Manifesting Journey!

Just disclaimer! I’m not a manifesting coach lol! Just wanting to share my experience live!!

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back

ok guys, so after some thought, i think that i am still gunna manifest SP back. It was actually a hard choice to make. Though I just want to prove to myself and you guys that manifesting SP is not this big thing.

I don't think that I'm gunna keep the relationship, but I did make this blog abt SP so like.. we must prosper LOL.

though this time I'm gunna change my affirmations so I can grab the law down and just manifest better, OR something else.

My circumstance was absolutely atrocious, so I think that this is gunna be a little harder on my end to try and not repeat the old story.

Honestly i believe i manifested that circumstance in some way ngl, but this is just proving to me that your most dominant thought will in fact manifest. Like, yeah sure i was affirming that we were together, but i think that in the back of my mind it just went to show that i still let it creep up and i gave it that meaning, gave it the power, dwelled on it, and "just knew" it was going to happen. But like don't worry, you can change that fr. It just takes you.

My main goal is to just get a text. I've blocked SP everywhere but knowing that the law fr isn't logical... who cares how I receive it.

My affirmations are gunna be law based:

"the law is always working for me"

"I get whatever I want in minutes"

and the one SP affirmation is:

"SP is crawling back to me."

I think that i want my assumptions to be LOA based because atp i could just manifest whatever I want without any kind of struggle if I have those assumptions down. I think that alone just goes and shows that anything is obtainable.

but uhhhhh, yah. That is the comeback post.

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wow

faced with the nastiest circumstances known to man. Holy shit. IDK guys i think im gunna take a bit to step back bro. SP sent me the nastiest shit known to man.

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Uhhhmm

Well ok first things first.

I went back to the basics; “your dominant thoughts manifest” and honestly after going back to that, have been so much easier to stay disciplined.

I will not lie, this has been a journey for myself. It’s starting to click even more for myself bc atp I’m just like “no way it’s that easy, are we deadass?” And then I started thinking abt the old story. (Hear me out) I deadass manifested my circumstances because my dominate thought about the situation came out. •_• like ok bro.

I’m definitely sticking to RA. It’s helping me more than I thought. I used to be a person all for methods and then I lowkey gave up if it didn’t show the day after LMFAOOO. But now I’m like, ok welllll if RA sticks to the brain then this should be a piece of cake.

Even though there has been days where I’m like “nah I can’t this is making me so mad and frustrated.” I’ve cried it out to the top of my lungs and that makes me feel sm better too, bc then I’m like “wait lol, I can just RA it away lol” after that session.

I’ve also seen like movement, but am not gunna focus on that bc I want the whole thing! Like ok! I see it, but just give it to me. I’ve taken it as a “keep going so it can come”. Straight up had sps initials right in my face in red letters on cars, signs, most random things ever LOL.

and like I’m trying to let go of “you have to wait”. Like uhhhh, no what the hell. I told myself I am NOT waiting again T-T and I’m holding that.

But like, I think me going back to the raw basic helped sm bro. It definitely turned me off from looking at other manifesting posts LOL (they’re great don’t get me wrong) but like. I already know what I have to do atp and just RA my dominant thoughts. Then BOOM, it’ll manifest & I get to experience it.

Let’s see how the next couple days go.

Realistically, I’m so bad with saturating bc I’m all over the place, but like when I catch myself I’m def going to RA.

Officially an RA voucher •𐃷•

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Update

Still struggling. I have been flipping my thoughts, as a person that feels literally everything, it’s been hard to get my mind out the gutter (sad). Even though it’s okay, I think I need to redirect.

I still want to be with SP. I still love SP. Though I need to assume that manifesting is easy. I need to start having a different perspective. I think that’ll help me.

Right now my current feeling is bland. Hopeless. But it’s okay. I know that it can change, I just have to really push myself to be disciplined.

Even though yes I’ve been flipping my thoughts, it does make me feel better! It does show that my thoughts are way different than from the very first day.

I did go into a hole on social media again:( it’s not that I’m looking for methods, I guess just validation. I need to start being able to validate myself and just trusting myself.

I will not lie. I feel so insanely frustrated with myself. I know that it’s so easy, but I don’t understand why I’m making it so hard. It’s difficult for me to push that thought of it being so easy, and all I need to do is RA of my desired experience.

Honestly some advice would be cool.. but I know that it’s just me and only I can give it to myself.

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I haven’t been able to sleep, but I did fully let go of the old story. Like serious, I think for the first time I felt at peace and ok. I don’t know how to describe it, but it was amazing.

Whats funny is that the moon was literally smiling at me, and I think that was just something that I consider as a “you finally let it go.” I guess now everything Starts LOL

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struggling

Have to be completely honest. I've been struggling a lot with holding accountability. I know that I've been affirming, that's down pact. I know that I've been feeling super sad lately and letting that get to me. Even though I've been affirming, I've been trying to hold onto "I create my reality." that's a well known fact.

I think that my personal issue is just trusting myself. Like I will have moments where I am like "wow I just created it, now I have nothing to worry about." then I will go on about my day for a couple minutes and then have this fear or like "oh no what if that wasn't enough?" or "nothing is showing in my 3D". There are moments in my present where I will start getting anxious and being like "what if?" and then I start looking for validation on Tumblr and twitter. It's not necessarily a bad thing, but I did say that I wanted to start trusting myself more and not relying on the people in the community (super grateful for). Though I did start to look at it for fact, not for more. (if that makes sense).

There are many people here that can manifest, and I'm starting to believe and have stability over the facts. Despite my struggles and doubts, I'm starting to get it engrained that "I create my reality, and I can change anything at any given moment." That's the most important thing to me right now. I personally feel like when I have that base belief down, anything can come my way. Again, it's just a matter of me being able to trust myself and affirming is more than enough.

My newest goal right now is to be able to trust myself, and my word. What I say has to go. The 3D WILL conform. It's just on me and that means I have to really stick to it and be disciplined. I will NOT be waiting another few years for this to happen. I REFUSE, to allow my doubts, struggles with the law, and being undisciplined getting in the way. I am taking that initiative NOW.

The one thing that has stuck to me the most, and I seen it on twitter is.. "That manifestation coach can't save you, only you can save you."

I honestly think that writing down my thought process is helping me by a lot. I can see where my mind and what my thoughts are.

The only thing I can diagnose from this is 'trust that it's happening' and just keep affirming.

I can do it. WE can do it.

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I will not lie. It has been hard to let go of the old story, but I believe I am done for real with talking about it and ready to embrace the new story.

I have felt hurt, sadness and anger. Though I realize it’s because I am entering my new state. Everything of the old story is leaving. I’ve felt the emotions but I am ready to “start over”. For I still create my reality and I’m ready to fully commit to the discipline and not let the old story consume me.

I thought that i was done repeating. But i guess i am also realizing that i still need time too. Everything is so fresh!!

Basically don’t pressure yourself lol

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real time feeling

So now i am feeling anxious and worried about having nightmares about this whole thing.

So the steps I am going to take right now is just remind myself that SP Loves me and that I am the creator of my reality. Everything I say goes. I am reminding myself of the law. I am deciding right now that my SP and I are back together. Repeat and stay disciplined. Any negative thought does not have a right to be here. That's just the anxiety talking and brain trying to push 3D circumstances. I am currently deciding right now that my SP loves me, my SP is back. Once more, I decide what goes on in my reality! No more old story. That doesn't exist anymore.

I am also a little anxious about a 3P. So, what I am going to do now is just tell myself. That doesn't exist. Out of sight = not existing lol. I have also blocked my SP everywhere on social media because I am not feeding into my anxiety. As hard as it is, I refuse to let myself have more of a reason to tweak the hell out and make it harder for myself by giving myself all these negative thoughts and then confirm it. That is a super big nono.

Again, brain and anxiety do not have any say in what I am going to decide. I as myself who wants to have a fulfilling life with my SP am going to stay disciplined so I will not be waiting forever.

lol now that I typed that out, I will now be watching athf because i am being that person who just decided that i create and have control over my reality and that my SP loves me and is back.

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affirmations (SP)

These are the affirmations I will realistically be using.

SP is back.

SP still adores/loves me.

I am the creator of my reality.

Super simple for now, no need to get gritty with it. I feel like these are good base affirmations to set that security for my anxiety before I decide anything else.

And of course, for anyone that doesn't know 369 method particularly the one I'm using and would like to try it:

3x persons name, 6x affirmation, 9x action for them to take

ex:

sp name x3

sp loves me x6

sp texted me they want to be together x9

Personally, it just lets my hands do something so i am not doomscrolling or just because i can be pretty anxious and just need assistance with affirming. Again, methods work! Everything works for something.

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Action plan

So, this is for me, if you guys feel like it'll work for you then feel free! Again, everyone is different. Everything relates to everyone in different ways.

My action plan is in fact to robotic affirm (repeat affirmations) and write down the 369 method. As someone who has the absolute worst anxiety, I feel like this 100% could work for me. If not, then I will find another way to stay disciplined to. I don't want to be overwhelmed with too many things and I feel like these are the easiest methods for anyone in general.

We all know repetition helps a lot with things coming into fruition.

Some common examples are:

Positive: "SP thinks am swag!" = SP thinks i'm swag

Negative: "SP does not think am actually swag" = SP thinks you're not swag

To me affirming is just another way to decide. Like you're making that conscious effort to decide whatever you're thinking. AKA affirming.

SOOOOOO with that all in mind, this is what's going through my head.

When i think of manifesting i start putting it into perspective. If i am the person that controls my reality. Then I must take a deep breath and decide that this very moment. Have that confidence to be like "I can change anything at any time because I am in control." and its true! We have to remember that we are aware of the law and how it works. It's Okay to have doubts too btw. We just have to remind ourselves every time we have them.

After I just killed my old story, my current feeling is "ok well now the worst part has happened, lets flip that." and "I just decided right now that I am my creator for my reality." If for whatever reason my SP does decide to be a little funky and try to show me otherwise (3D).. I am just going to tell myself "nu uh, not anymore can u politely exit the plane of existence until my affirmations of you show up the way i want it to." because again!!! We are the creators of what we want!!

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The NOW (SP)

Now that everything is out the way, lets keep it simple.

We know as people of the law that:

Circumstances do not matter.

It all comes down to discipline.

Emotions do not manifest.

Any method works (its you, in the sense of trusting yourself).

The law is always working and has no exceptions.

Assuming (deciding).

Nothing can harm your manifestation unless you allow it to.

The 3D means nothing. Everything can change if you allow it to.

No repeating the old story. Get it all out and it's done.

I personally am avoiding consuming much LOA content. As much as I adore Tumblr and twitter communities, I felt myself that it was getting to me. I felt a little confused, and then hopeful, then i would see different opinions which made me have doubts and it was this line of uncertainty. I felt myself consuming content and trying everything and getting disappointed when it wouldn't work. THIS!!!! is because I have no discipline, so everything was everywhere for me and now that I am trying to change that and document everything, we are going to take steps.

Everyone is different, so if you feel like you can't relate or you don't want it to relate to you that is ok! This is your journey too.

I have to be honest, I have extreme anxiety. So, this will take me some time in all honesty to just chill out, but I have faith!

Again, am also not a coach or master manifestor because am still learning but I'd really just like to share my raw experience.

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Manifesting SP

So, i'm kinda new (not really). But i realize that i'd like to start documenting my journey on manifesting. I think that me documenting could help out others. NOT saying that i'm a manifestation coach or i've done these grand things (yet). Disclaimer, it is just also for myself too lol.

I think that others watching something happen live with maybe the same circumstances could build that trust and confidence in the law, aka #lawofassumption because ngl ive been struggling on it for a little while too. Especially on the topic of SP.

However all great manifestors have to start somewhere. We can do this guys wooooooooooo