American Shintoism

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I’m wylin?

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What do you think of the phrase “I’m just a girl”

I feel like disliking it is rage bait like I like those videos of Ariana grande doing the meek doe bit cause it feels like exposure therapy. I guess it fits the people who say it, like I was just thinking yesterday about what terms stick to ppl. Velcro tongue. or I love when I’ll say stuff like it’s giving clock the tea and it makes ppl mad. Tho there’s something about having to justify/reference societal roles just to buy a mega tajin pickle. Just a girl who needs to put the damn pickle down.

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I actually hate girl hood like, and side note anyone being like “inner child” it’s like hello police? 📞

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That picture? That was Walmart. It’s what I see in Walmart. I have synthesia.

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This is Struggle bus(…but it’s not a fucking abstract image that’s why it’s slow…)sometimes anything I make makes me think about how no one’s checking that we’re out of the mental hospital roaming around.

but I legit will go ape and catch a case if anyone says this to me:

Like I had someone say you need to like learn how to talk about ur work or bait ppl into trying to consider it’s not doodles I was like bitch what…why am I going to tell someone to step their pussy up

I had this person last semester be like god I hate the composition and the imagery in this one thing but it reminds me of this: and when I googled it it was like abstract ink drip Barnes and noble journal cover I was like………wow.

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I hate being invertebrate brained on SoundCloud and I listen to dumb shit showing up to the club in polyester covering my foopa type beat inflamed uterus and the body type ppl be racist about and then my recommended is like: u would love Charli xcx blade bird remix and snow strippers song but the dj is a personification of white suppremicist thought

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Me and fiancé I guess are back on but it’s more like were committed to each other in others ways like by learning how to cut wood lolz and so not by like title lol Schrödinger fiancé , we’re both in weird transitions in our life lol but actually FR event wise, and we were like it’s annoying to cling to someone during that or it makes things fragmented plus he wouldn’t leave his gf of 9 yrs LOL but then I was, ok why am I drinking the relationship koolaid like stability in this exist in a title like I already knew that I wasn’t gonna be happy if he broke up and was mine and moved to Jersey like that actually depressed me more like even if ur a lover and love being with ppl something can die in you once u enter the role or lik ya I did see something die in me and I was like I don’t want to be this way. Idk I cut through the angst cause I was like time is the only authority I respect. But ya sometimes all these wounds are like something unruly that should just bow to greater force and the angst is that the individual knows they can’t blame their partner for hurting them or like there’s a narcissism in thinking behavior is indicative of worth but they still blame relationships because we all think saying the truth of how we feel and being human is like despicable

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I got Eaten by a bunch of flies and bugs and mosquitos on the trail and at the beach like the flies liked the wounds I secretly think they like laid eggs in my skin but i don’t care

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I might go to Montreal like soon or something like

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absolutely nobody:

people who live in nyc on their instagram story every other month: does anyone have a room opening up in 2 weeks. does anyone want to sublet my room from mid july through mid august, super spacious 13 sqft $1400/month. does anyone know 3 people who would like to split this studio with me starting one week from now

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Making video art, ur a sadomasochiste, which is worse than a masochist cause even if u enjoy it u still carry the viewer’s pain or whatever is possible

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This post as an hbo show to like…free the world of millennial humor

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Me and fiancé done in my mind privately cause I feel like I’m too old to be distraught about heartbreak like my Celsius energy drink heart can’t take stress and I’m like to him as he stays here this upcoming week like: bitch I’m from Philly I’ve seen shit. Finna go back to Philly after this is schooling over or Florida to see manatees