it over with. Cry, maybe? Who knows. They both had issues that needed to be addressed, but no way in hell they were going to be. She sniffed, was about to turn on her booted heel, until she heard her sister's words fall from her lips. Jinx pauses, lips pursed for a moment in thought before she sighs, shakes her head.

"Ya know, sis, don't be. I don't expect anything out of ya or anybody at this point."

Too much disappointment. Too many expectations for a different outcome. It was better to expect that it would be worse than it actually being better.

[paintemblue]

[paintemblue]

❛  the hardest part isn't leaving. it's knowing you'll be here when i'm not.  ❜

She fiddled with her inventions or 'friends' as she loved to call them. They were, after all, the only things that felt like real friends to her since Mylo and Claggor didn't exactly play games with her unless bullied into it by Violet. Now that she was older, they were more like her weirdly created children, who were used to being called down for mischief and mayhem. Still, she cared about them to a point. These new inventions weren't exactly up to par with her previous toys, but at least they would get the job done.

Keep them both safe. Hidden. No one needed to follow their trail to find out where they were. Vander was still recovering from whatever transformation Viktor had put him through. At least he could speak, still a bit animalistic and lost himself at times, but Jinx stuck through it all. They were family, outcasts, and they both needed to just let Vi and her girlfriend live in peace. Without them being in the way of it all. Something...honorable like that. There were literacy geeks with better ways of explaining this than her mind could.

Jinx purses her lips as she does one more crank on her new gun, just in time to see Vander approach her in all his hulking glory. He was much bigger now than he had been before his...animalistic transformation. He definitely took that whole hound business to heart, whoever did this to him, but he was still her father. Or well...one of them. Putting her gun down and swirling in her chair to face him, she put on a tired smile and spoke.

"Alright. Let's get this teacher-student thing going."

And so they talked for what seemed like hours. Or well, Jinx did the talking, and he mostly listened. His speech had gotten better over the months they were together. Less growly and more sounding like everyday human speech. A normal that brought up fond memories of her finally getting him to read her a bedtime story, one that Vi and she enjoyed. However, by the end of their conversation, it had turned a bit sour. Jinx frowns at his words, letting her pink-red eyes look to the floor, and then seconds later looking up at him.

"Yeah...Guess you're right, but...Ya know old man, don't think you'll get rid of me that easily. I'm like a flea or something."

[poohsources]

🐝  *  ―  𝑳𝑬𝑨𝑽𝑰𝑵𝑮/𝑩𝑬𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑳𝑬𝑭𝑻 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

BEING LEFT ❛  wait! you can't just leave me here alone!  ❜ ❛  i don't know how to live in a world where i'm all alone.  ❜ ❛  everyone i've ever loved has either left or died.  ❜ ❛  i'm not yet ready for it to end.  ❜ ❛  will we ever see each other again?  ❜ ❛  please! you promised! you promised you'd never leave.  ❜ ❛  if you leave now, i'll never forgive you.  ❜ ❛  are you really going to leave after everything we've been through?  ❜ ❛  how am i supposed to keep on like before when you're not here anymore?  ❜ ❛  i knew this day would come, but i hoped it wouldn't be today.  ❜ ❛  please don't go. not yet. just stay a little longer ...  ❜ ❛  don't just walk away. say something, anything, before you go.  ❜ ❛  so that's it? you're just ... gone?  ❜ ❛  you can't just walk away like none of this meant anything!  ❜ ❛  why does everyone i love always leave?  ❜ ❛  i should've known better than to think you'd stay.  ❜ ❛  is it really that easy for you to walk away?  ❜ ❛  you said we'd face the world together. now i have to face it alone.  ❜ ❛  if you're going, at least look me in the eyes and say goodbye.  ❜ ❛  i don't have the strength to watch you walk away again.  ❜

LEAVING ❛  i'm sorry, but i cannot stay here any longer.  ❜ ❛  for once, i'm trying to do the right thing.  ❜ ❛  you don't need me here anymore. you've always been stronger on your own.  ❜ ❛  i wish staying was enough. i really do.  ❜ ❛  don't look at me like that. if i don't walk away now, i never will.  ❜ ❛  one day, you'll understand why i have to walk away.  ❜ ❛  i wish i could stay, but this isn't my place anymore.  ❜ ❛  don't wait for me. i don't know when ... if i'll be back.  ❜ ❛  i wish there was another way. but there isn't.  ❜ ❛  this isn't goodbye because i don't care. it's because i do. too much.  ❜ ❛  this goodbye is the hardest thing i've ever had to do.  ❜ ❛  i'm leaving because i love you too much to keep hurting you.  ❜ ❛  i'm sorry i couldn't be what you needed me to be.  ❜ ❛  i have to go find who i am without all this.  ❜ ❛  just because i'm leaving doesn't mean i stopped caring.  ❜ ❛  i'm not running. i'm just done waiting.  ❜ ❛  every step i take away from here is breaking me.  ❜ ❛  i can't keep pretending this place feels like home.  ❜ ❛  the hardest part isn't leaving. it's knowing you'll be here when i'm not.  ❜ ❛  sometimes goodybe is the kindest thing we can say.  ❜

[paintemblue]

Things I kinda wanna set up for funsies. FFXIV and FFVII verses. Maybe make a promo (oh boy). Work some more on this blog. A CARRD!? MAYBE? Ayeee. It's a day full of possibilities!

[paintemblue]

Still feel like I'm not grasping Jinx's voice as well as I'd like. Imposter syndrome coming for me! Anyway, I have a couple of replies to attend to, and then I'll reblog some more memes.

[paintemblue]

❛ Push a button, save the day, easy. ❜

Was it really that easy? She questions silently to herself as pink hues look at the plan before them with a thoughtful stare. Now, it wasn't as if Silco's plans weren't thought through, but really a button? Just push and everything would be okay... Was she missing a joke somehow? Jinx crosses her arms over his chest, her gaze flitting between Silco and the plans on his desk for a few seconds before she lets out a frustrated sigh.

"Just a button? Aw. Come on! I thought it would be like...ya know...more complicated." She huffs, a pout surfacing on her lips. "I really wanted to use my new friends too..."

[milkmemes]

VALORANT QUOTES STARTERS

Sentence Quotes Starters from the video game VALORANT. Adjust pronouns as needed.

❛ I need to blow something up. ❜ ❛ Bring it! Me against the world! ❜ ❛ You- you say something? Ha, sorry. Ears still ringing. ❜ ❛ We're here, because we're the best! Don't you forget that! ❜ ❛ Who said this wouldn't be fun. I'm having a blast! ❜ ❛ None of my stuff has malfunctioned yet! Can we celebrate that? ❜ ❛ They want to dance? Ha! I'll lead. ❜ ❛ Have any splints? I may have jammed my fingers, multiple fingers. ❜ ❛ Yes, I'm pumped! ❜ ❛ Relax. I've already thought of everything. ❜ ❛ Let's make this extraction quick. After this I'm going clubbing five timezones away, and a girl needs a moment to change. ❜ ❛ Don't die. If you need help figuring out how, just ask! ❜ ❛ Don't stress if I die. It was great knowing you. Also, delete my hard drive. ❜ ❛ Go ahead! Call me tech support again! ❜ ❛ [name], can you show me round the dark web one of these days? ❜ ❛ Okay, that literally happened one time, [name], stop asking. ❜ ❛ Drive them crazy, [name]! You're good at that. ❜ ❛ Cool. Let's go. ❜ ❛ Think you can keep up? Who am I kidding? You know you can't keep up. ❜ ❛ Maybe if we kick their asses hard enough, they'll stop bothering us. ❜ ❛ Snack time! Sorry, I only brought enough for me. ❜ ❛ Ha! You should've seen your faces! ❜ ❛ You better hide, old man! ❜ ❛ Stay out of my head, weirdo. ❜ ❛ Just take a seat, I got this. ❜ ❛ Yes, yes, it's me, autographs if we survive, yeah? ❜ ❛ Man this weather is not on. Got a jacket? ❜ ❛ You man ready for a light show? ❜ ❛ Mess with again? Oh wait, you can't! ❜ ❛ Yo [name], don't go tweaking your back out there. Leave the fancy stuff to the young'uns. ❜ ❛ Hey [name], I respect a guy who knits. That's pretty cute. ❜ ❛ [name], plug me into the tunes, yeah, I know you got the good stuff.❜ ❛ Move, or get zapped. ❜ ❛ Hoy! I'm pissed! ❜ ❛ Look, I'm glad you're here. There, I said it. ❜ ❛ Please stay alive, I hate making new friends. ❜ ❛ Tch, move! ❜

❛ All done, please don't hug me. ❜ ❛ [name], remind me to never piss you off. ❜ ❛ Watch out dude, I'm coming through. ❜ ❛ Uh… How far up are we right now? To be honest with you, heights? Not for me. ❜ ❛ Ay, while we're here let's see my folks. My mom will feed ya for real! ❜ ❛ Had to do it to 'em! ❜ ❛ Damn, you're the goat. ❜ ❛ I've got all the time in the world. ❜ ❛ Have I been aging, like, at all? Still not sure how this whole living forever thing works.❜ ❛ I know I can come back to life and all, but bullets still hurt, so don't get any bright ideas. ❜ ❛ Take 'em dead or alive. Probably dead, well, preferably dead. ❜ ❛ You know what? If one of those lookalikes came over here and pretended to be one of ya, I'm not sure I'd be able to tell the difference. ❜ ❛ Wait, wait, wait. I have a rock in my shoe. Nice, free rock ❜ ❛ Who's ready to die for this mission? I am! But you know, I'm cheating❜ ❛ Alright lucky socks, don't fail me now. ❜ ❛ Oh! This reminds me of this one time where I uh- hm, actually, never mind. ❜ ❛I reckon I'll take a kip after this. I've earned it. ❜ ❛ Youse don't get a reset button, so stay alive, please. ❜ ❛ Reckon we're just better, aye? ❜ ❛ I feel bad for them, I really do. Just not enough to stop winning. ❜ ❛ Trust me, we can get this job done. ❜ ❛ The greatest battles ever fought are written in storybooks. May they write about this one. ❜ ❛ I've taken walks more dangerous than this! ❜ ❛ A monster couldn't kill me, what chance did they have? ❜ ❛ Åh fy faen! Well done. ❜ ❛ Everyone is afraid of something. ❜ ❛ I'm up, I'm up! Shit! ❜ ❛ Hesitation is for amateurs, let's go! ❜ ❛ We could finish this with our eyes closed! But I wouldn't recommend it. ❜ ❛ Look at them, pale and sweating. All good signs. ❜ ❛ This fight isn't over until we are dead! ❜ ❛ Sweet dreams, asshole! ❜ ❛ Okay, where was I? ❜ ❛ Push a button, save the day, easy. ❜ ❛ Don't worry, I did all the work! ❜ ❛ If they see me again, I'll bury them all. ❜ ❛ I will defend you all with my power and with my life. ❜ ❛ I wasn't strong enough before. But now, now I am strong enough for us all. ❜ ❛ I will soothe this turmoil. With fire if I must. ❜ ❛ Before we begin, know that there's no one I would rather have by my side than you. ❜ ❛ They had no right to do this. ❜ ❛ Must I do everything? ❜

[noescapingthepast]

A knot entangles itself within the pit of his stomach. Likewise, a lump forms in his throat as he gazes down at the little girl. He isn't sure which is more heartbreaking -- the fact that she's been crying her eyes out by the looks of it, or the fact that she's huddled up in Vi's bed.

The fact that she isn't hungry isn't at all surprising. The cup and plate are placed safely on the nearby table. He hesitates, staring at the bed -- past Powder this time. No, his focus was on the bed itself, and, as always, he kept hoping that it was a mistake, that Violet would come home at any moment now.

That he'd wake up early one morning, and she'd be asleep in her bed once more.

Vander's lips part as he struggles to find the right words to speak, and in spite of his turbulent emotions. Following a swipe of his forearm across his misty eyes, the man approaches the bed and its occupant. Rather than disrupt things with his bulk, however, he crouches down next to it -- next to her.

"Hey, kiddo," the bartender tries. He reaches over to rest a hand on her shoulder, a touch that's gentle despite his overwhelming desire to scoop her up into his arms and hug her tight. He musters up a small smile; despite his best attempts, the sorrow he feels still seeps through. "Do you want to talk about it?" He offers quietly. "I'm ... I'm here for you."

[paintemblue]

The desire to just jump into his arms and bawl her eyes out was there. So very close, yet the little girl could only wrap her arms around her legs, tugging them closer to her form and burying her face in her knees. She takes a few shuddering breaths, trying to calm herself enough to speak, and it took a couple of tries before she was able to look up at him again. Her baby blues are red from rubbing and crying.

"She's gone. I don't...it's my fault. It's always my fault." Powder manages to squeeze out through her tightened throat.

Her need is urgent and can no longer be put off. She throws herself at him, wrapping her arms around his neck and starts to sob again. "I messed up. I shouldn't have gone with everybody...but...but I didn't want to be left behind again. I wanted to help!"