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Don’t mind this, I was listening to depressing songs.

She needed somebody. Anyone. To tell her it would be okay. But she didn’t at the moment. They all left her. They left her. So she could figure the war inside of her by herself. But she ... needed someone. Everyone does. But her mother and father were dead. Her brother was all the way across the Earth. She has never met her significant other. She was drowning in the sea of doubt. Hopelessness. Pain. She was drowning and she needed someone desperately to save her. She once thought she could do it by herself ... but ... she now knew she couldn’t bear this weight alone. She needed someone and she had no one. 

Inspired by this two songs 👌👍 :

- Someone You Loved by Lewis Capaldi

- Wish You Pain by Andy Grammer 

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Dreams

Okaaayyy so I’m really into dreams and what symbolizes what and I’ve been recently having dreams where I’m falling and then I wake up. I know that’s very common for dreams but I looked up what that can mean and they say that it means you feel like nothing is in your control right now. 

And I feel like that pretty much explains my life rn. 😒😔

Why I posting this? I have no idea. Just thought I should put this down somewhere. 

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I have a question ...

What do you do when someone you thought you knew turned out to be someone else entirely? There was this guy that I thought I respected and trusted, but it turns out that ... he decided to make one of the stupidest decisions in his life and ... it just disgusts me that he ... decided to go down this road. 

I need help. And advice. He doesn’t know I found out what he did. And I’m just so disappointed and distraught. Ugh. HELP ME.

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Crushes (Part 2)

Then came quarter three … where we were going to change seats …

I was not excited. I had finally gotten used to where I was sitting. I finally felt comfortable. And now I would have to start all over again. 

She starts to name where we’re sitting and guess what? I got seated next to the same kid ... again. I wasn’t sure if I was ok with this. I’m mean sure, a second ago I didn’t want to change seats, but maybe it was because I wanted a girl to talk to (I’m not trying to be sexist). 

But it turned out to be okay. I sat next to the same kid, this one other boy who was friends with the other kid (sry that’s confusing, I just don’t want to use names) and this one girl didn’t talk a lot. She did like to draw tho. So I respected her. In those ways, she was like me. 

So as the year went on, I noticed that this kid was in my PE class. And I guess he noticed too because he would acknowledge me there too, even tho he would always be with his friends. (4 example every PE class we have to run around the gym for 3 min. and one time this kid kind of ran in between me and my friend for no entire reason at all. Other times I would again catch him staring at me.) 

Speaking of staring at me, I don’t like if I see someone doing this. So in return, I will do this thing where I roll my eyes in the back of my head if that makes sense. Basically, I will make my pupils disappear so my eyes only show the white part. 

So in math whenever I caught him staring I would do the “thing” and the first time he saw this jumped back in response. After a while, he got used to it since I did it a lot.  One time he told me if I did it he would only stare at me more. So we kinda had a staring contest until I blinked, except I stayed like that for 10 seconds and then opened my eyes to find him staring. Then we argued if that counted because he was convinced I did the “thing” only with my eyes closed. 

Anyways, time passed and it was time to change seats again. 

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Crushes (Part 1)

(Not that anyone would care but ...) Storytime: 

I had to write it down somewhere, ok? 

So basically I never expected that I would find someone who would like me or someone in general, and not because I always have zits and I always have hair on my arms, but because in my religion you’re not allowed to have any relationship with a man/woman before marriage. And I don’t really want to get married ...

AnYwAyS, I’m the kind of girl who is quiet and shy if I don’t know you, but if I’m comfortable with you I’m the most talkative person on Earth. Now I just moved to a new school and I only knew two ppl: My cousin and one really good friend from my old school. So I was set. That was more than enough friends. What happened was I only had one class with my cousin and none with my close friend. 

So basically I was super quiet in every class except for that one I had with my cousin. 

Now, this is where the story gets “interesting”. Every quarter, our math teacher changes our seats. Fast-forward to the second quarter where I got sat next to 3 ppl. The first two were girls who both (earlier in the year) were convinced I had a crush on a guy so that made it awkward between us. The last person was this kid I had never noticed until now. And I kinda felt bad for this kid because he was the only boy sitting at the table. 

So we were all nice to each other. There were some times were one of the girls would say subtle things that would tick me off, but other than that it was ok. The boy was really nice and funny. Other times he would try to be annoying (4 example he would have tiny objects and he would always flip them in the air, and since I sat right in front of him, they would always somehow fall into my lap.)

After a while, I started to catch him staring at me. Like a lot. And I wouldn’t make anything of it. I would smile and go back to doing my work. He would also try to get me to talk. And if I wanted to say something he would always listen to me. One time I was talking and then I realized that no one was listening (because they were talking among themselves) and so I tried to slowly fade out, but then the boy was like are “You going to finish what you were saying?” (That made me very happy inside.)

I started to like math. He was cool. We also had another girl who started sitting next to us, who I knew so sometimes I would talk to her. (The boy hated her tho) Anyways, I liked math because of the ppl I sat next to. They were cool. 

Then came quarter three ... where we were going to change seats ... 

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Writing Prompt #4

You were born without emotions. You decide to create a donation box so that people can donate their emotions. You have only lived a life with the emotions people don't want - fear, anger, sadness, regret- until one day you get happiness.  

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Writing Prompt#3

You can taste lies. They taste disgusting. One day you are trying to comfort your friend after a horrible incident and your friend says “After all, you and me - we’re only human.” You gag because it was the worst lie you have ever tasted. Write what happens next.

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Writing Prompt #2

You’re a kid’s imaginary friend. He’s growing up and you’re fading. 

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Writing Prompt #1

Write a story from the villain’s perspective.