she smells like lemongrass and sleep

sadie •she/her• i post about my eating disorder and weed and the occasional lift so unfollow if u don’t fuck with that

[owenology]

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[flowersgardenlove]

[prettycolors]

[theorangepdf]

for old times sake is actually such a heartbreaking and beautiful sentiment. let’s do it for the love that used to be here!! it is reason enough!!

[gaycommunist]

actually, growing up is feeling like i turned sixteen two days ago. i’ve been eighteen for years. fifteen year olds seem so young. wasn’t i fifteen just a few weeks ago? all my friends and i are still twelve. i’m closer to thirty than to being a baby. i never got to be a kid. i never grew past eight. i can’t talk to my mom. i want to sit in her lap forever. i want to decide everything for myself. i need someone to tell me exactly what to do. the week is going by so slow. an entire year has passed.

[ritikajyala]

There'll be a moment when you realise you're 27 when yesterday you were just 17; and you wouldn't be able to tell how a decade passed away and your life got divided into before and afters. The fury of youth will subdue and nothing will really change but everything will feel different when you look at old photographs and blurry videos taken on cheap mobile phones. Scents will remind you of childhood and certain friends you don't talk to anymore, hangouts will become reunions and mom's burnt pie will become the best food you ever had. And I know on some days you won't be able to show anything of those 10 years but I hope you remember to breathe, and let go of the knot in your chest. I hope you go out in the sun and live a little, because tomorrow is 37.

Edit- I added the visualizer for this piece on my YT, check it out here

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The Flesh I Burned

[alooha]

[sweetpeachhtea]

Illustration by Henriette Willebeek le Mair

[distantvoices]

Lydia Garnett: Arthur, Marie, Silver and Akshay, 2021

[lionofchaeronea]

The Corner of the Villa, Edward Poynter, 1889

[selaminaleykk]

La Vie En Rose

[gentleaffirmations]

[tallahasseemp3]

this lesbian love note in a thrifted book has overcome me like it really is all about love it has always been and will always be

[parakeet]

girl im glad we met and that our stories are tied together for the whole rest of eternity thank you for being part of my story you epic legend

[panera-hoe]

i hate having a mental illness that manifests physically. it’s humiliating, it completely prevents me from ever escaping it, whenever i see an old picture of a sweet memory the only thing i can see is my weight and if i’m bigger or smaller now.

i’m tired. im so tired. i feel like i’m too old for this, i feel like i should have outgrown it, but it won’t leave. no matter how much i grow and heal and change it always comes back. i’m tired. i don’t want to do this anymore.

[lunah-goodbye]

Callista Buchen, “Taking Care” // Cheryl Strayed, Tiny Beautiful Things: Advice on Love and Life from Dear Sugar // Nuala Archer, “Rocking” // Michelle K, “I Know I Deserve More”