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“Can’t Escape This Fear”

Mixed Media Animation, Full length: 4:45 min

An animation about the shadow of death that never leaves — a fear that clings, bleak and isolating.

Full version on YouTube (link below)

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WAY OF COPING WITHIN THE SELF (all projects)

Project 1: Outcry

Project 2: Withheld

Project 3: Becoming Tolerable

And...one thesis book 💀

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Ways of Coping: Becoming Tolerable (THESIS project 3)

Size of artwork: 99.5 x 140 cm.

Medium: Mixed media drawing with Soft Pastel

Concept: Becoming Tolerable, the final project of this thesis, explores a state in which one gradually learns to coexist with discomfort, emotional heaviness, or certain inner wounds. Although these feelings do not completely disappear, they shift from something once overwhelming and difficult to bear into a condition that can be acknowledged, accepted, and gently carried within everyday life.

This concept does not imply complete healing or liberation from suffering. Rather, it reflects an ongoing process of emotional adaptation, in which pain becomes gradually softened to a level that allows for continued coexistence.

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Behind the scene project 2

4 unused pieces i like the most

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Ways of Coping: Withheld (THESIS project 2)

Before I ruined them

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Ways of Coping: Withheld (THESIS project 2)

Size of artwork: 84.1 × 118.9 cm

Medium: Mixed media drawing

Concept: this stage marks the moment when the body and mind begin to understand that open expression is not always safe — that it may go unheard, unaccepted, or misunderstood. The pain does not vanish; instead, it settles and lingers within.

At this stage, coping is no longer an eruption, but it is not yet true understanding. Rather than being processed, emotion is restrained. It is quieted and held still, while pressure continues to build beneath the surface. The body becomes a vessel — a space that carries the accumulated weight of unexpressed feeling.

In the Withheld series, the raw intensity of Outcry is reduced. Emotion no longer bursts outward without direction; it is drawn inward and contained within the boundaries of the figure. The body appears closed — folded, hunched, or partially concealed. Color remains confined inside the silhouette, never spilling beyond it. The lines still hold tension, but they are steadier, more controlled, structured rather than explosive.

This is not a state of calm. It is an effort to maintain composure in a way that feels tolerable to the outside world. Stillness becomes a form of protection. Silence becomes a strategy for survival.

Withheld exists as a transitional phase between eruption and acceptance — a condition in which emotion remains present and heavy, yet deliberately organized within a controlled structure, not resolved, but contained.

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Behind the scene project 1

…i love how childish they are

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Ways of Coping: Outcry (THESIS project 1)

Size of artwork: 189 x 148.5 cm.

Medium: Mixed media drawing and collage on paper

Concept: This work addresses the initial stage of emotional coping - a period in which the self lacks the ability to control, filter, or manage emotions when confronted with emotional impact. As a result, pain is released directly in a raw, violent, and unprocessed form. For me, the beginning of coping does not start with suppression but with the moment when emotions overflow before there is any understanding of what is happening within oneself. The outburst, therefore, is not the result of endurance, but the very first experience through which pain becomes perceptible.

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“All roads lead to Rome”

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"What am i to you" (Pencil/Drawing Version)

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"What am i to you" (Digital Version)

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"What am i to you"

Medium: mixed media illustrations (pencil, digital coloring)

(Overall)

Concept: This project explores the value of one’s existence in the eyes of others by comparing the human body to familiar everyday objects. It expresses feelings of being used, overlooked, and defined by the needs of others rather than by one’s own identity—like an object that serves a function but is nothing more than that. When its usefulness fades, it is discarded or left behind, only to be picked up again when needed. It is something functional but not valuable enough to be remembered, lacking the beauty or allure that would make it worth keeping.

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“In Patterns I Exist” (Pencil/Drawing Version)

Where it all started.

The raw line work…before color, before edits, before it became something I could show.

I love them…it’s raw and sincere

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“In Patterns I Exist” (Digital Version)

The same moments, but in digital form…clear, refined, quiet.

These feel like memories I can’t let go of them

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“In Patterns I Exist”

Medium: mixed media illustrations (pencil, digital coloring)

Concept: “In Patterns I Exist (ในความซ้ำเดิมฉันจึงมีอยู่)”

This project explores the feeling of existing in the same, unchanging space…a place called home.

For some, home may be warm, painful, or filled with overflowing memories…both joyful and sorrowful.

But for me, this house is none of those things.

It’s simply a place I have to be in, because life is happening…not because I feel alive.

It’s a space made for functioning, not for living.

There’s a bed, just so I can sleep.

There’s a microwave, just to warm up meals.

There’s a bathroom, just to shower or use the toilet.

Every corner I spend time in…it’s just me.

Everything seems enough, yet it feels lifeless.

There’s no one tied to this place in my memories.

No conversations. No nostalgia.

Only me…cycling through these spaces alone, again and again.

It’s so quiet. So empty.

Even though the house has everything,

it still feels like a place made just to wait for the next semester to start.

A house to crash in when I have errands to run.

A house to stay in when there’s work or responsibilities to get through.

It’s supposed to be my real home.

But it feels temporary.

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"Instincts We Share"

Technique: drawing

Size: 23 x 31.7 centimeters (with frame)

Concept: Instincts We Share explores the shared behaviors between animals and humans. Every living being - regardless of species - possesses its own breaking point. It's not only humans who exhibit self- destructive behavior when overwhelmed or at their lowest. It's not only us who wander into harmful environments, living among filth, danger, and unknowingly reaching for things that poison our lives.

Every creature has a moment when it can no longer endure - and that's when instinct, which never lies, rises to the surface. Sometimes it looks like rage, fear, aggression. Other times, it manifests as quiet sorrow too heavy to bear.

This work recognizes the universality of pain and instinct. It asks: if all living things reveal their limits in some way... are we listening to our own?