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Moved to a new home thebelleadventures.tumblr.com

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Sometimes I'd like to think that I am close with my mother. Other times I would like to feel that I am adopted. Seriously. Parenthood. I really don't understand why some parents have to curse and embarrass their kids. Hurtful enough, it's also degrading. She's been like this to me for so long that sometimes when she doesn't notice me at all I question myself too. I'm not even sure why I am still here. For most of the time, she tears me apart. I was always asked to take the first move. To kiss her, to hug her and tell her how much I love her. NO. Is what I always say. I am always reminded of the horror that she did to me, Joey, Anjo and Luigi. She used to say to me that I should listen to her and leave Luigi and build my life again. Yeah right. She never missed a day to remind me of how much of a failure I am. "wala ako pakialam sang impyerno ka nag ttrabaho" "Paliwagin mo na lahat, wag ka lang papabuntis" "Sana pinalaglag na lang kita" "Ako bumuhay sayo, ako papatay sayo" Etcetera etcetera. If only the law forbids mental manipulation and exhaustion as a crime... Dot dot dot.

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My little nerd 🤓

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Post skin care selfie 💆🏻

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Good morning Chuy! 💓👶🏻👩🏻👩‍👦

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Up all night on my mind got me thinking Wanna stay, can you give me a reason? I don't think so, I don't think so I'm in love with someone, but I'm not sure She can love someone back the way they love her I don't think so, I don't think so Don't be mean, if you wanna go You can leave and leave my heart alone [Chorus] Waking up to nothing when you're super far from home And I watch you fall asleep at night and lay there on my own Got me begging for affection, all you do is roll your eyes Broken down, I've had enough If this is love, I don't want it [Verse 2] Give it time, c'mon babe, it's been ten months You should know, do you know, know what you want? I don't think so, I don't think so Make it work, know it hurts, but I'll go there Do the same, can you show me that you care? God, I hope so, but I don't think so [Pre-Chorus 2] Don't be mean, if you're here for good I'm gonna need a little more from you [Chorus] Waking up to nothing when you're super far from home And I watch you fall asleep at night and lay there on my own Got me begging for affection, all you do is roll your eyes Broken down, I've had enough If this is love, I don't want it All my friends keep saying that I'm way too good to you But my heart is so invested, I don't wanna face the truth I'm not happy, and you know it, and you still don't even try Broken down, I've had enough If this is love, I don't want it Waking up to nothing when you're super far from home And I watch you fall asleep at night and lay there on my own Got me begging for affection, all you do is roll your eyes Broken down, I've had enough If this is love, I don't want it All my friends keep saying that I'm way too good to you But my heart is so invested, I don't wanna face the truth I'm not happy, and you know it, and you still don't even try Broken down, I've had enough If this is love, I don't want it

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You, of all people, deserve a happy ending. Despite everything that happened to you, you aren’t bitter. You aren’t cold. You’ve just retreated a little and been shy, and that’s okay.

Sylvain Reynard, Gabriel’s Inferno (via perrfectly)

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My family. 👩‍👦

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Lessons with Lyle this morning. Agenda for today: Tracing letters 📝✏️

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Religion vs Reality

I’m a confused person. Really. I’m curious of the unknown and scared of what’s in front of me. Lately I have realized how cliche it is to say that a specific religion will make it’s way for you to get to Him. How ironic.

For example, if I belong to a religion where one of the commandments state to always tell the truth. When I lie, does that automatically disqualifies me? Or shall I be forgiven. Or is there a fine print? If it was a ‘rule’ which was not mean to be broken then why was a fine print created in the first place. I think the better term should be “Things not to do otherwise will be forgiven”. Don’t get me wrong, I believe in God. It’s just that, sometime, the things that happen in reality are totally contradicting with what followers are doing in their specific religions.

Let me be a great example.

I conceived a kid outside of marriage. I was asked to marry the same guy over and over again without the marriage really happening. It was frustrating. I grew up in a household where my mom works for a living while my step dad attends to his business. Meaning to say, both are earning eitherway. But in my case, I was the one with a steady job, father of my child always has reasons and always gets away with it. I got an immense support from his relatived though. They make up for what he lacked -lacks. But isn’t he suppose to be the one earning for us as the Church says so? If there are rules like this that are bent and combined with all the rules that he violated, should that mean forgiving is above everything else and we just move on with it? I mean, what about the rules that they always talk about? They even had the guts to report me before when I dated someone else when my kid’s dad and I broke up. I mean come on, they always have a way to make themselves pitiful. I've always dimmed my light to not outshine their precious one. And me, seeing other guys, because I am with kid, is a bad thing. When does wanting to feel loved a bad thing? Only in this side of the family. I have learned a big valueable lesson after all of this. Never let religion take over your being. You are who you are. No rules will be able to tame you if you are a bad person. No law will prohibit you if you dream big. And no religion will tell you to endure specially if your partner is breaking all the rules himself.

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