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ray | they/them | minor

[paraskienia-deactivated20260520]

MY BOY MY BOY MY PRETTY BOY

[pt: My boy my boy my pretty boy]

[paraskeinia]

ARTEMIS 3?!

[pt: Artemis 3?!]

[paraskeinia]

I understand you a little more everyday, and I start to see the role I played. Stop. Pause. Breathe. Try not to rot in guilt, it'll do no good. The past matters not, the future is far more relevant, and the present decides the future. A present where I need to stay away. Stop. Pause. Breathe. The past can't be changed, but the future can, and the present builds up to the future. A present where I watch you from across the room, silent and in my place. Stop. Pause. Breathe. It's going to be okay. I understand the role I play(ed). I know my lines now, I've finally got the script; the blank sheet of paper is no metaphor for freedom, but a demand of silence, and staying in my place, in the audience if I can pay the fare, or outside the theatre completely. Are we no more, now? Rosaline has no part in the last scene of the play, but she lives where Juliet dies. Our memories will rot into sweet sap in the crevices of my mind, in the music you showed me we will dance under the stars we promised to watch together, hands and hearts ten thousand miles apart, without a single word to bridge the gap.

[paraskeinia]

"we're not kids anymore, right? We've got to make everything complicated now."

-Ray's new physics teacher

[paraskeinia]

Elijah probably listens to Oliver rant and ramble very intently and if keith or someone interrupts he's getting snapped at to not interrupt

And Charlie's just there thinking about how when she rants and rambles Elijah's constantly checking his watch and when she goes "Sorry if I'm being annoying, do you wanna talk about something else?" He's just like "Uhh.. oh look at the time I've got to go see you later"

Elijah ignores an alarm listening to Oliver

All of a sudden Charlie's late for practice and needs to rush to the rink

Does she come back? Not today. But eventually. He's honey and she's an ant after all.

[tolerateit]

everyone in this room will someday be dead - emily austin

[paraskeinia]

[image ID: text highlighted in pink reading "Other times I fixate on how endearing people are. We sleep on duty surfaces; we like to be cozy. When I find cats cuddled up on pillows, I think it sweet; we are like that too. We like to eat cookies and smell flowers. We wear mittens and hats. We visit our families even when we're old. We like to pet dogs. We laugh; we make involuntary sounds when we find things funny. Laughing is adorable, if you really think about it."]

[paraskeinia]

Hey Ray why is sweden your first choice in choosing where to live im interested?

Sweden? It's Finland

Finland because as far as I've heard the government is nice and there's 75+% forest coverage and everything i hear about the place sounds really neat

It used to be ireland but they're apparently on a rise of specifically anti Indian racism so ouchies

Sweden is actually being taken off of the list cause I've heard they're deporting immigrants

Actually I'm still open to suggestions for other countries my conditions are

A good place to be queer and brown

A left leaning government

A university with product/industrial design

Distinct seasons (i want winter. I want the cold)

Lots of trees :) and preferably also like mountains or open fields or rivers or a coast

[paraskeinia]

Does Charlie ever see Oliver, Elijah, Jack, Keith and Sarah hanging out and for a second thinks she might join in but then had to remind herself that that's not her crowd and if she does join in she'll just feel out of place and in the off chance she actually gets a word in it'll either be awkward or ridiculed so she just walks away

[paraskeinia]

"why are your more recent ocs mostly girls when your older ones are mostly boys" asked no one ever but it's because I am recently simping for women more you're welcome <3

[nchntd]

In the club

[vacuously-true]

I think I’m literally never gonna be sick of this masterpiece. I think watching it on a loop for eight hours could fix me. Dancing’s what clears my soul. Dancing’s what makes me whole.

[dimmadoome]

I just love that this very video is an accumulation of thousands of years worth of art made by people who have never met each other. The concept of this video was so completely unfathomable to every single artist who made the sculptures and yet they’ve all put something toward the creation of it.

[i-restuff]

ITS BACK ON MY TIMELINE

[paraskeinia]

Who the fuck am I

I flinch and jump at loud noises. I might cry if you yell at me. I tend to speak and/or act before I think. I barely know how I'm feeling 200% of the time. My shoulders and thighs and calves and wrists and head hurt a lot of the time. I get attached to things weird. I overthink things a lot. I either talk too much or too little with no in between. When I'm low on sleep I'm very irritable. I like "bland" food. I like spicy food. I like sweet food with ten gazillion conditions. I don't eat or drink water or sleep very well. I used to be smarter. I love creating things it makes me feel like maybe I'm going to be alright. I like validation and attention. I like making people laugh. I give up easily. I like daydreaming. I love nature. I want to learn a lot of things and get better. I want to get better. I really, really want to get better. I hate my parents a lot and like 40% of it is mostly unwarranted maybe. But there's the 60% too. I either feel too much or am way too apathetic. I've lost a lot of friends. I cuddle my pillow at night. I like cold weather. I like some kinds of physical activity. I'm not very good at most sports, though. I'm very open about almost everything i feel and think. I love music. Sometimes i need to learn how to shut up. I like touch. I like stories. I don't think anyone deserves death before one of natural causes, I also don't think anyone deserves immortality. I believe no being is either good or evil. I believe anyone can learn to change, but some just choose not to, and it's in your best interest to leave them be and focus on others and yourself. I hate generalization. I hate exclusion. I think war is completely unnecessary and I don't understand why people would ever do it. I think you can do anything you like as long as you don't interfere with other people's boundaries. I don't like labelling myself. I feel rather lonely even though i have a lot of friends. I prefer trusting my rationality over my emotions and impulses, but it's hard to do because I'm low on sleep most of the time. I don't really feel empathy but I feel a great deal of compassion. I am afraid of the state of things but I'm on the side of hope. I like tea. I don't like caffeine. I don't critically judge media and food often, I just like stuff. I'm not very dedicated or devoted to anything. Sometimes I am superstitious but I don't let it actually affect my decisions. It's quite easy to sway some of my opinions. I like friendly debates and discussions.

[paraskeinia]

I like my angst with no comfort thank you very much

[paraskeinia]

Whenever I'm getting too worried about someone's opinion of me for too long i think "Oh my god they're literally just a person/[occupation] from [place they're from] get over it"

And it's honestly surprising how quickly it puts things into perspective

It's like when in that book i was reading i don't remember the name

The main character was like this dragon tamer magician dude but every now and then the the author would call him stuff like "the college student" or "the tenant" and it completely shakes up the image of the last chapter when he was battling monsters or something

I didn't finish that book

I think my mom donated it to an orphanage or some library

[dreamycastaway]

The original pride flag and the sewing machine it was sewn on

[iwriterobots]

[paraskeinia]

[Image ID 1: a museum display of the oldest pride flag with a singer sewing machine in front of it. The plaques cannot be read from the image.]

[Image ID 2: a two panel meme where the first panel has a picture of a person emotionally saluting and the second panel has the same person screaming with pride.]

[paraskeinia]

New ocs:

Suriya, Nila and Malar

They're aromantic tamil girls and their names mean sun, moon and flower

They have a toxic threeway queerplatonic relationship based on this poem I wrote

[silly-fox-and-its-stuffies]

Love love love one day I get to live alone in finland in my own little apartment by my own terms and you'll visit when we have holidays thanks to your special flight thingies and we can make out on my couch right right right

(hope thingies)

yes!! :]

i love you :3

[paraskeinia]

I love you too

[paraskeinia]

I thought of the words "I want my Charlotte back" for a brief dust bunny of Elijah yearning before I remembered Elijah yearns for Oliver not Charlie but it's got a nice ring to it, don't you think?