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Isak really liked that Paxton was being so honest, isak wasnt sure he would be able to himself if it was the other way around. It made Isak feel important and loved hearing how Paxton wanted more time and how he was jealous of someone else getting the time and not him. it was cute now that he understood what was really going on here. He hadnt realized how much time out of his freetime he had been pending with his new friend and how much time he was missing with Paxton because of it. “ i really didnt” He told his boyfriend. “ im really glad you did say something baby, I never want you to feel like you are second to me, because you are not, you are my number one, always. I want to be with you as much as we can and i just lost track honestly.” he admitted. feeling PAxtons hands move to his waist made isak smile, he loved how he always did that. “ its okay baby, i understand, you were frustrated, it happens” isak told him looking in his eyes with so much understanding and love. “ your only human, your allowed to snap at times and let out your feelings, as long as you promise you will never go to bed mad at me and i always get at least a make up kiss” Isak stated.

Paxton didn’t want to come across like he was bossing his boyfriend about. The brunette adored Isak and wanted to be open and honest with him. Paxton looked at the other and bit down on his bottom lip once the other mentioned that he wanted him to be honest and open up about it.  “I didn’t want to think you were cheating,” he confessed. “I just felt like I was second to you, and I don’t want to feel like that. You mean a lot to me, and I don’t want to lose you to anyone.”  Paxton brought his hand to Isak’s hair and gently played with it gently.  He stepped forward and pressed his lips against Isaks. “That’s why I wanted to talk to you about it. I was hurting. I didn’t want us arguing with one another.”

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Isak looked at his boyfriend as he spoke. Isak knew that they were a lot different in many ways, but he never meant to make Paxton feel like the bad guy. He never meant to make Paxton feel bad or feel like he was anywhere but in 1st place to Isak. Listening to him made Isak realize that maybe he had been spending less time with Paxton and more with the boys, the new guy in particular and that wasnt fair. Isak didnt mean to, it had just happened and he hadnt notices. Paxton did have a fair point there. “ i´m sorry, i didnt mean to make it sound like that, i was just trying to explain how i saw it” Isak explained calmly. It stung hearing Paxton say he felt like he was loosing Isak. That really broke his heart. Isak had never meant to make Paxton feel that way. He had gotten too comfortable with Paxton, things had started feeling a lot normal as time went on, the relationship wasnt so new and exciting like in the beginning, it didnt mean Isak loved him any less but he had to admit, he could see where paxton was coming from, isak wasnt prioritizing Paxton like he used to. How had he not seen it? Isak took a couple of steps to get close to his boyfriend, he tangled his fingers in his hair and kissed his lips ever so softly “ i´m sorry. I really am, i didnt realize i was making you feel like that. I didnt realize i was spending so much of our time with him. I really am sorry” He said and kissed him again. “ but just so its clear, you are not loosing me, Ever. in order for you to loose me, your going to have to break up with me first and well, no thats not happening.” Isak stated and stroked his cheek “ i´m all yours okay? forever and ever”

Paxton hated that he was getting emotional but he wanted to be open and honest with Isak - even if it made him seem like he was trying to cause trouble. He was getting annoyed that he was barely getting to see his boyfriend, and it was only natural for a partner to want to see their boyfriend. He tilted his head up as he watched Isak walk towards him and chewed on his bottom lip as Isak tangled his fingers through his hair, and kissed him gently on the lips. “I don’t even think it’s intentional. I think you didn’t realize it was happening, but I guess I felt like I had to say something.” He confessed. His hands moved to Isak’s waist, holding him close now the two of them had cleared the air with one another. He smiled softly at the other’s comment, chuckling. He lent into his boyfriend’s touch and nodded his head. “I’m sorry for shouting at you like I did. I didn’t mean to have a go. It had been playing on my mind and I kind of snapped at you...” he frowned.

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Isak was having a tough time understanding what Paxton was feeling cause Isak was so in love with the young man that he did not have eyes for any other guys. Sure he hung out with a lot of them, but saw nothing more than friends that happened to be boys but might as well be girls in that sense. “ i know you do Paxton, i know are working hard for us and i appreciate it a lot baby. I get that you have to do things and that wasnt my point. Im just saying, School for me is like work for you, its not like im picking going to school and seeing him there over hanging out with you. same goes with handball, that is my work, thats how i earn money and it happens to be something i really enjoy and it just so happens that hes there too “ he sighed, he didnt get the big deal and it was making him a little frustrated.  “ Smile? be happy that im happyy? I dont know, honestly, im pretty much always smiling so i dont get how smiling around him is different than around harry or Edward or any of the other boys. Paxton, he is just a friend, i dont have eyes for anyone but you. You can make as many friends as you want, girl or boys. Im just happy you are happy. As long as there is no romance involved its just good to have friends.” He said biting his lip.

Paxton didn’t mean to come across as possessive but the truth of the matter was that he was possessive of Isak. The two had been dating a little while now, and he felt like Isak was slowly slipping through his fingers and he was letting it happen. If Paxton didn’t show he was upset about the fact that he thought he was losing Isak, that’s when it would look like he didn’t care about his boyfriend. He was fighting for him. He was fighting for them. Paxton put his hand up and pursed his lips. “Don’t it make it look like I’m overreacting Isak. I hate when you do that.” Isak was soft spoken, that’s the type of person he was. Paxton could lose his rag if he was in a mood and that’s when he started looking like the bad guy. Paxton run his fingers through his long hair pushing it away from his face. “I feel like I’m losing you, and your dismissing my feelings about the whole thing. Why can’t you take a minute to see things from my perspective. I’m barely getting to see you after work, and when I do have time your with him. How am I supposed to feel?”

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“ paxton, hes taking the same classes as me, we are on the same team in Handball, im bound to spend a lot of time with him, anyways, im just trying to show him around and make him feel welcome here, its not easy moving to a totally different place and knowing nothing. Plus you have work too, you spend a lot of time without me, whats the matter? what the fuck is going on with you?” Isak asked, he had never seen this side of him and he was frankly taken back “ you are not a second thought, you have been my only thought pretty much all day and i have never taken such a quick shower as i did just to get to your place and then i just get this? “ 

Paxton wasn’t against Isak making new friends and being welcoming to someone new in town. The brunette knew that his boyfriend was a nice person who tried to be a friendly, happy person to everyone to make sure they felt like they fit in, but it did his heading when he felt second best. “I spend time at work because I’m trying to earn money for the two of us. I’m not working to be away from you. I’m an adult. I have to do adult things,” he confessed. The brunette crossed his arms over his chest as Isak explained that he had rushed around this morning to go and see him. “How do you expect me to react to you if I’m seeing you smiling with another boy? Shall I go and make a new boy friend , and see how you like it?”

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Isak smiled wide as Paxton opened the door but it soon faded as he noticed the attitude and the mood his boyfriend was in. He was so confused by it. “ Bring Tom why th fuck would i bring tom?” his facial expression was a huge question mark at this point. “ uh.. no, why would i go everywhere he goes? that makes no sense. “ he then added and scratched his head. He had never taken Paxton as a jealous type, not at all.

“Your with Tom more than your with me lately,” the brunette confessed. His lips narrowing after the words escaped his mouth. Paxton felt like Isak might possibly be crushing on someone else, and although he didn’t have confirmation of that - having that narrative going around in his head was making him come across as angry and possessive. “Why am I a second thought nowadays? I’m your boyfriend. Your supposed to make time for Tom, not for me.”

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Isak had been spending a lot of time with a new team mate lately. A young man from Spain, a really tall and handsome guy had just moved to town and to play with the team and Isak had taken it up on him to show him around and help him. They had become really good friends as well. Between school, work, training and hanging with Tom, Isak wasn’t home much for other than sleep. He had not been trying too hard to spend time with Paxton either when they both were off work like Isak usually did. However, today he wanted to and so he jogged over to his boyfriends house right after practice and knocked on the door. 

Paxton didn’t want to admit that he was the jealous and possessive type, but deep down he knew that he was. He didn’t want to be the person who stopped his boyfriend having friends, but if he wasn’t feeling prioritised in a relationship and in someone’s life, he had no worries about bringing it the surface and making it known. He dated Isak, and was barely getting to see him as of lately which pissed him off. Paxton heard his front door knock and walked up the door to Isak, over-exaggerating and looking over his shoulder after opening it up. “You didn’t bring Tom?” He asked, clearly being sarcastic with the other, showing what mood he was in with Isak from the get go. “Where he goes, you go, right?”

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“ good boy, thats the right answer” he said with a soft giggle, he loved joking around with paxton. But of did he love hearing Paxton was not willing to share him, cause Isak wouldnt like to be shared like that. Isak bit his lip at Paxtons suggesting, that sounded like a fair deal if she really wanted to buy them something, he didnt want to rob her of the joy of giving but at the same time he didnt want her to spend her money on him when he was more than capable of doing so himself.  “ of cause you are “ Isak giggled, he loved buying paxton things, he bit his lip as he felt paxtons hand on his thigh, for some reason he could feel butterflies in his stomach. The boy looked over at his boyfriend with a smile. 

Paxton looked at Isak and noticed the smile on his lips. Paxton smiled back towards Isak and ran his fingers through the other’s hair gently. He watched as a waitress came over to the trio to get their order and looked between his boyfriend and his best friend. “I’ll take a hot chocolate please, and for the cake I’m thinking about having the Victoria sponge with cream.” Paxton noticed the waitress look at his hand in his boyfriend’s hair and pulled a face. Stassie looked at the waitress. “Can you stop staring at them?” She asked, being a mouth piece. “They’re dating...it’s fine...can you just take our order.” Paxton rested his head on Isak’s shoulder, not one for confrontation.

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Isak smiled and relaxed a bit more as Paxton played with his hair. Maybe this wasnt so bad, he just had to remember to be himself, that seemed to be the vibe here anyways. “ we are gonna get a slice of cake to share” Isak commented but then shock his head “ what? no, no no no, its on me” he said and bit his lip, letting others pay for him did not sit well with him, he struggled with him. He was barely used to and allowing Paxton to when they went on dates and paxton wanted to pay. “ thank you?” He said as she said he was cute. he could not help but laugh when Paxton told her to back of cuz isak was his, it was way to cute. “ you can share paxton, right?” he joked along. 

Paxton glanced at his boyfriend and pressed his lips against the other’s head gently once he asked if he could share. “I’m never sharing you. I’m sorry but your mine,” he confessed as a smirk spread across his lips. The brunette didn’t want anyone else trying their luck with Isak. “How about you buy your own, and Isak can buy our cake and you can get us a drink Stassie?” He asked, trying to find an alternative for both of them to be happy. “I’m happy to be brought for,” he chuckled, moving his hand to Isak’s thigh gently.

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“ i better be” Isaks said jokingly, he was trying so hard to let loose and dont be so shy and awkward, it took a lot of effort as thats how he was around people he didnt know, specially if he knew it was someone important. Steph really was important which made this so stressful to him. Isak held Paxtons hand tight and sat down with him, relieved he at least was sitting by his man. that made it a little more relaxed. “ yeah” Isak simply replied, he was okay, just a little nervous, he kept shaking/tapping his foot that paxtons hand was not on. “ so… .what are you having Steph?” he asked wondering what she was gonna grab to eat here.

Paxton reached his hand to play with Isak’s hair gently at the nape of his neck. Paxton was used to spending time with Isak and Steph separately, but had never brought the two of them together before. He knew eventually the two of them could be left in a room alone together - but today was not that day. “I’m getting a sandwich. What do you two want?” She asked. “It’s on me. I want to treat yourself to something. Your really cute Isak!” She giggled. Paxton smirked, putting his arm around Isak’s shoulder. “Back off his mine, bitch..” he joked.

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Isak had noticed ow it seemed like Paxton tried and wanted to get to know his friends and he made a mental note that he needed to plan to nag out with them and Paxton some time soon. Hearing Paxton say it out loud that he was getting shy only made him feel more shy and awkward, his eyes wandering like he was looking for a way out, just then the girls arms pulled him in a hug and automatically his body went stiff.  “ a-all?” he asked looking at her wondering if she was exaggerating or completely serious, Did paxton tell her about their alone time, if he was good or bad ? or about how isak was adopted. It wasnt that he tried to hide it or anything, if people asked he told the truth about it but it wasnt something he advertised. He then looked at Paxton for answers before looking back at her “ thank you” he said at her comment on how sweet they were together. “ paxton has told me a lot about you too” he told her, in a way isak felt like he knew her.

Paxton looked at his boyfriend and noticed his body stiffen. Paxton talked about his relationship with his best friend. Steph and Paxton had known each other for years and years. They talked about dating and boys. It was something the two of them had in common. “I talk about you both to each other. Your both my favourite people. Isak a little more,” he chuckled. Paxton grabbed Isak’s hand and pulled him into the seats so the two could sit next to each other. Paxton put his hand on Isak’s leg and lent into him. “You okay babe?” He asked, wanting to make sure his boyfriend was comfortable in his presence.

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Isak didnt have many friends out side of his handball team, but him and his team mates were really close. He hadnt introduced them properly, he was selfish when it came to time with Paxton. Isak wanted him all to himself, but now time had passed and he felt their relationship was that serious, it was about time they met each others friends. Isak felt that he needed to introduce Paxton to his team, propperly, they had just said hi in passing at the gym. This was a good first step, to meet Paxtons best friend, but it was terrifying to him, he made a note to ease Paxton slowly into his group of friends. “ she is?” he said hesitant and noticed Paxton moving towards her already and so he slowly and hesitantly followed. Isak had dug his nails into his hand so bad it was breaking his skin. He put on a smile, he didnt get why he was so shy, nervous and scared. He could do interviews for the tv before and after games no problem, but meeting a girl…. why was it so hard? probably cause he knew it meant a lot to his boyfriend. He took Paxtons hand as the man took hold of Isaks. “ n-nice to meet you” he stuttered kind of quietly tho he was trying his best to act cool.

Paxton had greeted some of Isak’s friends, but he hadn’t spent a lot of time with them. The brunette only got a hello in before they all wandered off towards their own friends and partners. The brunette didn’t mind. He was supporting his boyfriend anyway, but it would be nice to know more about these people who Isak decided to spent a lot of time with. Paxton flashed a smile in Isak’s direction noticing him get a little shy and squeezed his hand gently. “His getting all shy,” Paxon teased, trying to ease the other into it. “You don’t need to be around me!” Steph answered, pulling Isak into a hug. “Paxton’s told me all about you! You two look so sweet together!”

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Isak always tried to show interests in the things Paxton liked, to him it wasnt the most important to already love the others interest more than anything but to be supportive and show interest in it was something Isak felt was important and that, they did. “ yeah  i know, i love that place, their cakes are too good” he said with a chuckle. Isak smiled feeling him fiddle with his hair, Isak really loved when he did that. Once they were there he took a deep breath “ im good, lets go in there” he said and opened the door for Paxton, he looked inside as he did too see if he could spot Paxtons fiend tho he had no idea what she looked like. Isak was literally shaking at this point and most of all just wanted to turn around but this was important, it was important for Paxton and it was important for their relationship. 

Paxton knew that Isak felt nervous about meeting his friends. Paxton hadn’t introduced Isak and his best friend at the moment. She was constantly on the move with work and not being able to settle in one place. The brunette ran his fingers through his hair and pushed it out of his face as he spotted his friend sitting alone at the moment. “She’s over there!” He said, approaching his friend and giving her the biggest cuddle before turning around. “This is my boyfriend, Isak,” he introduced, taking hold of Isak’s hand to bring him forward.

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Isak loved how supportive of Isaks paxton was, it meant the world to him and the fact that he went to his games when he could was everything to him, Isak didnt care if he couldnt make it, and he wouldnt be upset if he didnt feel like going or what ever, but that he showed interest and always went when he could was something Isak was really appreciative off and it really did mean the world to him. “ thank you, i´m gonna need all the help i can get. So you easing me into it and her being a chatter box is golden” he said with a chuckle and smiled  “ so are we going to the café on the corner? the one you and i like so much or does she prefer another one? “ he wondered.

Paxton tried to be as supportive as he could to his boyfriend as he thought it was important to take an interest in things that interested his boyfriend. Paxton often brought up the sports that Isak took part in because he wanted to know what he enjoyed about them, and what he didn’t like about them.  “It’s the one with the really nice cakes, you know which one I mean?” he confessed. The brunette gently fiddled with his boyfriend’s hair as the walk didn’t take the two of them long to get there. “You need a minute, or are you good?” He asked, squeezing Isak’s hand.

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“ i really could use a sweet treat as well, today’s practice was rough.” he said, Isak usually loved hard practices but todays practice had been something different and left the boy bruised and sore, but he just smiled through it and kept going. Isak walked holding his hand as they walked “ i might be a little nervouse, i bet we will get along, i get along with most people, but i still cant help it, im not th best with new things, i like my norm you know” he said looking at him with a smile.

Paxton didn’t play sports but he was extremely supportive of his boyfriend keeping fit and attending practise. If Paxton could make it out to games he would, but he had to balance it with his work life as well. It depended if he could make the different events happening or not. Paxton gently moved his hand out of Isak’s and rubbed the other’s shoulder gently. “It’s okay. I’ll ease you into the conversation. She’s a chatterbox anyway. You’ll probably just have to nod half the time..” He chuckled.

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“ how about we just meet her in the cafe, keep her company while she eats, maybe we can share a peace od cake or something” he suggested. The boy might work out a lot and eat healthy a lot, but he did not deny himself anything, if he wanted something sweet he would have it. “ okay lets go” he said and bit his own lip from nerves

Paxton looked at Isak as he suggested the two of them getting a dessert to share and nodded his head, thinking it was a good idea. “Sounds like a plan to me. I could do with something sweet,” he admitted. Paxton locked the front door behind himself and held Isak’s hand. Knowing it wasn’t going to be a long walk to the café. It wasn’t that far away from his apartment. “You look so nervous, I,” Paxton commented with a small laugh. “Your going to get on.”

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Isak always found comfort in Paxtons touch and he smiled softly at his boyfriend. “ im fine” he said, it was a half true at least right? he wanted to do this, he was however so extremely nervous. “ lets hope” he said taking paxtons hand “ where are we meeting her?” he wondered. 

Paxton looked at Isak and could sense that he was a little nervous. He rubbed his thumb over the back of Isak’s hand gently trying to calm him down a little and looked at his mobile phone. “She’s going to get some food and we can either meet her in the cafe, or we can wait until she’s finished and go for a walk around with her afterwards?” He asked. Paxton played with Isak’s hair gently. “Let’s go before we’re any later...”

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Isak was trying his best to hide how much he was freaking out on the inside at the thought of meeting a close friend of Paxton. “ yeah always” he chuckled, it was true, Paxton always made his day turn into good. Isak swallowed hard hearing his phone, he dared to bet who that was. “ yeah? i hope so” he said, at this point his hands were shaky and ice cold. “ uhm… naah, i´m good, i had a protein shake after practice” he admitted with a smile. “ lets go meet up with her” he said wanting to do it before he chickened out.

Paxton looked at Isak and brought his hand up to the other’s cheek. Paxton knew that the other looked nervous and he didn’t want him too. His friend was a pretty chill and friendly person. Paxton was more extroverted than she was - so he thought things would fine between his boyfriend and his best friend.  “You look nervous babe,” he commented as a small smirk spread across his lips. “It’s going to go fine, okay? She’s going to love you and visa versa,”.