An independent and selective RP blog for 𝒟𝒶𝒷𝒾 of BNHA. Unaffiliated with any fandom or RPC. Highly sporadic activity. Canon complaint with influence from personal headcanons. Minors and personals DNI. Cremated by ℐ𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓃𝓃𝒾𝓈. 30+. He/him pronouns. Please read my carrd before interacting. || Overhaul side blog @curecrafted || All for one side blog @quirksteal
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𝙳𝙴𝙰𝙻𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙸𝙽 ; Silhouettes in flame, haunting the living, lost childhood, frankenstein's monster, defiance with a death wish, the inverted phoenix and binds to a fiery fate || 𝙳𝙳𝙳𝙽𝙴, blog contains canon-compliant dark themes, if you don't know, don't follow me.
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@uchitokenai : “you really don't hear yourself when you talk, do you?" — ( welcome back )
❝ Yeah? Funny, I was just thinkin' the same thing about you. ❞ Caught skipping a meeting again. If he didn't know better, he'd think Geten's quirk is bloodhound or something, the way he somehow manages to track him down every time. He bets all these Meta army goons are snitches, that'd explain it.
Violet Regiment? Please. He didn't want to lead, and he knows he didn't ask. The League had barely been a functioning disaster before the MLA decided on these stupid ranks and regiments. What business did any of them have commanding an army? And Dabi sure as hell wasn't about to start giving motivational speeches to any of these assholes. They were trying to kill him not that long ago.
❝ Look, I really ain't qualified for this whole… Commander thing - I'm technically doin' you a favour by not showin'. Just call me when shit needs burnin' and get lost, I'm tryna dodge responsibilities I never asked for here.❞
He could tell him. He could probably trust a guy like Tomura, as weird as he could be at times ━ hell, he could probably trust all of them. They were all a bunch of nobodies after all ━ Toya was the only one among them that could have been considered someone, and even then, it wasn't much. He wasn't any more than someone who should have burned away to nothing years ago ━ but that didn't mean he wasn't a Todoroki, the eldest son of the Flame Hero, and he was a pretty big deal.
Dabi didn't know how any of his new "friends" were gonna take that. It's not that he could really see them kicking him out, but would they look at him differently? He doesn't know.
❝ Pft, what's the point of having a villain name if we're just gonna give away who we are? I dunno about you, boss, but I respect the sanctity of anonymity, y'know? ❞ He made that up; he's not even sure if he's using the words right, so he continues ❝ Secret identities, like in the good ol' days when superpowers were somethin' for comic books. Can't just go giving your government name away when ya plan on comittin' a bunch of crimes, right? ❞ Yeah, that made sense, good save, Dabi.
But maybe… Maybe he did wanna tell Tomura who he really was, as stupid as it felt. Must have felt good as fuck to just run around doing whatever you wanted with your whole name and identity attached. There was some radical, progressive sense of liberation attached to it. He might not have had the education to put together the technical aspects of it, but he understood the spirit.
And Toya? He'd built Dabi out of ash and spite, out of the parts of him his family buried and "moved on" from. Toya Todoroki didn't matter, so the name… It felt strange to him now. Like he didn't exist anymore. Not really. He glanced away then, scoffing under his breath as if irritated with himself for something going on inside his head.
❝ Yeah, I've got a pretty good thing goin' here. ❞ Strange admission. Worse because it was completely true. ❝ You guys don't ask too many questions. Don't act like I oughta be grateful for anything. ❞ He'd almost say they acted like friends... Accepting each others faults, helping each other out... Maybe even family, in a weird way.
❝ So yeah. Maybe I wanna tell you. Maybe I don't know if I should. Maybe I'm not exactly eager to find out whether the League still wants me around afterwards.❞ He should have reminded himself to smile after he said that, might have looked mean and numb to the entire idea, held up his charade of not caring either way, oops.
The stupid grin on Dabi's face doesn’t falter, if anything, Hawks laughing only makes it worse, pulling the staples at the corners of his mouth into something sharp, bright, and stupidly pleased with himself. He takes this as a triumph, he looks as cool as he thought he did and he makes no attempt to hide it, though he lets his shoulders roll back, lets his head tilt like he hadn’t just launched himself through open air on a half-baked impulse and nearly eaten concrete in front of the number two hero.
❝ Oh, yeah? ❞ he drawls, breath still a little rough from the stunt - took some effort, that was true, even though he tries not to show it. ❝ Wouldn't've thought I was capable of impressin' you. ❞ It doesn't sound as careless or mocking as he might have wanted it to, no, there's an unmistakable, genuine sincerity to it, along with a distinct flicker of curiosity. Impressing Hawks wasn’t exactly a small thing ━ not when the bastard had wings, speed, training, fame, and the whole damn hero world kissing the ground he landed on. He was number two hero, after all. It felt like a big deal, and inside Dabi, there flickered the ember of pride his father had tried to douse with every one of his rejections.
Which leads his mind right to the traitorous and unwelcome wondering if Endeavor would've been impressed. He hadn't seen Shota do anything like that, yet. Sides, how could he, he only had one half fire ━ he'd probably be off balance if he tried. But then his mind brings him just as cruelly to an answer and the answer was no.
The old man would've found some flaw in it. Too reckless. Too sloppy. Too dangerous, not enough control. He would've looked at Toya standing there alive and excited after being perfectly airborne and still found a way to make it sound like failure... All because of a little singe or two.
Whatever. Dabi clicks his tongue and looks away, pretending the thought hadn't stung more than any burn ever could. ❝ Missed the big show down there, ❞ he says instead, nodding toward the ruined sprawl of Deika below. ❝ Spinner won’t shut up about it. Shigaraki versus that Redestro guy, the fight of a lifetime and I didn't get to see a single second of it. ❞
His eyes remain with the wreckage, the breath-taking ruin of the once thriving city block. To think Shigaraki had done this.... It was impressive. ❝ Probably sounds crazy to a pro like you but for a minute there, Shigaraki was acting like a hero, giving his all to save a guy in need. ❞ His tone holds no sarcasm or cruelty, just a rough-edged sort of approval, reluctant but real. ❝ Took him long enough, but he's actually startin' to look like someone people might wanna follow. ❞
The hug is gentle, but he doesn't get to deny his baby sister.
No, he really doesn't and by the withered look of boredom on his face, one might have been tempted to think he found this situation unfortunate for him. They'd be wrong of course. Toya's just doing his brotherly duty of pretending everything annoys him.
❝ Yeah, yeah. You know barely went anywhere, right? Tch, so clingy.❞ Don't count the nearly ten years he was missing and presumed dead.
Will fix / move my headcanons over later, for some reason tumblr is being SUPER wonky rn and wont let me post without freezing and crashing every 20 mintes.
The past never dies! You will REAP EVERYTHING YOU'VE SOWN, Enji Todoroki! Let's fall together! Come and dance with me in Hell, won't you? Well? SPEAK UP, DAD!
An indie, private and selective RP blog for DABI aka Toya Todoroki, of my hero academia. Unaffiliated with any fandom or RPC. Cremated by ℐ𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓃𝓃𝒾𝓈. 30+. He/him pronouns. Highly sporadic activity. Please read my carrd before interacting. Canon complaint. Minors and personals DNI.
Alright, so technically my Dabi is very canon compliant by default but since the fanon ideas on Dabi are so different to my personal interpretation of him I often feel like I'm writing him as an OC so I figured I'd use this post to rehash on some of my most important HCs and how my Dabi differs from fanon Dabi as on multiple occasions I've had people assume popular fanon applies to him.
First thing is first my Dabi suffers from a comorbid case of CPTSD (complex post-traumatic stress disorder) and the much lesser known PTED (post-traumatic embitterment disorder), with the latter often at the forefront of his "issues". For me this kind of explains everything "wrong" with Dabi from a kinda clinical perspective. Otherwise, I also portray him as def on the autism spectrum as I think the coding in him, Endeavor and Shoto is really obvious. Though things like Frankenstein's Monster and the Onryo are really important to my portrayal of Dabi he is absolutely not the "evil version" of Toya and Toya was not and will never be depicted as anything other than an abused child. He was not a stubborn, toxic brat who "wouldn't do as he was told".
He was a little boy in a very toxic household who was told and shown on multiple occasions that the validity of his existence hinged upon whether or not he was capable of being useful to his fathers goals. I also think its important to note Dabi is supposed to parallel Shoto, he is not a contrast to Shoto, he is a mirror image of him and they are extremely similar in all ways. This has been acknowledged multiple times in canon.
Similarly I should probably note Dabi doesn't hate his father. He loves him. The major difference between Dabi and his brothers is that he wants a relationship with his father despite the abuse and will generally come to have a more forgiving outlook like his sister. I think this makes a lot of sense. Fuyumi and Toya knew a time in their family their younger siblings never did. The first few years of Fuyumi and Toya's lives with their parents were highly positive. These are important developmental years in children. Natuso never knew his father as a loving person. Shoto never saw his truly good side either. Of course neither of them have the same sentimental feelings Fuyumi and Toya do where they can "forgive" their father for his shittier behavior.
This being said, Toya has never hated his brothers. He has never wanted for them to have not been born. He has never blamed them for why Enji was the way he was. Because it was incredibly explicit to Toya that the problem in their family was with him and his quirk. He was very jealous of Shoto, yes, but he never blamed him or saw him as "taking away" his fathers affection because again Toya knew his father's affection was taken from him before Shoto was ever born.
As a result, Toya has always blamed himself for his short comings and the issues with his family. The worst part of this is this is largely true even with Enji. Toya doesn't necessarily blame his father for the abuse. He has moments where he knows this is true and he'll acknowledge it but truthfully, he blames him no more than himself which is just some tragic abuse victim mentality. This said, as an adult Toya is incredibly angry with everyone in his family for the lack of support they gave him, tending to dismiss his feelings and side with their father. Unlike Tenko and Hana for example, Toya didn't have siblings who "secretly supported" him, he had siblings who made it clear they didn't, along with a mother who was incredibly aware of the abuse while also being incredibly complicit in it. He's most dangerous to Shoto as Shoto and Enji are his targets, but he's shown he'll recklessly endanger his other family members to these ends. He's deeply traumatized, damaged and angry and its not unusual for his words and actions to contradict.
As far as the Todoroki's go, I've mentioned before, but to me they present like victims of narcissistic parental abuse. Though neither Rei or Enji were actual narcissists the dynamic they created in the family looks almost identical to the dynamics observed with narcissistic parents. The Todoroki children all match 'archetypes' of narcissistic abuse victims. Fuyumi the caretaker, Natsuo the protector and Toya the collapsed. You could make a case for Shoto as the problem solver but really as the actual golden child things were a bit different for him. I made a post that goes more into this here. Similarly, if Toya was ever allowed to recover or things didn't go as badly for him he would probably match the rebel, at points previous to his dad actually trying to be a less shit person.
My Dabi is disabled and suffers severe nerve damage. His condition heavily resembles someone with CIP. I made a post going over that here. Essentially, Dabi cannot feel pain or temperature, but he can feel touch, vibration and pressure. ( Although often in a dulled way ) This comes with a slew of other issues for Dabi relating to organ function and his metabolism.
Also mentioned in that post my Dabi is not a smoker. He has severe respiratory damage from his burning, not from cigarettes. This causes his raspy voice. He attempted to smoke once and found himself experiencing a weird kinda psychosomatic reaction that made him feel pain as if he was burning again. He has avoided cigarettes ever since. He does drink, but not by habit.
His hair is not dyed. Its sprayed. I know we're talking fantasy here but no black box dye is logically coming out of hair with a little bit of remover poured over it. IDC how advanced the future is !! So yeah, Dabi's black hair is sprayed and not actually dyed. This also helps it keep its unruly, crunchy look. Yes, he has to respray his hair any time he showers but thats fine. As I've also said before its more aesthetic to Dabi than a disguise of any kind. He likes his hair black, he can't afford to keep up with hair dye, but black hair spray is real easy to steal and apply.
Dabi is, largely, homeless. He does not have a shitty apartment. He lives on the street and, occasionally, out of net cafes. Dabi has no education beyond the 6th grade. He never made it to high school.
This being said, Dabi was explicitly noted by Giran to not have any kind of criminal record prior to joining the league. Dabi would "get by" by doing menial jobs around the city. As spoken about in one of my other HC's, there was an elderly shop keep who took pity on Toya and unofficially employed him for a number of years, allowing him to do the tasks around the store the elderly man struggled with, largely cleaning, moving heavy objects and stacking shelves. He paid Toya very well for this and Toya would use the money to live out of net cafe's and eat. When the old man died, his family banished Toya from the store. Its been diffcult for him to get other similar jobs since then so keeping off the street and having access to food and showers has been harder. This said, Toya's been living this life for like 7-8 years so he's gotten pretty adapt at surviving regardless.
Probably about the only thing I adhere to that is popular with fanon Dabi is his black nails. Because, yeah, the aesthetic, but technically this isn't Dabi painting his nails for me. Again, drawing visual reference from Frankenstein's Monster, Dabi's nails are discolored and blackened not from nail polish but from just being another example of his body being in extremely bad condition from his horror-trope influenced resurrection and the zombie aesthetic he has going on.
Anyways, more in depth HCs on multiple things can be found over here but I think thats all the very important stuff.
