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perhaps churches are so cool in temperature because the holy spirit is present as a cool breeze

#seriously this last week every church i've been in has been nice and cool compared to like 30°C outside #and i was thinking surely the christians must have a religious explanation #idk how to tag this i think if i tag this as christianity i'd probably get exploded 💀💀

puhjuh huh muh

phm mutual is this true

pathetique-hellhounds

opinions on project hail mary? I’ve seen so many people reccomend it but i don’t know if I want to watch/read

@alchemisticramblings I'll let you handle this one

(personally: I haven't watched it or read it but I want to so badly omg)

pathetique-hellhounds

btw how did you even know I liked phm it's not even on my blog or anything 💀💀 (except I suppose that one joke I made that my friend stole but does that even counttt)

opinions on project hail mary? I’ve seen so many people reccomend it but i don’t know if I want to watch/read

@alchemisticramblings I'll let you handle this one

(personally: I haven't watched it or read it but I want to so badly omg)

alchemisticramblings

people always ask "who will be our saving grace" but never "who is saving grace" 😢😢

(credit to my friend @pathetique-hellhounds for the joke) (this isnt plagiarism i swear i was told to post this on my account)

#can confirm i am the friend

time to pass out

#hmm maybe I should retroactively tag this #aster's recital saga #sure why the hell not

Pianist affirmations part 3:

post cancelled why are you looking up "how to bow after a performance"

loser

Edit: I am literally this close to searching "piano recital full walkthrough" bro it's not that deep also WDYM FULL WALKTHROUGH-

Edit 2:

Hmm.

#aster's recital saga

Pianist affirmations part 2:

it will be fine

I will not spontaneously forget every note of the piece

I will not forget the little speech before the piece

people will not judge me or secretly laugh at me for my performance

the fact that there are 3 other pianists means nothing to me

people will not judge me for my (lack of) facial expression or my movement as I perform

I will remember to bow and I will do it properly and I will not be judged for it

I do not actually care who comes or doesn't come to the recital

I am not allowed to be sad if no one comes because it is my own fault I did not tell them it existed

even if I told them it is still my fault for not explicitly asking them to come but rather repeating "what are you doing [time] [date]" like a broken record and not saying what the significance of this time is

my wrist does not suspiciously feel slightly Wrong for no reason haha you're making that up.

#I'm so goddamn nervous oh my god #it's not like this is even my first recital!!!! I've performed a bunch of times on this instrument at this school already!!!!! what's my #problem!!!!!!! it doesn't even matter that it's technically a mockkkk it doesn't matter that the proper real musicians in the year above #are there and watching and it *especially* doesn't matter that two of them are pianistsssss #and most critically it definitely doesn't matter that I'm the last person playing. after all the year above and all of my year. of the 9 of #us I will perform last and I will be the last performance the audience hears tomorrow night. that literally means nothing to me at all haha #ah whatever it'll be fineee #aster's recital saga

Pianist affirmations:

I have played and can play this difficult piece

just because it is not going well now does not negate that it has been going well for weeks prior to this

continually practicing and noticing it is falling apart more is probably a sign to stop instead of forcing it further

it is ok to stop playing and come back to it the next day if nothing is going right

if it is late at night stopping practicing is a good idea

the neighbours listening (if they even are) will not think you're pathetic for rage quitting

#/unserious this is a joke #this is stupid will probably delete #rambles i might delete #haha what recital in like 3 days?? that doesn't exist trusttt #yes it's mendelssohn rondo capriccioso did you listen to it yet?? after I asked in the previous post??? no???? shame.#aster's recital saga

did.. did somebody say.. chamber music?

DID SOMEONE SAY... CHAMBER MUSIC—

#RAHHH I WANT TO PLAY CHAMBER MUSIC SO BADDD #ahhhhh i need it i need my “the music of friends” fjdjfkdhdjf #someone form a string quartet or a piano trio or something with meeeee 🥀🥀🥀🥀🥀#what a level music does to a mf:

hello aspecs of tumblr i have a strange question

for valentines day, should i turn my oc aroace?

he was already ace before (demiace) but now im debating if i should make him aro as well, a friend already said "he wasnt already aroace??" when i suggested it

but he already has a bf and i wanna keep that canon and i worry it just plays into the "bUt ArOaCe PeOpLe CaN sTiLl DaTe" thing...

idk lmao this is a silly post ill take it down later

#rambles i might delete #asexual #aromantic #aroace

uhh— uhhhh- THROWS SOUP AT YOU AND RUNS AWAY🫸🍜🏃‍♀️‍➡️🏃‍♀️‍➡️

Really? That's the best you could think of to torment my inbox, as you so frequently threaten to do? Really??