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Anakin Skywalker/GN!reader
โ Synopsis: Itโs harder to pretend you donโt feel hurt than it is to hide your relationship with Anakin
angst/fluff? I love forbidden romances and the title is inspired by the song Never Enough
Itโs getting harder to pretend. Here you sit with Anakin, on top of a building in Coruscant, far away from the eyes of the Jedi. You can see it on his face too. The look he gives you during council meetings, during missions, during the moments you two are alone. That look that goes unseen by everyone, everyone but you.
He could stare all he wanted, admire your beauty. He could adore you, but only at a distance. He even opted to stand on the opposite side of the room when among other people, scared that his urges to hold your hand, or to profess his love you would take over.ย
Youโre aware of this too, aware that you both canโt act on how you truly feel for each other. It was already frowned upon on how the Jedi noticed you two were โclose friendsโ and often spent an alarming amount of time together.ย
Your loyalty lies to the Jedi order. However, thereโs a small part of you that wishes it could lie to Anakin instead. His devotion and willingness to you made you aware that his loyalty โ and heart โ only belonged to you.
It seemed like the only thing that kept you and Anakin apart was your commitment to the Jedi order.
The night sky on Coruscant looked artificial, bustling cars and towering buildings littered the city down below. But not for you and Anakin. You both sat atop the tallest viewpoint you could find. Stargazing became a pastime for the two. Even when one was on a mission, light years away, it brought a sense of familiarity and comfort to your relationship which consisted of risks and secrecy.ย
You turned to look at him, he looked so beautiful, so angelic and carefree. Yet you knew about the storms in his mind. You wish you could help, to provide him with some sense of closure or security. Anything would be enough.
โWhat are you thinking about?โ You asked, leaning onto his shoulder. He broke his stoic gaze and turned to you. โYou.โ He spoke. Flutters erupted in your stomach at his response. Even with all the ups and downs in your relationship over the years, heโs always said things that make you weak in your knees and head over heels for him, whether he even realizes it or not.
โWhat about me?โ You asked, not expecting much of an answer. โAbout how I love you. And how everyone deserves to know.โ He broke his gaze from yours, turning his head down.ย
He had such passion, such devotion, that it almost looked like torture when he couldnโt hold your hand in public, or say I love you in passing. โYeah..โ you trailed off, unaware of how to respond.ย
You took his hand and intertwined it with yours. His eyes met yours, โI know what it feels like. I sometimes wish we could justโฆ leave it all behind and start a new life somewhere. Somewhere where we arenโt heroic Jedi Knights.โ You confessed to him.ย
His eyes softened and gripped your hand. He paused before he spoke, almost like he was hesitant to speak. โYou know I would do anything you asked me to, right?โ He asked. You nodded, unsure of what he was going to propose.
He shifted his body to where he completely faced you. He grabbed holdย of your other hand in his before he spoke. โThen letโs do it. Letโs leave and never come back. We can change our names, we can move to a planet weโve never even heard of. We can properly get married, have a family. Live a life no Jedi can.โ He confessed, holding your hands in a tight grip.
You knew he was blinded by his love, he even knew it too. You both knew that he had obligations ย and responsibilities, that a life like that is just a dream. โAnakin,โ you sighed. โYou know we canโt.โ You avoided his eyes.ย
โI knowโ was all he said. Almost as if he didnโt want to accept that truth.
In an attempt to lighten the mood, โWe always have right now.โ You separated your hands from his and cupped his face with them. โYeah,โ he said. โWe do.โ A weak smile spread on his face.
You pulled him in for a kiss, your lips met in a fit of passion and yearning. Every time you kissed, you treated like it was your last, like the world around turns into a blur and all that matters is holding onto this sweet moment.
When you pulled away, he stared lovingly into your eyes. He started to brush his fingers through your hair, and you laid against his chest. โI love you,โ he said, voice barely above a whisper.
โI love you too.โ You said, fully meaning it. Each time you say it, you get closer and closer to satisfying the urges of running away with him and leaving the order behind.ย
Maybe this time youโll finally give in.
See how good I am when I donโt rush myself to put out something? Ahaha, Iโm lying, this was good in theory.
