My Feelings One Year In
I won't lie, not every part of Peace Corps is easy. Okay lets be real, next to none of it is easy. There is a reason they say its âThe toughest job you will ever love.â On social media it looks like I spend a lot of the time doing fun things, productive things, and hanging out at the beach. But thatâs just the shell. Â It's actually really hard. I struggle a lot of days. Some not feeling like I am doing enough and some wishing I could go home and hug my mom, eat a steak and mashed potatoes, and eat all the salads I could get my hands on.
But I also wouldn't trade all of this for anything.
I get to watch the city fly by while looking out the back of a jeepney, walk 5K through sugar cane to talk with 4Ps beneficiaries who are super impressed with my feeling of limited Illongo. I get to work with some of the most amazing men and women who have become more than friends because they are now my family. I get interact with children who are happy to get a high five from me and hugs from some who tell me they love me (and they make my day). I work amazing students who I am supposed to be here to help but they support me just as much if not more than I support them. And I was taken in by two wonderful families, one in Bagac during my training and one I live with now on Sagay, who make my life so much easier than it has to be. There is no other feeling greater than having people take you in and make you part of their family no questions asked.
 And I haven't even begun to mention the amazing friends I have made from fellow volunteers who are always willing to listen to you rant, go on fun trips with, or just sit around with while you are all on Wi-fi. And the Peace Corps Philippines staff! They are truly amazing people. If you walk down the halls of the office and not feel loved there is something seriously wrong. I can't count the number of time I have texted or emailed my Sector Manager, Regional Manager, or Program Assistant and gotten a phone call checking up and helping me with whatever I needed. I am pretty sure to get on staff you need the ability to do magic. Because they all work some great magic.
I am truly so lucky.
So while there are many tough times. Times I feel unproductive, that I am not doing enough, that I can't do things, or not in the mood to do them. Or missing the luxuries and friends and families I have at home. I am so lucky. I am so happy to live this life.
And friends and family back home I am sorry but I am not going to come home to same person I left as. I am going to come back a much better person than I was (I like to think I was pretty good to begin with but everyone had their own opinion) and I have the wonderful people in this country to thank. I mean I still have no idea what I am doing with my life but that is a whole other story.
I am so thankful for the events in my life that have led me to Peace Corps Philippines. I am also so thankful for my friends and family home in the US who have shown so much support and my friends, family, students, fellow volunteers, and PCP staff who make it all worth it. So thank you.
One amazing year down, and another to go!Â












