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IDK WHAT I WANT OR WHO I WANNA BE !!!

#never enough time for what I want to do #i need a personal tag

blushiscool

Grape Earrings at Yuhan Wang’s MA Central Saint Martins graduate collection

russianblush

release the tapes jacob

#hudcon #I would weep

thisfeebleheart

patient needs neck kisses to survive

#Connor...#hudcon

I have so many questions about the aerial portion of that interview. Was that already scheduled and he thought "obviously I'm not going to cancel" and just brought the interviewer along? Is this something he does regularly, has done for a long time, or is this just a fun "mom on a zumba kick" kind of thing? Is this something he did as a beginning step to diversify his clowning? Like, acting doesn't work out so he wants to have the LA clowning to circus clown/acrobat pipeline open? Did he specifically schedule it for the interview? Was the interviewer literally just sitting there the whole time watching him be folded like a pretzel in silks? Or did the interviewer just come at the tail end of the class? Was this to help show off being a former gymnast and he figured taking an interviewer to an actual tumbling class would be too much? Or was it simply Connor really wanting to hammer home the fact that he's hot, strong, AND flexible? Or did he not come up with the idea at all and the magazine was like "do you know what would be fun???" with the interview internally thinking "please god say yes"?

I just have so many questions about how everyone arrived at Connor Storrie doing a banana roll while being interviewed by Vulture

mom on a zumba kick.... and its not clear if this is a private lesson or if there are other people also there (though maybe I missed that part). this is really excellent scholarship and I wish we had a way to source the answers to these questions. also. did he get to take any silks classes while he was in Atlanta, or was it 100% grind all day every day?

#connor storrie

Sometimes I think back to that interviewer watching Connor do aerial silks and have to remind myself that it’s real and not fanfiction.

I now understand what this ask is about. CONNOR I WANNA SEE THE SILKS SKILLS BUD

#connor storrie #you're not trying to hurt the silk....im trying to hurt the silk....

him and bailey "never fight" so thats his expectation for other soulmates, so the first time he and hudson have something approaching a fight, he freaks out and goes extra ghost and bailey can't help him out here bc she doesn't do fights with him either so this is brand new territory for both of them. but he is fond of hudson's contrarian nature....

yes. like actually I think he gets a lot of practice being in conflict with people because Hudson seems the type to enjoy argument and being contrary as a sport. he's a little bro-y in that way.... and this is good because you can practice being in disagreement with someone and not have it shake the foundations of your relationship.... he of course does not transfer these skills over to his relationship with Francois, but I think his pattern of just running away, shutting it down, not talking about it, super frustrating, and Hudson is willing to placate more than Francois would be hahahaha like Hudson is maybe willing to grovel a little to get him back. I think Connor scared himself with the brand break up, and then scared himself again in Italy (where I imagine he was seething w jealousy over Katelyn, which is new bc he didnt feel jealous before when he visited Vancouver??), and so he'd been trying to make up for it and figure it out but thennnnnnnnn Hudson won that award and he couldn't go and he got so wrapped up in jealousy he stopped replying to anything and now he can't figure out how to suck up his pride and be like hi sorry for not being there for your big day etc etc etc.

#lonely in la

angelmaking

the fact that people do fandom on threads scares me like I’m not even talking about rpf I saw a fic on ao3 talking about how they got the concept from threads and it felt like a jumpscare it’s like when ao3 went mainstream w the general audience viewers like it’s like tumblr is one of the last bastions of insulated fans (at least comparatively)

I do like that ao3 is so...bare bones. its an archive, truly, and not at all a social media site, and the fact that you need like, basic knowledge of any html to post your fic and format it correctly, like an expensive new website full of ads or stealing your data built today would have every step of the fic posting process be so sleek and easy and a03 IS easy and simple but it's simple in an old internet way that I find charming and wouldn't change for the world. I think it might be really good for fandom people on threads or twitter or ig to jump over to ao3, where things are a little more raw. I wouldn't say that Tumblr or ao3 are by any means perfect fandom platforms either BUT isn't it fun to be a bug under a damp rock, instead of scuttling about in the sun?

#heated rivalry

OBSESSED with the idea of a dramatic concois lobster breakup…

so when mr "if I don't say we have issues then we don't have issues except I won't be saying when I do have an issue because then that would mean we have an issue" meets mr "I'm a grown adult and I'll be sharing when I have an issue because I'd like to figure out a way to continue to have a relationship and its not me vs you its us vs the issue," guess who is the one to lose their mother fucking mind. Connor's like okay so you hate me and think im a horrible person. and franois is like no I like you a lot but if this is how you're going to react when I voice a relatively low stakes point of conflict then idk what you want me to do....to which Connor is like bet so I was right you do hate me and we should just break up now. and the lobster is like im a lobster.

#lonely in la

Do we think the only reason Connor and Bailey have never (in her words) ever had a fight is because Connor is avoidant as hell?

yes. when he's hurt he leaves with a cutting one liner, ghosts for a while, and then once he's cooled off returns as if nothing happened. Bailey does this also so they both think this is a normal way of managing conflict. a real "if I don't say it we don't have an issue" sort of thing, except neither of them say anything so neither is allowed to have an issue....

#lonely in la

No wonder Connor was upset about bleeding on his jeans from crying so hard. Not only were they his favorite pair, but he seems to only own 5 pieces of clothing (I say this fondly).

what I've decided has happened is that sometime between the end of heated rivalry filming and now, perhaps over the summer or like, mid November, Connor went through and made himself a cute little capsule wardrobe, did the whole sudoko packing method where he got himself down to seven outfits built from nine different items of clothing, put the rest of his clothes in few tidy boxes, you know freshly washed neatly folded little moth baggie in each one, and then promptly lost them all (in transit? did his mom donate them? who can say) and then heated rivalry happened and he hasn't had the wherewithal to re-do his casual wardrobe....

#connor storrie #sorry bud #I like the idea that he is trying to make his life tidy and organized and it backfires instantly