Pain Is Never Permanent

But Tonight Is killing Me

[teekxi]

i absolutely LOVEEE everysingle person thats been streaming the absolutely MESSS out of this song since i dropped it 😤🤍‼️‼️

[parachute724]

Quick idea, an AU where Ongsa is the physical manifestation of death and one day Sun's name appears in her 'book of name's' (aka people she's supposed to kill or make deals with) however, her name is written in a totally different handwriting and ink color than the rest and now Ongsa has to figure out what does that means. (They are still in high school and Ongsa does harbour a massive crush on Sun)

[heretherebedork]

One of the hardest parts is knowing that I could have been Sun as a teenager. My parents were open and accepting and I had no secrets and I had no idea why anyone would have a secret from their parents. I never did out anyone, luckily, but I understand how it happens. And how it happened here. Sun is just so used to honesty and she has no reason to consider any other reaction... even though she should know better... I get why she doesn't. It's wrong and she should not have outed anyone without being certain it was okay but I see the innocence of where she comes from, that certainty that every family can be like your own if you just treat them that way.

But Ongsa's face here? That fear and that pain and that instant worry? The way Alpha had already reminded her that she would have to tell their mother someday? The knowledge that she already fears this? Oh, it hurts.

And this just hurt. But it also shows that Sun wasn't looking to Ongsa during this. She wasn't following her signals or seeing her face fall or her nerves. Nothing of the sort. Sun didn't wait for Ongsa, didn't consider what she wants or what she was ready to do... she outed three people without a second thoughts or a moment's hesitation. And as much as I want to live in a world where that's something no one has to worry about or hesitate about, we don't live in that world.

(This also shows, honestly, how little they've talked despite dating each other. That Sun doesn't know Ongsa is still in the closet to her family? That Ongsa has never told Sun about all of this? They're dating and they love each other but none of this has come up because they're young and they assume everyone thinks the way they do.)

THIS is where I get frustrated with Sun. Seriously? She is not young or innocent enough to truly believe there's no such thing as homophobic parents or people or that staying in the closet is a thing no one does. I understand her relationship with her parents has shaped her but to take this level of offense at Ongsa trying to stay in the closet when they did discuss them coming out publicly and it was always Ongsa who hesitated and didn't want to tell others? It's rough to see.

NEVER?! Never!? That's what you take from this Sun!? It has NOT been long for you to be waving around forever in her face. You've never even discussed what coming out to her parents might look like or why she's in the closet and now you're upset and outing her more thoroughly in your upset?! The agony.

Poor Ongsa. She's barely holding her together and her girlfriend is outing her to her parents and her parents are frustrated and she didn't want any of this and now she's stuck in the middle and it hurts so much to watch her.

Sun, how you can look at your girlfriend looking like this and still out her to her parents?! Come on!

Repeat after me, kids! No one deserves to be outed, no matter what you think, no matter what you believe, no matter your comfort level. No one deserves to be outed. Do not out the people you love. Do not out them even if you think it's for the best. People come out in their own time and in their own way and everyone deserves that.

(I am also very, very worried about how they're going to handle this tbh.)

[parachute724]

This entire post IS THE ENTIRE POINT. I just want to add that it's not hating on Sun, I just actually can't believe that the thoughtful, patient, and understanding girl we have met thought the past nine chapters would do something like this, but hey, everyone makes mistakes.

I just take this to also analyze her as a character and I think this, plus jumping straight into an online sort-of courtship with a stranger gives us a wider picture on Sun's fatal flaw and is her naivety that the world works the same way for everyone as it does for her. It sure makes her more three dimensional as a character, but 😔 at what cost

[parachute724]

I don't get why the Tumblr people get that what Sun did was wrong and Ongsa's panic was justified and the twitter (refuse to call it that ridiculous name) crew can seem to live in reality land with homophobics running rampant.

[parachute724]

I am on Ongsa's defense squad all the way. However, I think they could drag Sun's forgiveness for a chapter, ya know? Make it hurt for a little longer so the reconciliation it's sweeter, I'm a sucker for stuff like that 🤷‍♀️

[parachute724]

I just watched the last ep of the season for Blank, and very much like in the books, Khun Nueng Anantrakul just went on and was a Royal idiot. Or like I would say in my country, procedió a valer muchísima verga.

[dearafah]

[parachute724]

This scene right here had me giggling, twirling my hair and kicking my feet. P'Luna is such a smooth talker.

[panncakes]

no but i need people to understand that no matter how frustrating it will become watching ongsa make her web of lies more and more intricate and convoluted solely because she can't come to grips with her own insecurities and keeps making things worse for herself and people around her, i will stand with this dumbass loser lesbian because i was her as a teenager and she deserves to be loved 🥺

[parachute724]

Could we cut my girly Ongsa some slack? She's all but sixteen years, gay panicking and closeted. She's already tearing herself apart enough for us to jump on the Ongsa-blaming wagon

[parachute724]

Things I have said while reading Blank: The Novel:

"La Puta madre que te parió, Neung, por ahí no era" trans: Son of a whore, Nueng, not like that — Chapter 16

"Coño e mae, Nueng, porqué?" Trans: Mother's vagina, Neung, why? — Chapter 17

"Nueng, que pésima negociadora eres" trans: Nueng, You suck at negotiating— chapter 17, P2

Está pelaita es un puto peligro trans: this kid is a fucking Hazard — Chapter 17, P2

Sam y Nueng comparten una sola neurona, en este capítulo era el turno de Sam aparentemente. Pinche loca. Trans: Sam and Nueng share a braincell, this chapter was Sam's turn to hold it. Fucking crazy chick. — Chapter 17, PF

Íbamos bien Chet, pero pensamos con el culo de vez en cuando padre. Trans: We were alrite, Chet, but you had to think with your asshole, bud. — C18, P1

Chale Anueng, tas bien parlera. Trans: Damn, Anueng, so suave. C18— P2

Jealous much, Your serenity? C18, P3

Again, Sam and Nueng share a single fucking braincell C18, P4

Useless lesbian that you are, Nueng Anantrakul C18, P5

The way to Anueng's heart: her stomach. C19, P1

Something 'bout you, makes me feel like a dangerous woman C19, P2

Khun Sam con 0 filtro, parte un millón C19, P3

Someone said Khun Nueng had some Klaus Mikael son level Karma, I support that statement a give my credits to the author. C19, P4

Sin anestesia, dijo agua va! C19, P5

Mi teoría de 'las hermanas Anantrakul comparten una neurona, la otra se murió con Song' se mantiene y es confirmada C19, P6

She's so fucking weak for the kid already! C19, PF

Fuck me sideways, kid got a backbone. C-21, P1

Chet is back in the game dishing sage advice. C-21, P2

Nueng is so fucking savage. C-21, P3

Again, fuck me sideways with this two, they're gonna kill me C-21, PF

Liar, liar pants on fire. Khun Nueng tiene la boca dura pa decir mentiras C22, P1

Está es o se hace C22, P2

This fucking kid C22,P3

This FUCKING KID (X2) C22, P4

I don't even have to repeat my self C22, P5

Mon interpretando a las hermanas Anantrakul desde tiempos inmemoriales C23, P1

No fucking filter whatsoever C23, P2

La menta llena de cochambre por la sobrina C23, P3

This fucking kid GODS BE DAMNED (X3) C23, P3

We hate Piengfah in this house C24, P1

Khun Nueng is five years of age, and share a braincell with her fucking sister. C24, P2

Piengfah is in for a rude awakening C24, PF

Nueng está bien canija

La concha de la Lora y la hija de la retresmilputisima madre que me ha parido C27

Out of sight C28

Nueng Anantrakul te pasas mucho de verga C28, PF

Hay cosas que mi corazón simplemente no soporta C29

*Mouth falls wide open* THIS FUCKING KID C30

Neung, HIJA DE LA GRAN PUTA MADRE QUE TE PARIO C31

Samananm Anantrakul, the hero of the day C31

Neung Anantrakul, NO ERES NI SERIA HIJA, TE FALTA GARBO C31

Consideraciones finales: ESTE LIBRO ES LA RUINA DE MI CONTINUA EXISTENCIA POR LAS SIGUIENTE 2 SEMANAS.

[performativezippers]

Another Whistler sibling.... *sigh*

Now you've got me thinking on that AU I have tucked away that I'm still putting together... Where Kate has a twin....

I have this weird little story I’m playing with in my head where she and Noah actually had a bunch of siblings. Maybe fundie parents? With Kate and Noah as the oldest (maybe twins?) then a big gap when their parents got sort of radicalized, and then had like 6 more kids. So she has all these siblings out there but she doesn’t really know them and hasn’t felt like part of the family at all since Noah died.

Then ofc one of the siblings, maybe the youngest, gets arrested in Honolulu with her sailor boyfriend and KABOOM worlds collide!

[parachute724]

I have a similar idea!! So Noah was the eldest, the straight as an arrow kid, then Kate, the charmingly shy youngest child; their parents are wealthy, like Kate mom's a Canadian heir while her dad is a usmc aviator turned aerospace mogul. They have five younger siblings, after three of the much too young (or just born) when Noah died. So Kate's mom jumps the ship when Noah died, and her dad just checks out leaving Kate to rise two tweens, a toddler and two new born twins.

[parachute724]

Freen's acting was superb this episode and it was like a switch was flipped on on Khun Sam in regards of emotions. But can we talk about Becky's evolution since the first stilted scenes to this ep? Or about Mon's stillness and quiet frankly, her shock and delusion. I saw this kid trying to convince herself throughout the episode that Sam will fight for them only to have the rug pulled off of her at last

[love-fucking-sucks]

real question tho we all agree that mon fucked sam in the pool with their clothes on and THEN she ate her out in the living room absolutely ravishing her both times right???

[parachute724]

Yes, this is canon and I would physically fight whoever disagree

[hyperfocusmadness]

You know how in BL there was this period of time where all the sex scenes very obviously looked like two straight man who had no idea what gay sex actually looked like? Yeah the girlies are NOT having that problem

[parachute724]

She ain wrong and I'm here for it

[parachute724]

A gentle reminder, our dear socially stunted Lady Sam ain't neurodivergent, but trauma ridden to the core, and while there's no excuse for some things she does, empathy should be gently given to a victim of childhood abuse like her.

[loserlesbianongsa]

thinking about how sam is so desperate for mon to understand her, to understand that she doesn’t hate her, that what she feels for her is so far from the hatred that mon is so sure she bears. thinking about how if had sam been raised more gently, more tenderly, then she would perhaps be able to admit that what she feels for mon is more akin to love. thinking about how despite sam’s desperation, despite her i like you. i like you. you hear me? i like you. are you not satisfied? well… i… like you. i… i hate you. what do you want? i’m telling you i like you., mon still doesn’t understand, still doesn’t trust a words she says. but why would she when sam has a habit of saying the opposite of what she means and this so happens to be the one time she doesn’t? thinking about how mon is equally as desperate to understand sam, to understand what it is she wants from her. thinking about how if sam kissed her (and she has) mon still wouldn’t allow herself to trust that sam wants to be with her. sam likes her today, sure, but what about tomorrow? i mean, she also wanted to fire mon the day before and now she’s near begging her to stay. so yes, i’m thinking about how sam is so hard to read, to trust, to understand without doubt or hesitation, and how that’s breaking them both. i’m thinking about how at the end of day, the blame doesn’t fall on her alone, how she isn’t the one truly at fault, not when her harsh and indifferent nature, her inability to say what she feels, is merely the result of grandmother’s impossibly tight hold on her and the way she loves.

[parachute724]

Happy new year, we start of the year working on something