Looking down at my watch, where are those kids of mine. They was supposed to be back an hour ago, I told them we needed to leave for New Jersey. Both of those boys never take me seriously and try to hug up on me when I tell them off, I expected them to both be here. Hearing the door close shut downstairs âmom, we home!â hearing Caiden shout me, oh they decided to both come back now. I am actually going to kill Cassius âis Cassius with youâ walking down the steps âmommyâ seeing my beautiful baby girl âReina baby, I need you to go upstairs and put your bag away ok? I will come upstairsâ reaching the bottom of the steps âbut mommy, I make this!â she held up the hand painting she has done âawwww, oh wow. That is beautifulâ pressing a kiss to her forehead âI love it baby, daddy will also. Go upstairs for me, and you. Cassius, donât you dare moveâ Caiden and Cassius both laughed, I donât know what is funny âI come back mommyâ Reina made her way up the steps, she is eight. She was actually eight last week before Chris decided to go and leave for his adventures ânigga, you done withâ Caiden pushed Cassius saying âdidnât I tell you to come back home straight away with Reina and your brother? You said to me, if I can drive dadâ car I will be back. I let you drive his car and you come back late, I swear to god you may have got into UCLA but that does not mean you sit back, you work harder Cassius. And what is thisâ throwing the blunt at him âwoah, that ainât mineâ he pointed at the floor âawwww shit, mom. He badâ Caiden laughed âyouâre being disrespectful to me, youâre eighteen thinking you an adult and can do what you like. I wonât have it, you can now walk your ass to college. Park the car in the garage now. Donât speak to me either, and you laughing. Donât let him teach you his waysâ we about to be so late for the jet because of these kids.
Walking off to see what Reina is doing, Cassius is just like Chris. He is a pain in the butt, he does everything on the sly thinking he is funny. I get it, he is an eighteen year old boy with money but I donât want that, I never had money like that. He needs to respect what he has, Caiden just follows his bad ways and it doesnât help that Chris laughs and daps him. Because Cassius is in UCLA Chris is fine with it but it doesnât work like that, Cassius is his golden child because he is like Chris. Hearing Reina talking to herself in her room, it took me so long to get pregnant again, I struggled for long and even now. I am now pregnant but that is because I had help, it was a painful process and full of miscarriages but Chris helped me so much âwhy are you playing with dolls baby? Did I not say get readyâ she got up from the floor âmommy I did but I want to put her to sleep and then we can go, are we seeing Uncle Blake?â nodding my head smiling âyou love Uncle Blake donât you?â she nodded âI like Shaun, he make me laugh tooâ she ran off, Blakeâ son is around the same age as her âok, just put them away so we can goâ I am three months pregnant, I am so very nervous but excited and this is my last baby.
Seeing the walking advertisements for Black Pyramid walk out, they both like to take their time even though I said we are late. Caiden pulled open the SUV door âReina, stop trying to kick your brotherâ she is purposely kicking her legs around as Caiden climbed in âyes Reina, stop it!â Caiden spat âwhat is the queen doing now? I am telling dadâ her face dropped âmommy I didnât do anything, stop itâ Reina whined out about to cry âhe is lying, ignore him. Just sit downâ Cassius closed the door sitting in the back âmomâ hearing Cassius say âyes?â I said not wanting to look at him but I did âI am sorry, I didnât have it. If I had weed why would I leave it out? I am not stupid, my friend had it. I wouldnât disrespect you and I was late. That was on meâ nodding my head âwhy was you late? Something you want to tell me?â Caiden knows everything about Cassius, he is forever laughing at him but they are practically twins âI am just a little behind on some grades, donât tell dad. Coach said if I donât improve I can get kicked out, I got angry and I just needed to be alone. Itâs my faultâ I donât understand him âyou have everything right in front of you and youâre acting like you have stress on you? Youâre not hard done by, you didnât even have to fight to get there. I have watched you, I am seeing it. I get it, Chris is busy for now but you canât do this for me? You canât be good for me, donât ever ask me if you can go and tour with your dad again because no. And please, if you say but we can get modelling contracts I will come there and pop you in ya mouthâ he is so frustrating, Caiden busted out laughing.
Side eyeing my son taking pictures of himself on the private jet, he is something else that boy âgot my nigga Cai, and my beautiful momâ turning my head âno, mom. Come on, she shy. My mom is more beautiful than your mom, get on my momâ level. Chanel, Prada, Dolce and what else mom? She owning these billboards, why you think I am so beautifulâ looking over at Cassius âare you live?â I questioned âmaybeâ he said âyou forgot Balmainâ I added before looking away âayeee, my mom is balling. She lowkey just mad at meâ Reina started climbing on the seat âI want to see momâ she started climbing on the table âsit down, we are leavingâ Cassius chuckled to himself âI am done but mom, seriously. I will do betterâ Cassius knows he is in the wrong âI will see what happensâ they are both good boys but they just get strayed away and I get it, they want to be teenagers and do their thing but anything they do looks bad on us, that one time we let Cassius go out and do his thing at night and the next day the headlines were Chris Brown son, the gangbanger just because he was in the wrong crowd or has Chris said he got lead away to that. He doesnât get it, he is famous in his own right and people envy that, I just worry about him.
Home sweet home, smiling at my family home not changing one bit at all âyou better hug my dad boys, Reina not you because you are a good girl but them two. My dad adores you twoâ looking behind me, they are both on their phones âyour got a pimple on your foreheadâ Caiden and Cassius both looked up âwhat did I say!?â I spat âI heard mom, hug grand Gâ Caiden said, opening the SUV door âI get out first, mommy waitâ turning around âcome on youâ picking her out and placing her down on the ground âyou worry too much sometimes momâ Caiden said as he got out of the SUV, he wrapped his arms around me âwe good and I promise we are being good, I know you want to protect usâ I feel I am failing at it âI try, both of you mean so much to me. You all doâ hugging Caiden back âmommys boyâ Cassius slapped the back of his head ânothing wrong with that, youâre forever saying sorry to me anywaysâ moving back from the hug, my smile grew seeing my dad holding Reina already âlook at you boys, growing up so quick. Every time I see you both there is something different about you bothâ Cassius hugged my dad and I breathed out a sigh of relief âI do love when my grandkids come home and my daughterâ smiling lightly letting Caiden hug my dad before I did.
âDad, why are you doing here!?â hearing Cassius say âChris is here?â I questioned âyes, why wouldnât he be here. My princess, my babyâ my dad hugged me âI am so happy to see you, being busy for me nowâ my dad and I walked into the home, his arm around me while holding Reina âis Blake and Nathan here?â Shaun ran over âBlake yes, Nathan no and Kyrie is overseas for football but I am ever so happy for him. He did itâ seeing my husband and my two sons, they are like triplets which is scary âwhy didnât you say!? I donât like this surprisesâ hugging Chris âwell you assumed I wouldnât come, I missed you babyâ I hate when he leaves âmiss me daddy!â Reina yelped, Chris chuckled âand you babyâ he said moving back from the hug âdad, I think it is weird that mom and you are still having babies. Why do you want more?â side eyeing Cassius âwell son, you get a wife like Rylee I canât keep my hands off of her. No disrespect Harvey but yeah. She hot like fireâ Chris winked at me âyâall nasty, granddad you need to tell them off. No more babiesâ waving Cassius off âboy bye, who are youâ he thinks he is something special âlook at this, the nephews are here!â Blake loud self making an entrance.
Chris placed his on my stomach âhow is Peanut the forth?â stifling out a giggle âPeanut the forth is ok, it is doing good just missing you. I canât believe you flew back Chris, I didnât expect you to do that you knowâ Chris held my hand âwell I wouldnât miss this day for anything, she was like a mom to me. Royalty couldnât come?â shaking my head âChris, you know she went overseas to do her thing. She did call in the morning, you did say you are going to see Roro in London. She is happy there, itâs a shame she had to go overseas but you know why, she wanted to get away from her momâ Chris rubbed his head âwhen she told me that night, I was hoping she didnât say overseas. I wanted my baby to have happiness and she has, I still watch her. She got some weird white friends, I am proud of all of my kids but I am disappointed she went overseasâ pulling a face at Chris âyou need to keep an eye on your golden child though, I know you keep telling me he is fine but I donât approve of his stupid ways. You make it worse, taking him stupid places like Vegasâ Chris busted out laughing âbut he a nigga like me, he good Rylee. Come on, look at meâ placing my hand over his face âI can see what you was like, love changed youâ that is the only thing to change Chris, still amazes me that it was me that changed him.
Watching Chris place the flowers down on my momâ grave, rubbing Chrisâ back trying not to cry but I canât contain myself. Chris hugged me âI miss my mom so muchâ I sobbed out, itâs been three years and it still feels raw âI know you do, and she was so proud of you Rylee. Sheâs a fighter, she lived to see you be happy. She wouldnât want you to be cryingâ letting out a sob before moving back from Chris, my dad smiled at me âI know Rose will be looking down on us all, not everyone is here that she loves but she wouldnât want it any other way. Kyrie has done it, he is made both our wishes come true and I know you would be so happy with him. Nathan is in Dubai, being what he wanted to be and Blakeâ my dad chuckled âI try!â Blake spat âI am doing goodâ Blake said defending himself âyou did security for Bow thoughâ Cassius busted out laughing âI will break your little legs my niggaâ my dad shook his head âok, I am joking but I thought life wasnât really worth living without you Rose but I look at Reina and she is just like you. I have to do what you told me to do and I am trying to make you proud but there is not one day I donât miss youâ I wish my stubborn dad would move to LA, closer to us but he wonât. Chris placed his arm around me âthank you for coming and being hereâ it means a lot that he did come back âdonât say thank you, I wouldnât miss it for the world. I miss her so much tooâ I just wish that my mom was still here with us.
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