So, I hate doing this, but I really need it at the moment...
I’m not going to explain my whole life in this post because years ago I had a suicide attempt, came here to say goodbye, someone found out who I was and thanks to you guys I didn’t killed myself.
But basically, I was abused by my mother and her husband for more than 10 years and that left me with plenty of mental illnesses, including severe depression, generalized anxiety, PTSD, panic attacks, insomnia and fibromyalgia.
I had to leave home at 18 because I was on the verge of committing suicide;
Went to live with my ex girlfriend, which my family didn’t accepted. I cut the ties with my mom’s side of the family, my dad’s family are very conservative and abandoned me for a really long time, they show up from time to time, but that’s it.
My ex’s family accepted me as part of the family immediately, her mom treated me like a daughter, it was the only family that I’ve ever known. We stayed together for almost 6 years, but the relationship ended this year because it wasn’t working anymore, we had each other in our hearts, but the relationship couldn’t keep going, we were both unhappy.
But that meant that now I had to leave and nowhere to go.
I had months to prepare myself to leave her place and her family, I found a nice flat with a good rent price, I didn’t needed much to be happy, just a place to stay. I moved in November, and had to pay the initial price of two rents, so November was paid already and December of next year as well, since it’s the last year of the contract.
The thing is, I don’t have the support of my family, I literally need to beg for them to help me so I can feed myself sometimes, i work as a petsitter but Covid messed that up a lot, so I’m struggling with money a lot. My boyfriend helps with what he can, but we are both preparing for college, and as a mentally disabled person (I needed 3 years of therapy to be “allowed” by my psychiatrist to go back to college) I can’t work a full time job and the financial crisis in Brazil are absurd at the moment, it’s very hard to find something even if you are qualified. I don’t have my medications for more than 3 months now, rent is due at 15 of December and I’m thousands away from the actual rent price, I’m struggling a lot with food and most of the time I just get one meal per day so I won’t starve in the next day, I also have bills coming up and honestly I’m freaking out.
If you can help me with anything, really anything, that would make a huge difference for me, because $1 dollar is the equivalent of R$5 reais and €1 euro is the equivalent of R$6 reais; so literally anything that you can spare helps immensely.
I know that it’s a hard time to everyone, but if you have the ways to help, my PayPal is [email protected]
