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Slipknot - Before I Forget

Go! Stapled shut, inside an outside world and I'm Sealed in tight, bizarre but right at home Claustrophobic, closing in and I'm Catastrophic, not again I'm smeared across the page, and doused in gasoline I wear you like a stain, yet I'm the one who's obscene Catch me up on all your sordid little insurrections, I've got no time to lose, and I'm just caught up in all the cattle Fray the strings Throw the shapes Hold your breath Listen! I am a world before I am a man I was a creature before I could stand I will remember before I forget BEFORE I FORGET THAT! I am a world before I am a man I was a creature before I could stand I will remember before I forget BEFORE I FORGET THAT! I'm ripped across the ditch, and settled in the dirt and I'm I wear you like a stitch, yet I'm the one who's hurt Pay attention to your twisted little indiscretions I've got no right to win, I'm just caught up in all the battles Locked in clutch Pushed in place Hold your breath Listen! I am a world before I am a man I was a creature before I could stand I will remember before I forget BEFORE I FORGET THAT! I am a world before I am a man I was a creature before I could stand I will remember before I forget BEFORE I FORGET THAT! My end It justifies my means All I ever do is delay My every attempt to evade The end of the road and my end It justifies my means All I ever do is delay My every attempt to evade THE END OF THE ROAD! I am a world before I am a man I was a creature before I could stand I will remember before I forget BEFORE I FORGET THAT! I am a world before I am a man I was a creature before I could stand I will remember before I forget BEFORE I FORGET THAT! I am a world before I am a man I was a creature before I could stand I will remember before I forget BEFORE I FORGET THAT!

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Slipknot - All Out Life

What a world, the horizon's Coming like a hell-bent killing machine Can't afford to be the goddamn wreckage Burn it all again at a million degrees Calling all the adamant upper-level Undefeated counterfeit cunts with a reason to fear Throw away all the meaningless shit that's clinging The enemy is here, I said stop Give it to three I'm gonna show you how to do it if you know what I mean One by one against, give me the name All you shiny pretty never-wills ruined the game You hold all the keys, so the chains shouldn't hold you I know you heard me, I fucking told you Old does not mean dead, new does not mean best No hard feelings, I'm tired of being right about everything I've said Yours does not mean mine, kill does not mean die We are not your kind No excuses, I challenge you to all out fucking life Drop that shit and put it on a pedestal Children are afraid of the gods Raise your hands and show me what's impossible That makes us even, never tell me the odds What a bore, I'm getting stuck in a metaphor I don't wanna go to sleep I need a breakdown quick in negotiations Get it all together and remember to seethe, stop Give it to three I'm gonna show you how to do it if you know what I mean Drive by violence, more of the same I can see where you're going, and I'm really ashamed Do you think when you act or just act like you're thinking? I gotta know now, you better tell me Old does not mean dead, new does not mean best No hard feelings, I'm tired of being right about everything I've said Yours does not mean mine, kill does not mean die We are not your kind I challenge you to all out life We are gathered here today to get it right Repeat after me: "I will not celebrate mediocrity I will not worship empty shells I will not listen to worthless noises I will not subject myself to selected predictable choices My time, my attention My quality should not be bought and sold For convenience's sake, ever" We are not your kind We are not your kind We are not your kind We are not your kind We are not your kind We are not your kind We are not your kind We are not your kind Old does not mean dead, new does not mean best No hard feelings, I'm tired of being right about everything I've said Yours does not mean mine, kill does not mean die Pay attention, it's gonna be a while 'til I really feel alright Old does not mean dead, new does not mean best No hard feelings, I'm tired of being right about everything I've said Yours does not mean mine, kill does not mean die We are not your kind No excuses, I challenge you to all out fucking life All out life, yeah I challenge you to all out fucking life, yeah Live, live, live, life

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Trivium - Scattering The Ashes

Your face betrays your words And those words gave way to hurt The ground between us grows Like wounds that never show But the distance couldn't mend Cause the time ran out instead The ground between us grows Like wounds that never show Of father and son Two lives now come undone Of father and son Too late, now all is gone So tonight I'm scattering the ashes I'm scattering the ashes Your face reveals your pain Seconds lost, I take the blame The cold light cuts the night Your ashes come to life What's left is in my hands Will I ever understand The cold light cuts the night Your ashes come to life Of father and son Two lives now come undone Of father and son Too late, now all is gone So tonight I'm scattering the ashes I'm scattering the ashes What's lost We'll never know What's lost We'll never know Of father and son Two lives now come undone Of father and son Too late, now all is gone So tonight I'm scattering the ashes I'm scattering the ashes I'm scattering the ashes I'm scattering the ashes

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Slipknot - Solway Firth

Today, up on this hill, I'm counting all the killers They sway as they swarm, a look of gluttons in their eyes They mutter as the body loses warmth They pick your bones like locks inside a tomb And take great care to not take care of you Here's an unexplainable one Here's an unexplainable one While I was learning to live, we all were living a lie I guess you got what you wanted So I will settle for a slaughterhouse soaked in blood and betrayal It's always somebody else, somebody else was me You want the real smile? Or the one I used to practice not to feel like a failure? I don't need you to do it for me I don't need you to understand I don't need you to hide it from me I just want to feel like any other man I won't show you the whole story I won't show you the aftermath I won't show you my allegory Don't look away Here's an unexplainable one Here's an unexplainable one Here's an unexplainable one I'm not ahead of my time, I just drew the first breath If I'm alive tomorrow I will alleviate the pressure by cutting you out of me I found my bottom line dead on the front lines I know I'll never go home So set fire to your ships and past regrets and be free I don't need you to do it for me I don't need you to understand I don't need you to hide it from me I just want to feel like any other man I won't show you my whole story I won't show you the aftermath I won't show you my allegory Don't look away Here's an unexplainable one What have you done? What have you done? Yeah Oh, while I was learning to live, you taught me how to die I guess I got what I wanted Another needle in the back through purified scarification It wasn't somebody else, you fucking did it to me You want a real smile? I haven't smiled in years

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Trivium - What The Dead Men Say

I'm calling out to you, can you hear me? Numb and disconnected, just beyond your sight I'm not myself anymore But I'm not alone I'm not alone I'm not alone What the dead men say It's just between us What the dead men say You can't let go What the dead men say It's just between us What the dead men say You can't let go I'm holding onto you, do you feel me? Trapped but unaffected, like a memory I'm waiting for a sign of life And I can't let go I can't let go I can't let go What the dead men say It's just between us What the dead men say You can't let go What the dead men say It's just between us What the dead men say You can't let go Is this the light or a distant mirror You've kept me for yourself, that much is clear What the dead men say It's just between us What the dead men say You can't let go What the dead men say It's just between us What the dead men say You can't let go What the dead men say What the dead men say You can't let go What the dead men say It's just between us What the dead men say You can't let go

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Slipknot - Birth Of The Cruel

(Let him crave understanding Let him crave your wisdom Let him crave Let him... promote Father... my self-control) I'm just a Judas, looking for a silver line And tomorrow is still a step behind Hey hey drama, I'd love to be a waste of your time Oh no, thanks so much for wasting mine So hear me out Let's hear it for the damaged Who understands but the broken? Developed in the arms of spite I'm all fucked up and I make it look good Adrenalin sight tonight I'm overthrown I'm over your throne I'm over it Sick, sickened, I'm sickening, I'm stricken by the fist Blessed are the fires that have burned me Listen to this, the lesson is, never underestimate the agony Death of the fool, birth of the cruel Remember how you spent the best part of forever in a state of pure disease It was another thing altogether to forget that you brought out the worst in me Hey Karma, you don't feel like I do You just wish you'd hate like I do We are the Bitter, the maladjusted and wise Fighting off a generation too uptight We're all dressed up with nobody to kill The rhetoric stops tonight I'm overthrown I'm over your throne I'm over it Sick, sickened, I'm sickening, I'm stricken by the fist Blessed are the fires that have burned me Listen to this, the lesson is, never underestimate the agony Death of the fool, birth of the... Birth of the cruel! Yeah! Now's not the time for denying Shifting the focus to scare Let's not forget we're all guilty All three dimensions polluted by earnest despair I'm overthrown I'm over your throne I'm overthrown I'm over your throne I'm over it (Let him crave understanding Let him crave your wisdom Let him crave Let him... promote Father... my self-control That he can see and look at the enemy in front of him And just goes, "Not today, sucker Go back to Hell where you belong!")

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Trivium - The Ones We Leave Behind

If you could breakdown and put yourself together Then would all the pieces ever fit the same If you could see all the ways we're tied together Would you pull apart the ugliness and shame Gods walk amongst all Without fear Without tears On a higher plane than anyone of us Gods walk amongst all Without fear Without tears Tell me now, which side do you fall Distraught faces Vacant homes displace them All the time The ones we leave behind (The ones we leave behind) No hope, no help Excuses replace guilt Patronize The ones we leave behind The ones we leave behind If we could break through the structures built between us Then would all the fault lines simply disappear If we could fight back (fight back!) and bring ourselves together Then our sacrifices will not be in vain (will not be in vain!) Gods walk amongst all Without fear Without tears On a higher plane than anyone of us Gods walk amongst all Without fear Without tears Tell me now, which side do you fall Distraught faces Vacant homes displace them All the time The ones we leave behind (The ones we leave behind) No hope, no help Excuses replace guilt Patronize The ones we leave behind The ones we leave behind If you could breakdown (down!) and put yourself together Then would all the pieces ever fit the same Distraught faces Vacant homes displace them All the time The ones we leave behind (Gods walk amongst all) (The ones we leave behind) No hope, no help Excuses replace guilt Patronize The ones we leave behind The ones we leave behind

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Slipknot - Unsainted

Oh, I'll never kill myself to save my soul I was gone, but how was I to know? I didn't come this far to sink so low I'm finally holding on to letting go (I'll never kill myself to save my soul) I'm finally holding on to letting go (I didn't come this far to sink so low) I'm finally holding on to letting go I'm just weathering a rough patch Another villain with an itch to scratch Denial is the darkest when you live in a hole Why does the hell make you feel so cold? Make a move and you pay for it Pick a lord and you pray to it You're so demanding when you want the truth But your stories don't read for me Oh, I'll never kill myself to save my soul I was gone, but how was I to know? I didn't come this far to sink so low I'm finally holding on to letting go Indecision overload Keep a buckle on the devil and your eyes on the road Reaching out for the hand of God But did you think you'd shake your own? This killing field is all grown over The motherfucker wants it wild Go sow your oats in alphabetical order The anti-antagonist is back in style Myopic, cannot see straight Dystopic, one sin too late You gotta lie if you wanna believe But your bibles don't work on me Oh, I'll never kill myself to save my soul I was gone, but how was I to know? I didn't come this far to sink so low I'm finally holding on to letting go Did you think you could win? And fill me in? Did you think you could do it again? I'm not your sin I was all that you wanted and more, but you didn't want me I was more than you thought I could be So I'm setting you free, I'm setting you free You've killed the saint in me How dare you martyr me? You've killed the saint in me Oh, I'll never kill myself to save my soul I was gone, but how was I to know? I didn't come this far to sink so low I'm finally holding on to letting go You've killed the saint in me How dare you martyr me? You've killed the saint in me How dare you martyr me?

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Sueños

- Conocer Buenos Aires y asistir a un partido de River Plate en el Monumental.

- Aprender a cocinar, pero bien. Mi experiencia haciendo pollo o carne frita, abrir una ensalada lista y agregar champiñones, choclitos, tortillas de maiz en trocitos, frijoles enlatados mas especias y aderezos a mi gusto no cuenta.

- Comprarme una cámara profesional y tomar el bendito curso de fotografia.

- Dejar de estar soltero y vivir una relación bonita.

- Conocer Liverpool y asistir a un partido en Anfield.

- Conocer Des Moines, Iowa y visitar la tumba de Paul Gray.

- Vivir un concierto de Slipknot en el Madison Square Garden. Esto debía ocurrir en un par de semanas. Gracias porongavirus.

- Terminar de tatuarme todo un brazo. Aun no decido cual.

- Conocer Milan y asistir a un partido del Inter en el Giuseppe Meazza.

- Asistir a un Mundial. No me importa si me toca ir a un Costa Rica - Arabia Saudita, por ejemplo.

- Conocer a Lionel Messi.

- Hospedarme y conocer Luna Runtun y Cerro Lobo.

- Volver a correr y de una vez por todas completar una maratón.

- Conocer Galápagos.

- Asistir a un partido de la NBA.

- Retomar las clases de bateria o aprender a tocar guitarra.

- Tener mi propia suite en el Monumental.

- Alcanzar a comprarme un Volkswagen Beetle antes que lo descontinuen.

- Conocer Hawaii.

Espero sobrevivir esta pandemia y poder ir convirtiendo la mayor cantidad de puntos en realidad. Si eso sucede, seguramente tendré algunos más y espero seguirlos alcanzando. Al final, cuando esté a punto de partir, los recuerdos me ayudaran mucho a despedirme sintiendo que aproveché mi tiempo por aca. En definitiva, eso es lo que importa.

- Paul

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Slipknot Unmasked: All Out Life

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Promo 2007 Campeón 2019: Final

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Fénix

Seguimos en cuarentena, no se avizora una solución real en el horizonte y cada dia que pasa es una oportunidad de sentirse agradecido de seguir aquí con vida, salud (de momento) y el amor de familia. Tambien, cada dia es una batalla con el espejo, ya que al tener tanto tiempo disponible y a veces con ayuda del bendito insomnio, el replanteo de tantos temas pendientes se vuelve un proceso muy denso pero obligatorio para quienes formamos parte del grupo de personas que nos gusta analizar todo al detalle, darle la vuelta, pensar qué pudimos haber hecho diferente, y todo el proceso de siempre. Tan complejo como necesario.

- Por qué siempre deje para después el hecho de comprarme un play?

- Por qué seguí con la indiferencia de tener una relación seria y ser feliz nuevamente?

- Por qué aun no tengo un mini-me corriendo por la casa, ayudandome a ser el papá que siempre he soñado ser y a olvidar la complicada realidad?

- Por qué aun no tengo mi departamento y mi pug?

- Por qué me aleje por mucho tiempo de mi familia y en definitiva de mi mismo?

- Por qué aun a pesar de los años me sigue costando dar el primer paso y decir lo que siento?

La lista de las últimas madrugadas es mucho más larga y mucho más pesada. Sin embargo, situaciones así siempre han servido para mejorar: un remezón como este seguro ayudará a muchos a replantearse muchos objetivos, prioridades, enfoques, planes a futuro y demás, aunque de corazón creo que ya fue suficiente. 

Seguro también habrán muchos que, una vez que podamos retomar nuestras actividades diarias, volverán a ser los mismos, sin haberse tomado la molestia de corregir algunos de sus defectos y seguirán tan campantes. Pero somos muchos que desde ya estamos cambiando, buscando mejorar a pesar de la situación para volver en version edicion especial. Faltan muchas madrugadas iguales y algunas con más cuestionamientos, pero esto siempre será algo positivo para quien desde ya decida trabajar en ello. Toca volver a aprender como amar las noches largas. Si vienen acompañadas de lluvia serán eternas pero muy productivas.

Si su intención ha sido que vuelva a soñar en vivir un amor cariñoso y dedicado, lo ha logrado. Si su intención ha sido que deje de guardarme lo que siento, pues seguiré escribiendo. Si su intención era que despertara de una buena vez, no se cómo, pero he vuelto. Lamento la demora. Tengo unas cuantas canas de más.

- Paul

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Slipknot: Live At Download 2019

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Pandemia

Que extraño todo. Encontrarse con este tipo de tesoros durante una situacion tan dura como la actual debe tener un significado. Quizas es una manera de volver al pasado y ver cuanto he logrado, o quizas es una manera de darme cuenta que lo conseguido hasta ahora sigue siendo insignificante. Siempre he sido de pensar mucho las cosas, intentando tener todo bajo control desde 1989, sin exito.

Leyendo algunos posts olvidados por aca, he logrado sonreir un poco: Definitivamente una cuenta pendiente sigue siendo madurar emocionalmente. Podria resumir que han pasado 7 años por este lugar y este pequeño loco sigue siendo un rebelde sin causa a pesar de los golpes (y que golpes) que ha recibido a lo largo de estos años. Aunque bueno, rebelde sin causa suena bonito simplemente por completar la frase, ya que ahora sinceramente creo tener razones suficientes: mi tranquilidad, mi familia, nuestra felicidad. 

Seguramente es la situacion mas agobiante que hemos vivido y me siento feliz por la manera que nos hemos manejado, con altos y bajos claro esta. Me genera una gran satisfaccion demostrar que estoy aqui para mover cielo y tierra por ellos, a pesar que mi presencia durante los ultimos años ha hecho falta. Al momento, a pesar de tremendos sustos, creo tener un balance positivo en las semanas que llevamos de cuarentena: He logrado conocerme mas, he logrado aceptarme mas, comprender que los errores son parte de la vida, que no puedo seguir siendo mi mas grande critico cuando esa fila siempre estara llena, y que por mas buen corazon que tenga una persona, no todos lo cuidan para mantenerlo asi.

He decidido volver y no guardarme nada. Hoy mas que nunca queda claro que la vida es un instante y seria una pena no vivirla asi. A quienes prefirieron seguir su camino, que la vida los llene de sorpresas muy bonitas. A quienes a pesar del momento brillaron por su ausencia, gracias por ayudarme a sacar fuerzas que no tenia idea aun conservaba. Y a quienes se mantienen firmes aqui, mi mas profundo agradecimiento y las disculpas del caso por comerme tantas tildes. Desde pequeño le han puesto tilde a mi nombre y por eso no me gustan.

- Paul

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La Vida

Lo de hoy es corto. Tan corto como la vida que ha pasado, pasa y seguira pasando a una velocidad que realmente asusta. Hasta hace tan poco tiempo, quizas los últimos 5 a 10 años, quedarme solo en casa era una razón para estar feliz y sentirme libre. Como cambian las épocas cuando hoy no me siento feliz de quedarme solo un fin de semana. Pero muy a pesar que me cause mucho miedo como pasa la vida tan rapido y como se hace notar en miles de detalles, a su vez es lindo darse cuenta como algo o alguien puede ser diferente a pesar de ser lo mismo, con el paso de los años. E incluso las raras excepciones, de personas, cosas o situaciones que a pesar del paso de los años, se mantienen como si nunca hubiera pasado nada. Solo queda analizar seriamente lo vivido hasta ahora, lo que actualmente estoy viviendo, y lo que quiero vivir mas adelante, siempre con el permiso del ser supremo, ya que todos tenemos predeterminado el tiempo que durara este viaje. Como dice un buen amigo, recordar es vivir dos veces. Pues a vivir dos veces y disfrutar los recuerdos. A vivir el presente con la prioridad de disfrutarlo, y a planear el futuro de tal manera que lo disfrutemos segundo a segundo, cada dia como si fuera el ultimo.