hihi, names peach or fizzy \ 8teen \ aroace spectrum \ okay w any pronouns but slightly prefers he/him \ dms dont work (jk they do i just suck @ talking 2 ppl ♡)
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welcome to my constantly on fire blog! this is a checkpoint for you. if you have yet to do any of these today, please, do one:
-drink some water
-eat some food
-take your medicine, if you need any
-unclench your jaw
-stand up and stretch
-go give your pet(s) attention, if you have any
and now, some optional, but recommended things:
-step outside, at least for a few minutes
-if you live with someone, go give them a compliment or a hug
-call a friend or family member and check up on them
-go and listen to a new song
-if necessary, take a 30 minute nap or meditation session to recharge
I also have a lot of other blogs!!! this is my 'main' (but I don't actually post much of my original works here bc I p much have dedicated blogs for each of my interests). so, expect to see tons of miscellaneous content from many fandoms, here! this is my little testing ground
and if im not active on this blog, I should be on one or multiple of these (under the cut bc I'm getting a lot of them now):
@peachpopfizz - Main blog (congrats you're here!!)
@peachyninjago - Ninjago blog
@peachyfnaf - Five Night's at Freddy's blog
@peachyhedgehogs - Sonic the Hedgehog blog
@peachyutdr - Undertale and Deltarune blog
@peachyroblox - Adventure Forward: Star Savior, Paper Roblox, and any other cool Roblox story games I come across blog
@peachybuggames - Hollow Knight, Bugsnax, and Bug Fables blog
@peachyanime - Anime blog
@peachyhellaverse - Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss blog
@peachybatim - Bendy and The Ink Machine/Dark Revival blog
@peachyanarglogs - ARG/Analog Horror blog
More to come :D
thanks for reading all this :) have a fun time here <3
God tumblr is EATING my quality- sobbing so hard.... Oh well, it's a gift to myself anyway
Iz just me and my friends, you should check them out! From left to right we got
Fenn & Fenne (They're still setting up their tmblr lol)
Aster aka @dis-aster9255
Me <333
Echo aka @that-starry-freak
Alex aka @alexandraisyes
Polaris aka @polaris-stuff
Peachy aka @peachpopfizz
They're the ones who've impacted my year the most, and I'm very grateful for them, truly. It's been a hell of a ride, but it's been fun, and I can't exactly say it wasn't worth the time spent with them all
I couldn't possibly fit every friend I have in one drawing so duirhgurthgeh sorry for that I fear, but yeah!
Cannot get over the fact that most of my exes from this year have been literally toxic fucking pieces of shit the only one I like is @peachpopfizz and I'm half convinced it's because she lets me send her porn but ykw a win's a win
Today is the day I first escaped the cold, cruel clutches of the First Spinjitzu Master and I've been making it EVERYONE'S problem ever since!!! I have no intent of stopping, either, I assure you. <3<3<3
18 whole years of existing on this shitty planet filled with shitty things and shitty people.
18 whole years of existing on this beautiful planet filled with wonderful things and beautiful people.
i am.
terrified.
i don't like my birthday. i hate it, actually. not only does it mark a point in time every year where i have to be around the ""family"" that i don't really care about or even like; but to me, the passage of time is a terrifying- if not the most terrifying thing- and now i'm an adult. gags. i am an adult in the eyes of society. i am a person who can own a house on their own, get any job, start a family, have kids.
that is terrifying.
i feel like i haven't really changed much since i turned 15. i mean, i've gotten more mature, that's a fact. but i feel just as unprepared to grow up now as i was then. i don't know how to drive. i don't know how to do taxes. i've never had a job. i literally got my first debit card like a month ago and i've still yet to use it.
so yeah i'm fucking scared!!!!! i feel like the second i take a step out into "adulting" i'm going to blow up from lasers in the sky shooting me down!!!!!!!!!!
but. (yes there's a "but", bare with me)
but, i still want to do it.
i want to grow up. i want to get a stable enough income doing art where i'm able to get out of this fucking house and move in with someone i love. i want to cut off all the horrible people in my life, and get away from them. i want to be able to walk around my own house without having to mask. i want to be able to fill up the walls with anime posters and buy merch of all my hyperfixations without being scolded for "wasting money" or "acting like a child".
and now, i'm one step closer to being able to do that, just because i was able to convince myself to survive this long.
am i gonna do all that right away?? oh-ho-hooo hell no. i still have no fucking clue what im doing, and i don't even have the option to yet cause. mr. krabs voice. money.
BUT. but, it's actually possible now. it's not just the dreams and ideals of some scared little girl wishing she could be anywhere but here. it's something i can actually do, if i bust my ass to do it.
and if you've happened to read this far, first off, tf you doing here? second off, thank you. thanks for acknowledging i exist, on this app full of millions of people, that you downloaded on this planet of 8 billion people. i appreciate you more than you know.
i am also going to use this yap and ramble and hide this wayyy at the bottom, so that i can be less worried n embarrassed about it being seen, but i've made a lot of friends in the past year the sams fandom that i never expected to make. some of them were literally people i idolized, and now we chat in discord dm's all the time. i still can't wrap my head around it.
if you see your name here, know that in some way shape or form, you've made me smile when i thought about your existence. some of you i know pretty well, and some of you i wish i could get to know more, but im a pissbaby with anxiety who cant initiate conversation fjkhsdf
drew. star. mothy. creesa. juno. sunny. dana. ceph. ken. sam.
polaris. alex. haven.
(those last 3 are separated because they're the names of people who i've actually stopped crying before over cause they said hi to me or some shit dfjkhsdf)
and THERE'S PROBABLY A LOT MORE PEOPLE I'M MISSING BECAUSE WRITING THIS OUT MADE ME TEAR UP SO NOW MY MINDS A BOWL OF SOUP. BUT IF WE'RE FRIENDS AND YOUR NAMES NOT ON HERE IT'S NOT BC I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU, IT'S BECAUSE I'M A DUMBASS DFSJKHSDF
aaand this is long enough, dear lord.
so yeah. i'm 18, i'm scared, but i'm alive, and i love my friends. and i think that's pretty neat.
let's see if i can reblog this post again when i turn 19 with some good news, yeah?
yeah.
(and yes, future me, in case we forget we did actually draw a celebratory piece this year. yippee to us.)
LOL IM SO LATE TO THIS POST THIS YEAR BUT HI IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY 3 DAYS AGO AGAIGQIGA
and im..
okay! im okay, actually!
i think im doing the best i have in a while. i have a job!! im actually currently writing this post from at my job!! and. well. its very nice and easy here. the work is light, managable, and to my tastes, n my coworkers are chill asf
the list of people from last year? i still love and hold a lot of them close. not all, but most!!! and i have New names for it, too!!!
i was late this year bc i had (still have, but I saw an ent today so im on the upcline) an ear infection and it sucked bad :( but im here now!!
yeah. currently im chilling in life. i think my next big step will be learning how to drive. will i do it before i turn 20? no clue! im taking my time with life and existence. i have (at least) like. 20 years ahead of me, and that's just if i get unlucky. i have time to chill
this birthday, and year overall- despite my EVIL EARS- was a good one!!
i can only hope the upcoming one is even better c:
*through gritted teeth* the world is GOOD. people are kind. Humans are NOT inheritly selfish. you will make it through this year. recovery is possible. people you don't know yet will love you. You are going to do things you can't even imagine right now. You are going to read a rlly good book. You are going to eat some rlly good food. You are going to experience joy again. Things can get better. Situations can change. You can choose to be kinder. The world can change for the better.
i'd like to add that the shadow color isnt necessarily dictated entirely by the primary light source, but the bounce light! so for the example of a sunny environment, the reason the shadows are blue are because of the light from the blue sky reflects across the environment; but, if the character were to be under tree cover, the bounce light would be coming from the leaves and thus the shadow would look greener.
