semi-pro heartbreaker

read “noah’s nameless wife takes inventory” by c.t. salazar.

[ambiguityenjoyer]

IDK WHAT I WANT OR WHO I WANNA BE !!!

[bedlund]

(guy who has forgotten the words "vying for attention") gay directors are running a train on connor storrie

[theheartofdecember]

Www.sexisntreal.com

[shaneybby]

HOLLANDER V ROSANOV FACE OFF

spreading the mma au agenda

[ambiguityenjoyer]

Idk if I would even say a net positive on the legacy I just find the image of those guys on their bikes doing flips in front of the White House to be. Mesmerizing. What a layered and critically rich text. Much to hate about it. Sad to not be able to enjoy motocross on the White House lawn, but maybe it’s the vileness of it all that makes it….what it is.

[zoesupreme]

people are shitting on this and making idiocracy comparisons bc they don't like this president. I'm sorry but this rules. I don't like him either he's a senile pedophile rapist who should be dragged into the street and beaten to death I've said this many times. motocross and UFC in front of the white house is a rare positive on his legacy I'm sorry.

[ambiguityenjoyer]

I’m so shit at napping

[ambiguityenjoyer]

So according to a Francois account, he spilled the beans about S2 & S3 filming back to bak this year. I wonder what the release schedule will look like. I like that it will give Rachel time to finish unrivaled and then time for scripts to be written if they do end up doing a 4th season.

Insane that this makes me sad. They should get to do heated rivalry summer camp this summer…and next summer…and then by then unrivaled will have had time to cook so they can go for another summer as well….cruel cruel speed at which Tierney works altho perhaps it’s for the best since he runs an ethical workplace…

[lesbianprophecy]

what the fuck was that

[clytemnestraaa]

wait ok also what i was trying to say and not really managing to convey is that ilya is a hedonist but not like, as a philosophy. he’s just stuck chasing anything that feels good. he is the definition of instant gratification, because he doesn’t think the future is real. so re: tuna melt, he wants shane to stick around because it feels good for him to be around shane. shane is not substantially experientially different than a fast car or a line of coke.

and then he also has a pretty appallingly low distress tolerance also common in PTSD where once it isn’t fun, he can’t fucking handle it, like when shane gets bonked on the head and ilya is like oh my god i need to break up with him. he just exists in a pretty triggered activated animal state where he moves toward reward and moves away from pain, like he is fairly fight or flight at all times. which is kind of what i mean by having a lack of a view of a future, he exists only in the present moment (which is actually the past moment that he got stuck in).

[connorstorriegifs]

Connor Storrie | Instagram | 2024

[disorientation]

Having a "stupider people have done this" attitude about the things you want to do can open so many doors

[innerchildabortionclinic]

haven't seen anyone say it yet so I will: a lot of what's portrayed as "girlhood" on social media is actually just having parents with money. and people act as if being raised like that is a girl experience. i've never had my dads credit card I don't even know where that guy is rn

[smokey-ilya]

in case anyone wanted this as much as i did... here's part of their first sex scene without the background music 🥹

[ambiguityenjoyer]

Finals today perfect way to run school tbh. Two classes….luxurious amount of time to do the important things well PLUS time to dick around outside….and then I had time to grade (not that I gave literally anyone a bad score hahah). Now debating do I stay home and putter around (I hate puttering) or do I go to coffee shop and drink matcha and noodle around writing. Head hurts. Went to cafe yesterday. Trying to live life to fullest. Hm.

[avantgarden-er]

i had a dream recently in which connor (gay) and hayley williams were each other's dates for an event and connor was wearing a shirt/blazer w a super super deep v like the met gala afterparty look and she kept sneaking her hand under his shirt by way of the deep v and i woke up trembling with rage #whatdatmean

connor (gay) is killing Me but it does mean you want his cookie and i am here for you as a connor cookie wanter

[clytemnestraaa]

what does burnout on the sex front look like for ilya and shane? like i love playing in the sandbox of romance novels where couples just fuck everyday for the next fifty years of marriage but also… cmon

mmmm probably ilya having a bad time and shane also having a bad time at the same time because their bad times kind of contradict. in that i think super depressed ilya is not really capable of crazy sex and super anxious shane really needs crazy sex. like their needs conflict in that situation and it’s not like anybody is wrong but also they’re gonna feed each others spirals where shane is going to get more and more neurotic and stressed and ilya is going to feel more and more like a failure.

i think there’s also potential for ilya getting really angry and getting mean and violent and shane loves that the sex is rough but then ilya afterwards is like absolutely spiraling and shane is like ok but i like it when you’re rough? and ilya is like but I DON’T LIKE IT, I AM A MONSTER, like i think ilya is capable of really scaring himself because he’s so worried he’s a cruel violent sadistic abusive person and the problem is that he is not entirely wrong, that element does exist within him, and he has no idea how to handle it other than despair and guilt and panic. like if shane asked ilya to hit him during sex, and ilya didn’t like it but did it anyways, ilya would be okay with that. but if ilya did like it and had to stop himself from hitting shane harder, he would be freaking the fuck out.

idk this is a tangent but i do think it’s interesting how shane is such a tightly controlled person and so exacting except in his romantic and sexual life where he’s like full wind in his hair ride lana del rey music video embracing his goddess, and then ilya is such an outwardly hedonistic person except when it comes to interpersonal relationships where he seems to view himself as something that needs to be bridled and handled, something to be corralled and controlled so that his inherent badness can’t hurt anyone.