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je vis vɾɑiment mɑ meilleuɾe vie

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            PASPEUR  [ ᴘᴀ · ᴘœʀ ]  adv. adj     ;     not  afraid.  french. 

 LUCAS LALLEMANT  ( SKAM FRANCE )      ;         a  fandom  flexible   &  crossover  friendly portrayal.               a   study   in   fear   &   shame,   sexuality   &   acceptance.    a journey of self-discovery.          independent,   low  activity,  written  by  cj  ( 28 ).           also found at  @𝗟𝗨𝗖𝗔𝗟𝗟𝗘𝗠𝗔𝗡𝗧​

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yahh, no — i'm not coming back to the tumblr rpc ( at least not unless it's to bring my oc here ). i still love this grumpy hedgehog dearly, but it's been 2 months and i still have no motivation to be here. but feel free to reach out or add me on dis.cord if you wanna stay in touch and hear me ramble about my oc lmao. if not, then take care ~

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putting this blog on a temporary hiatus until i figure out where my head is at. might be back in a few days or in a few weeks, who knows. catch me on discord cj.#4525 if you need me.

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idk where my head is these days. i love lucas dearly but... given i have full time studies + an internship in france coming up in the summer, a student job and a writing project on the sideline? idk, it just feels like a lot. — and then there's the fact that i'm considering developing an original fandomless oc so yah... idk.

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idk why im getting giddy all of a sudden but i finally mannaged to get bubble for jypnation and i bought tickets for felix, hyunjin and bangchan and i know channie is rarely active but the fact they provide this way of communicating with fans is just?? making me excited and i've had one too many glasses of wine and should really sleeps vdfjvbdfjh....

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@ofmalice “ read  my  lips :  no . ”  / from teen!min !

 god,  she’s  annoying.    he  really  did  just  put  on  his  best  behaviour  for  her,  and  this  is  all  he  gets?        lucas  gives  her  his  very  best    ‘i’m  so  fucking  done  with  you’   look  in  return.  it’s  a  scowl  more  than  anything,  but  damn!    “ the  fact  that  i’m  still  putting  up  with  you  —    i  deserve  a  medal  for  that, ”  he  grumbles,  dropping  his  text  books  on  the  table  in  front  of  them  before  taking  his  place  next  to  her.  all  he  needed  was  a  favor  at  this  moment,  someone  who  could  cover  for  him  so  he  could  skip  lass  and  do..  other,  more  important  things.  and  he  was  hoping  for  min  to  be  his  saving  grace,  but  these  days,  she’s  no  better  than  imane  really.  and  now  he’s  stuck  here,  forced  to  take  another  boring  lecture.

“  and  here  i  thought  we  were  friends,  min! ”    —    in  truth,  he’s  not  annoyed  with  her  even  though  she’s  oh  so  right  for  standing  up  to  lucas’  bullshitty,  poor  decisions.  and  lucas  knows  he’s  behind  on  his  studies,  so  -  even  though  he  begrudgingly  accepts  her  decision,  it’s  probably  for  the  better  if  he  shows  up  for  class  for  once.

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I strongly advise the people who got a bad grade to carry on and keep revising. Otherise you might be disappointed.

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also, i've made it a key point in my portrayal since day 1 that lucas is very fandom flexible and that his story can be altered in several ways even in the general skamverse setting. however, now i question whether it's ?? too flexible ?? which can come off as maybe daunting or hard to wrap around in terms of plotting / approaching ? — i need to think about this...

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kinda wanna make a carrd. kinda love the messy aesthetic of my slides too much to let it go. what to do, what to do...

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@lesoleilavole 🔪 julien

lucas  isn't  even  supposed  to  be  here.  it's  why  he  left  this  part  of  his  life  behind  to  begin  with.  and  still...  it  happens  instantaneously.  instinctively,  an  act  on  impulse  —  and  he  curses  the  whispering  echo  of  his  sworn  duty  in  life  as  he  acts. there  are  bodies  caught  in  a  vicious  dance.  some  are  stronger,  quicker  than  the  others,  but  in  the  end  they  are  all  the  same.  inhuman  beings,  creatures  moving  in  the  shadow.  lucas  knows,  by  instinct,  how  to  separate  one  from  the  other  —  the  ones  he's  bound  to  protect  by  duty,  and  the  ones  he's  bound  to  kill.  those  who  has  a  soul,  and  those  who  has  none. so  lucas  acts  instinctively.   fast.  precise.  and  with  one  swift  movement,  the  familiar  feeling  of  crimson  liquid  colors  the  tip  of  his  fingers,  the  silver  stake  in  his  hand  plunging  through  the  back  of  a  body,  puncturing  the  heart  as  it  strikes  through.  the  filthy  bloodsucker  didn't  see  him  coming,  aiming  for  a  third.  and  now  only  a  body  remains  lifeless  between  the  last  two  standing.

he  gives  the  other  a  look  over.  the  fact  he  hasn't  gone  directly  for  lucas'  throat  could  only  mean  lucas  picked  the  right  one.  he  prides  himself  on  the  knowledge that  he's  somehow  still  capable  of  telling  those  kind  apart,  which  pulls  the  corner  of  lucas'  lips  into  a  crooked  grin.   " sorry  about  that, "  he  utters  then,  twirling  the  stake  in  his  hand.  there's  hardly  a  bead  of  sweat  on  his  skin,  yet  he  feels  the  adrenaline  pulsing  through  his  body. welcomes it even.  " it  was  aiming  for  your  throat. "

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send 🔪 to encounter my muse after they've just killed someone

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lucas' love language is a hard mix of 'words of affirmation' and 'physical touch'. that's it, that's the post.

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it's weird to think how into the vampire diaries and legacies i used to be, for then to completely forget that legacies isn't running anymore. — anyhow, casual reminder that while i usually write skamverse as a default. lucas is a very flexible character to dump into any universe so like ?? never hesitate to ask if you want to write frandom related stuff :))

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it's a 'lucas needs hugs and kisses' kind of mood tonight

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i just accepted an internship in france for the summer !! also hi, today is a sick day so i didn't go to school, but i'll try to be around :')

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i'm not even embarrassed i have 3 stray kids tracks on my list. i'm more surprised super board and back door hasn't made it to to my list yet bc they're just that good. — also i saw this on my personal tumblr so i wasn't tagged and i'm not going to tag anyone, but feel free to snatch it <3

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@1efates ❛  don’t  treat  me  like  some  situation  that  needs  to  be  handled .  ❜ + eliott !! /:

"  then  talk  to  me,  eliott!  please  —  !  "    he  hates  the  way  his  voice  has  risen,  how  the  words  snaps  and  leaves  him  in  desperation  with  outflung  arms.  it's  a  conversation  that  escalates  quickly.  far  too  quickly  for  lucas'  liking.  but  that's  the  thing  —  they  can  talk  about  everything  and  nothing at all.  in  the  time  they've  been  together,  there's  been  no  secrets.  nothing  that has  been  kept  from  each  other.  (  at  least,  lucas  like  to  think  so  )  —  so  why  does  he  feel  like  he's  been  walking  on  eggshells  lately?   what  happened?  one  asks  a  question,  the  other  dismisses  it.  nothing  is  wrong  but...  still,  there's  something  buzzing  under  the  surface,  the  air  gets  thicker,  the  thread  is  pulled  to  the  point  of  snapping  apart  and...  —  maybe  it  was  only  a  matter  of  time  before  it  would  come  to  this.

"  i  know  there's something you're not telling me.  you come home late, you never tell me what you're up to anymore, i just —  "  so  what  if  lucas  sounds  desperate.  so  what  if  he  looks  at  eliott  with  eyes  that  begs  for  attention  —  a  fleeting  moment  of  desperation  before  his  jaw  clenches  tight  and  he  barely  knows  what  emotions  his  body  may  convey  anymore.  all  lucas  knows  is  that  he  can't  stand  still. (  leave?  stay? leave? stay? )  he  wants  to  run  away  from  this  moment  —  give  eliott  the  space  he  so  clearly  is  asking  for,  free  from  lucas'  worries  and  concern.  yet,  the  gnawing  desperation  and  need  for  answers  locks  him  in  his  place  (  though  he  feel  like  he's  standing  with  one  foot  out  of  their  apartment  already  )  — all he wishes is to know the truth, though his fears remains but a lingering presence, unspoken on his tongue.  ' i'm scared you don't love me anymore '.