Mind Place

"What a burden it is to love something death can touch"

[paper-goodbyes-blog]

I am so fucking done. People. Kill. Me.

[psychotic--suicide]

I remember when I first found out about eating disorders, (anorexia in particular) I thought it was stupid to starve yourself. I only saw the side affects. Like dry skin, and your hair falling out. Never did I think that one day, I would be so desperate to be skinny, that I would not care about the side affects.

[paper-goodbyes-blog]

The idea that I'm wasting my life is constantly in the back of my mind.

[paper-goodbyes-blog]

why cant people appreciate how much effort i put into not becoming a serial killer 

[justanothercoffeedate]

[supnoah]

i find myself sleeping more and more because reality is not worth staying awake for

[psychotic--suicide]

Depression isn’t cured with pills. It only makes it less noticeable.

[paper-goodbyes-blog]

I destroyed my body for a piece of mind I never got

[psychotic--suicide]

I’m tired of acting okay. The pills don’t work. My eyes are dead. I am really sad. Maybe I’ll just sleep.

[do-we-still-exist-deactivated20]

[klinge-und-ich]

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[paper-goodbyes-blog]

me: im ugly

friends: no you're not

me: I AM UGLY and that's a fact. guys don't add me on facebook and like my pictures, they don't ask for my number, i get 5 text a day, one from my dad, two from my mom, one from the phone company and another one from some girl in my class asking me if there's something for tomorrow. guys don't text me saying 'goodmorning beautiful' or just even saying 'hi whats up?' if i have any guy friends they're one maybe two. you guys DO get texts, boys flirt with you, you're always complaining about boys, when nobody ever calls me pretty. you guys get a compliment at least twice a day, boys play with your hair, kiss your cheek, hold you from behind, and i'm just there watching, and if any boy wants to talk to me it's because they want me to give them something, or to call me bad names. i don't have 120 likes on my profile picture, i'm scared of doing a party because i know i would't have any guy friends to invite. is it because i don't let anyone know me? NO, it's because i don't look good. why all the pretty girls out there are full of 'guy friends'? don't tell me because they're the best people ever because it ain't true. my teeth are not perfect, i don't like my smile, i'm insecure af, my eyes have nothing special, i don't even have the perfect body, so don't tell me i'm not ugly because i am.

[paper-goodbyes-blog]

16/12/13 11:31

I've just come to the realisation that he will never love me. He will never fall in love with my eyes the way I fell in love with his. He will never look at me and think about how perfect I am like I do to him. It sucks. It hurts. Because it matters.

[psychotic--suicide]

My friends all tell me I’m poetic. In reality I’m just sad.

[psychotic--suicide]

You. I hate the way you look at me with your fucking perfect eyes. I hate the way you laugh because its so bloody adorable. I hate the way you understand me because you’re the only one who does. I hate the way that the very fucking though of you makes me smile. But most of all I hate how you make me love you Even when I know I can’t have you.

[paper-goodbyes-blog]

15/12/13 11:11pm

If I tell you that I can't stop thinking about you, I'd come across pretty creepy. But that's the sad thing. I can't stop thinking about you. I can't stop thinking about your gorgeous green eyes and your perfect music taste. Or your laugh. Or your smile. Or your voice. Fuck you. I think about you all the time. I can guarantee you never think about me. You have a girlfriend after all. I just hope she treats you the way you deserve to be treated. I would go to hell and back just to make you smile. So fuck you. Fuck you. Fuck you.