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1997. Designer.

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get a friendship tattoo, they said. 🪽

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— love my current skintone so much huhu

also, happy friday!!! ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

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no bad mornings here 🥹☀️

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a little downtime from the daily routine

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in her island girl era 🤍

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🐇𓍢ִ໋🌷͙֒🪐

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back to the city where multiple breakdowns happen but also activates my freedom and sense of independency as well :)

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just another night with some just because flowers and a cooked dinner for me after work ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚

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Elyu — always a home.

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i think i like this little life. * ˚ ✦

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Women’s month.

now i understand the beauty of not rushing things, and going through all of my hard phases. the art of outgrowing some friends and accepting that you don't have to force on having the same wavelength with other people. the art of having a final glance to an old version of myself who was once heavily entangled with grief. the art of girlhood and being a woman, oh how i love being a woman.

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slowly witnessing this place become a little piece of peace from the outside world made me realize that the years I've spent on my early twenties trying to fit in different social circles was not worth it. that "heartbreak" who stole my personality, hobbies, and style was not worth it. some friends i treasured who betrayed and antagonized me was not worth it. finally life starts to get good on my late twenties, and this time I am allowing it because I deserve some good things too ♡

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it’s a Thursday and I’m sipping my cup of coffee while thinking that it's the start of my leave that I’ve been looking forward to for the past months and I still have a week left before I hustle and work again haha :)

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only minding mine, sad parts included :)

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would you tell them how you didn't like coffee before but because i love it so much you crave for Spanish latte just as much as I do now?

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Seeing ''back in Manila'' entries on a trend at Tiktok tugs at my heartstrings because this city really witnessed multiple versions of myself.

From a 16-yr old confused probinsyana, studious and full of grit college student, desperate for a job fresh grad, excited and newly employed corporate worker, burnt out and tired of the system employee, to remote work girlie who only gets to visit her friends once in a while.

This trend made me reminisce so much things from the past that current me can't wait for it to meet this new version of myself that I am working on. I don't know who she is yet, but i hope she's something my past selves would be proud of.

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How do I even tell myself that a year after hitting rock bottom I would be:

🍃 living alone.

🥂 promoted as a Senior Designer.

❤️‍🩹 in the most healing and healthy relationship I've ever been with.

Somewhere between before and after is a hard line between them. and I am moved by the fact that there were things I have outgrown to make life better as it was instead of it is.