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My son reached that age: it's really tough to carry him to bed should he fall asleep anywhere that's not in his room.

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Me after four years of parenting a little one: Sometimes I sleep six or seven hours a night. Sometimes even in one go. Sometimes.

But most nights I sleep like three hours until I hear my child crying/calling my name. I get up and calm him. I snuggle him back to sleep. But I cant go straight back to sleep. I go to the toilet or do something else for a bit. Try to sleep again. Eventually get called a second time and fall asleep next to my son for a few more hours until... It's already time to get up. And I am SO tired. 😭

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Today I watched a video with my son where he saw how little chickens are hatching from their eggs. It was a very special moment. He was very excited. The first birth he witnessed kind of. 😅

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Okay maybe my son really is autistic, because he really struggles with social stuff. But yesterday we met another child at the playground and the child was so obviously neuro-divergent and my son immediately bonded with him. They instantly understood each other, played very well with each other. My son happily exclaimed "mama the boy is so nice to me" and I was like... "yes that's awesome". Damn it made me a little sad. I wish more children were like this. Which may sound weird because it is a disability and a massive disadvantage in this world to be neuro-divergent, but I somehow feel like autistics do have a bigger heart...

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I have something that I want to share.

As a kid I always loved drawing. I don't know why, but I enjoyed it so very much that I would draw a picture for my mom every single day.

My son however... He is not really into drawing. He likes running and playing with cars. He does not like activities that require you to sit down. And one other thing that I find really odd: I don't know yet if he is right- or left-handed. It may sound strange, but every time I do see him drawing he switches around from left to right and it's confusing me...

Anyway! I really want to share my love for drawing nevertheless so I told him: "Hey I know you can draw a circle. Let me show you how you can turn it into a sun, because that's easy. I can teach you. Look." And he watched and he listened and told me: "Tomorrow I'll draw you a circle." And he did. A few days later I pick him up from daycare and I almost start to cry. He has drawn me a sun. ☀️ The sun looked so... ugly. 😂 But the fact he put so much work and love and dedication into it. For me? 💖 In that moment this ugly sun was the most beautiful piece of art ever created. Of course I hung it up when we were home! I know how hard this must have been for him. But he did it anyway! And I love him so much. He is such a sweet soul. I hope he'll be happy forever. ❤️❤️❤️

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Just dropped my child off at some birthday party and I feel so bad... This girl (who is exactly the same age as my son) invited A TON of other children. My sons birthday is tomorrow and he does not plan on inviting any of his friends. When I suggested inviting friends he looked at me confused and asked "why?"

I might just raise the most antisocial child in history and I keep wondering if this is just his personality or if I did something wrong.

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Little man is very very ill and I am hating every second of it. 💔

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Went to a baby-party/gender reveal thing today. I am so happy for my friend. This is such an exciting new chapter in her life. She looked so stressed and nervous at the party. I wanted to give her one big hug after another and tell her "It's all going to be alright." Seriously I am sooo excited and happy for everyone pregnant right now, because it's going to be so horrible and disgusting and extremely stressful and yet it will be the most beautiful and meaningful thing that you'll ever do in your life. And you will love it. It's going to be the worst and the best time of your life at the same time.

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It is so cold today, my child refused to go outside.

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by Landscape of the Earth

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We baked christmas cookies for all grandparents and my brother and everyone loved them! I always enjoy the family time on christmas. It's one of the best things about this kind of holiday.

When I was a child and the grown-ups said that I will one day miss being with my family on christmas I really could not understand what they mean. As long as I get christmas presents it's all fine, right? But damn. I've been thinking and I really really miss christmas at my grandmothers house. She was an angel of a grandmother. I remember how my brother was complaining about being bored. But honestly now as an adult I would love to go back in time and spent christmas with everyone again. Especially grandma. ❤️

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Christmas (Eve) was a success! There are still two days ahead with family visiting and grandparents bringing more gifts, but so far little man is very happy with this years christmas.

Merry christmas!

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My son is growing up too fast. I never understood why adults kept saying things like "times moves so fast" or "it feels like yesterday that you were a baby", but I totally get it now. I also kind of understand why some people keep making more and more kids. It's probably to enjoy all these fun/cute little firsts again and again. And I get it. It would be so nice if I could spent just one day with my 2-year old again, or my 1-year old who just started to walk or my fresh little baby. 😭 But I know these times are over and wont come back again. I should really cherish these moments with him more, because soon enough I'll be crying about wanting to go back to these days.

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I'm so proud of my son. He is sooo independent! There is little to nothing that he can't do on his own. I mean of the things you would except a child to be able to do. He eats with proper cutlery (fork, knife, spoon), pours his own drink, feeds the cats, helps me cook, goes to the toilet on his own, brushes his teeth (I still do a round 2 to be sure theyre super clean), dresses himself, etc etc

He only ever needs help when he is extremely tired or overwhelmed. Which like... Yeah of course. Thats totally fine.

I'm so glad we arrived here. The baby and toddler stage can be hard. Extremely hard. But this? I dont need to do much at all, just help when things get tricky? I feel so relaxed.

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Halloween was so much fun! My son was so happy to be trick or treating with his friends and us parents were stressed and happy at the same time because the kids were running from house to house. I wish I had this kind of energy for myself.