PTSD

A blog for me to vent about my mental illnesses, intrusive thoughts, and fears. (Side Blog)

[panickedterrifiedsleepdeprived]

I like how I go one night not having weed to cope and I relapse with self harming. 🥲

[cellar-d-o-o-r]

Y'all don't know addiction like self harm. Your vice is always there. You never have to go looking for it or get money to afford it. You're always sick off of it, bc the high lasts milliseconds. It's so beautiful, but so empty.

[panickedterrifiedsleepdeprived]

I’m hoping maybe writing my thoughts and feelings out here will help keep myself grounded.

[panickedterrifiedsleepdeprived]

It’s been a minute since I’ve posted here. I’ve been reremembering things that my parents (specifically my dad who I saw as the good parent) did to me as a child and it’s been a lot. Too much for me to handle. I put my dad up on this pedestal and just blocked out all the truly awful things he did. I feel like my whole world is crashing and burning. Idk what to do about it.

[no-glitter-in-the-gutter]

[panickedterrifiedsleepdeprived]

Me: *Is going through a rough moment and really needs someone to talk to.*

Brain: “Cut everyone out of your life they don’t want to hear about your stupid problems anyways. They have real problems and no time for the ones that are all in your head.”

[heartbreakhur]

[the24hourpartypeople-blog]

Please remember

You are not your thoughts.

You don’t have to act on your thoughts.

Your thoughts alone do not make you who you are.

The people around you are safe.

You are safe.

You are going to be okay.

[throwtheoctopus-deactivated2016]

violent intrusive thoughts  ≠ a bad or criminally active person

[csa-suggestions]

how can i even trust that these memories are memories? or fanasties? or just dreams? i dont know whats real and whats not but they intrude my thoughts nearly daily now, and are getting worse slowly. theres no proof, i must be making it up.

[trauma420]

when you escape your abuser and they start acting nice it doesn’t mean they’ve changed it just means you’ve distanced yourself enough to see the side of them that people on the outside always saw

[clotheslinegoonbag]

Please repeat after me:

There is no right way to have trauma

Your trauma is valid even when it presents in less common or embarrassing ways

You don’t need to be the perfect trauma patient to still be affected by trauma

You can have steps forward and steps back while dealing with trauma

Trauma and its experiences vary greatly from person to person and not everyone reacts to the same trauma in the same way

Your trauma and your feelings matter

Trauma does not make you crazy or less of a person

[whospilledthebongwater]

You know you’ve really been through some shit when you’re constantly more worried about how someone will react to you presenting an issue you have with them than you are about the thing that upset you in the first place

[whospilledthebongwater]

Didn’t expect this post to be relevant to so many people, damn

[inhale-the-frost]

Hi this is a symptom of abuse and its so shitty to deal with

[rilo-neko-smith-blog]

[thingsiwouldtellmyyoungerself]

Remember that time you thought you’d never survive? You did, and you can do it again.

(via thingsiwouldtellmyyoungerself)

[threebabies]

Reblog if you are a Trauma/Mentall Illnness Blog ♡

I accidentally deleted my old tumblr so I made a new one and I need blogs to follow.

Reblog if you post about:

- csa/cocsa - trauma - abuse (physical, sexual, emotional abuse) - mental Illness - depression - coping mechanisms - your DID/OSDD system - ptsd/cptsd

I would love to check out your blog! And if you need anything, always feel free to message me♡

[lesbianacolombiana-deactivated2]

I was raised on the mentality that “other people have it worse than you” so I always felt bad for feeling bad and wrote a lot of stuff off as no big deal and it wasn’t until recently that I realized I went through a lot of trauma throughout my childhood and early teens and now here I am dealing with the aftermath of it all haha moral of the story: just because someone has it worse doesn’t mean your problems aren’t valid and important