It’s about time that I quit being a coward and I fess up to my mistakes. All of my followers have probably already moved on and unfollowed me by now cause I up and left with now explanation, and I don’t blame any of you. I’m 19 years old and I still don’t know how to not only keep my mouth shut, but how to fess up for my mistakes or even be the least bit responsible. Some of you may not even remember, but I hosted a contest a little over half a year ago (Around the same time I vanished.) I made a promise and then I got lazy with sending out the prizes and instead of fessing up to it, I made excuses until I was too afraid to come back on here. (And at that point I still hadn’t sent anything out.) By the time I was “motivated” enough to send it out, I had no money and no job. I still could’ve asked someone to let me borrow money and I didn’t. Instead I got sad about myself and I hid away, hoping it would go away like a child and it shouldn’t be like that.
Since then I’ve done some things to better myself, deep cleansed my room, meditating, hardcore searching for a job, and other things. One of the first steps to being an adult, is to know when you’re wrong and to know how to take responsibility, and I wanna do that. @daemions and @worm-soup (and @Sheldonisabird if I can find out what he’s up to these days), I’ll also message you personally, but I’d like to rectify the situation asap. If you want the digital arts still, it’ll have to wait, I don’t have a tablet. If instead you’d like to change it to traditional, I can do a fully lined and watercolored piece of whatever you choose. If you want the animal jam prizes, I still have them in my possession and would be more than happy to send them as soon as I get my next job and my first paycheck. If you don’t want the animal jam stuff I understand and would be willing to buy something of equivalent value as soon as I get money.
If you’ve read all this so far, you have all the thanks in the world from me. I’m sorry I’ve been like this and if I didn’t address it I don’t know if I could move on. For those who stick around with me I probably won’t do any more giveaways in the near future. There is no future for this blog. When I left tumblr, I also stopped playing animal jam and have completely lost interest. A small reason for me leaving was that at the time I left everyone here was still feuding, making this a toxic environment, but thats not the point. I’ve been trying to stay off electronics as of late because they tend to suck me in and unmotivate me. I want to be a real person instead of a complaining sloth wasting away in front my computer. It’s taken me a while to realize this, and I don’t wanna mess myself up again. I’m motivated to go to college, save money for my future, and become the type of person that people are proud to follow on the internet.
I want to thank everyone here for all their support and love. I don’t know what you’re all doing with life and I don’t know if ya’ll are still a rage induced drama filled community, but if you are, life is to short to worry about how one person on the internet made you feel. Please be safe and good to each other.
I’ll post links and such to new social media and other such things when I make them, and I would love to see you there when I do. You were my favorite group of people and I was happy to talk with all of you.
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