PearlFlakes

So be it.

[utterbliss5-deactivated20151015]

[egzpl-deactivated20160802]

This.

[pearlflakes]

“My head really hurts, I’m gonna go to sleep.” He said, and with that he turned off the phone. He had never said to me in two years. Never. I would always tell him to go to sleep but he stayed. He always stayed until I would convince him it was time to sleep. But merely an argument caused him to hang up on me.

[pearlflakes]

This episode broke my heart into tiny little pieces 😞

[pearlflakes]

Love

I can’t seem to forget that night. Love had never felt so right. There he was, sitting in front of me right in my knees. He looked so desperate. He looked like he did love me. Because I sure as hell didn’t love me in that moment. He used to make fun of me. Small things, I guess. But those small things lead to big insecurities I didn’t want to bring up. He would sometimes talk to me as if I’m worthless, and suddenly his eyes changed every time he looked at me, because he knew I was his everything. If he lost me, he’d lose himself. It was the kind of love you didn’t know existed until you were in the moment. And there were a couple million moments that summer. His words hurt me, but his gaze hugged my soul. And everything was right again. Because in that moment when he kept telling me, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I love you. He picked up my feet and put his lips to my toes. As he kissed each one he looked straight into my eyes. And those kisses were all it took for me to forgive him. Because that’s how simple love is. One touch, one kiss, and you’re done. I felt like he was a part of me. Especially the night I left. we had just made love, and he laid down. We looked in each other’s eyes for what felt like a million years, and tears did not stop rolling. His red and wet eyes made my heart go up and down. And soon he closed his eyes for deep sleep and I kept looking at him. He was so beautiful, everything about him. His eyes..his soft lips..His hair. I could have stared at him for hours. In that moment, I felt love. With him, it was a come-n-go kind of thing. It always will be.

[baby-juancho]

[teenagecrush]

[trufbetold]

The worst part about long distance relationships is when you need them the most they can’t be there.

11:43pm (via trufbetold)

[sweet-catastrxphe-deactivated20]

‘You can’t love someone unless you love yourself first’ Bullshit. I have never loved myself. But you… Oh God, I love you so much I forgot what hating myself feels like

(via sweet-catastrxphe)

[invera]

me

[pearlflakes]

Goodbyes.

I can't remember clearly now, if I loved him enough. I can't remember now..if I put my hands on his cheeks enough..? Feel the scruffiness of his chin, and the softness of his cheeks? Did I put the palms of my hands on his forehead enough? Did I mumble enough sweet nothings in the corners of his ears? Did I softly kiss his neck enough to mark what's mine? Because I seem to keep forgetting each day. And as each moment passes by, I try to recall the last time I kissed his lips long enough. Long enough to feel that uneasy feeling in the pit of my belly because I'd be leaving soon. And I didn't want to leave. I really didn't. I hate goodbyes.

[purplebuddhaproject]

https://www.instagram.com/pbuddhaproject/

[shdidihrhdjs-deactivated2018081]

She gave all she had She opened her mind but instead he opened her legs. She gave her heart, body and soul to a boy who could not and would not love her the way she deserved.

t.i // She now mistakens sex for love, she has been blinded of her self worth. (via words-she-will-never-say)

[pearlflakes]

This episode broke my heart into tiny little pieces 😞

[wnq-writers]

My heart, it has never been good for much. But, before I fall asleep, I will say this: of all the things my heart has ever loved, you are by far the best.

RayWritess  (via wnq-writers)

[theliteraryjournals]

Yet, I didn’t understand that she was intentionally disguising her feelings with sarcasm; that was usually the last resort of people who are timid and chaste of heart, whose souls have been coarsely and impudently invaded; and who, until the last moment, refuse to yield out of pride and are afraid to express their own feelings to you.

Fyodor Dostoyevsky, Notes from the Underground (via theliteraryjournals)

[sayingsofthesalaf]

Indeed Allah forgives major sins, so do not despair. And indeed Allah punishes for minor sins, so do not be deceived.

Abu Bakr As-Saddiq, radiallahu’anhu, [Reported in Sharh Al-Bukharee by Ibn Battal Vol. 19 pg. 267] (via abubakrassiddeeq)

[ramiroo19-deactivated20200102]

Whoever has three daughters, or three sisters, or two daughters, or two sisters and he keeps good company with them and fears Allāh regarding them, then Paradise is for him.

The Messenger of Allah [ﷺ] | Jamī’ at-Tirmidhi, (No. 1916)