after all, there's nobody more monstrous than me

30. queer/genderqueer/fagdyke/freak/whatever. they/any. polyam. white. fat. physically disabled, chronically ill, neurodivergent, hot mess. patron saint of feral strays. doomed by the narrative. singer, writer, artist, witch. survivor. @ exclusionists/bigots/etc: fuck off.

[peculiar-persephone]

you can find some tags that I sometimes use below, but be aware that my tagging system is basically like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

other places you can find me:

@muppet-medusa (fics) (... eventually) (maybe. if someone would just hit me with the "will to write" hammer)

feel free to dm me if you'd like to be friends (i.e. send memes back and forth forever with very little actual conversation)

current hyperfixations (aka come talk to me about): Dungeon Crawler Carl, The Great Divide album by Noah Kahan

forever special interests (aka PLEASE come talk to me about): anything horror-related, Fall Out Boy, Lady Gaga, Glee, Supernatural, Smosh

[ejgto]

[late-dawnz-early-sunsets]

what the fuck man you cant do that

[wanderingcas]

OH HELLLLL YEAH

[spin-the-wheel-polls]

You've been turned into a mythical creature, spin the wheel to see which one!

Are you happy with it?

^^^^^^

https://wheelofnames.com/5k9-xsu

Are you happy with it?

yes!! I love it

yes!

It's okay I guess

no

NO.

results/other

Voting ended onJul 14

(if you don't consider some of these mythical creatures please don't come for me)

[thekidsarentalright]

possibly the greatest song ever made in the history of music btw

[probuccalfat]

nobody else doing it like me. particularly because the way i’m doing it is needlessly difficult

[quartzprinz]

White-browed Tit-warbler, seen in NW China's Gansu province. by 鸟影语丝

[idc0o]

Somehow being a person does not come naturally to me

[ms-demeanor]

Wait, listening to the same song on repeat is stimming?

[ms-demeanor]

I do not mean a normal amount of listening to the same song on repeat I mean that in October and November 2022 the only thing I listened to was Type O Negative's "Black No. 1" and I listened to it for 18 hours a day. This is, apparently, a kind of stimming.

[ms-demeanor]

*quietly hides the four playlists that I have that are just copies of one song from different recordings or releases*

[ms-demeanor]

To be clear I do not know what the normal amount is. When Large Bastard and I started dating I had a tape in my car with Tom Petty's "Dancing at the Zombie Zoo" on it that I knew exactly when to flip the other side (halfway through "Yer so Bad") so that I could flip it again and listen to Zombie Zoo again and I did that enough that Large Bastard still can't listen to Tom Petty and also it wore through the tape. So whatever normal is it is probably less than that.

[ms-demeanor]

Nope. And one of the things that made my doctors wave off the possibility of a diagnosis was "well, you don't stim or have trouble socializing or have sensory issues so you're probably just depressed and anxious."

No I just, you know, reexamined every interaction for hours after the fact and was convinced that I was evil or deeply broken for being unable to emotionally connect with people around me and had headphones hidden under my hair all the time to listen to songs on repeat so that I could pay attention to things and not get distracted by the way the classroom lights were flickering at exactly the wrong frequency.

[ms-demeanor]

WHAT DO YOU MEAN MOST KIDS DON'T HAVE TO BE TRAINED OUT OF WALKING ON TIP TOES

[pterribledinosaurdrawings]

how it feels to message a friend who's having Problems that you can't do anything to help with.

[peculiar-persephone]

@firewatchers us to each other every day

[bloodyethanol]

what if i just lost it. what if i just lost my shit the entirety of it

[lizormianillustration]

even anxious pups need the moon

orbiter- noah kahan

[expressions-of-nature]

by Kasia

[mortalfortaxpurposes]

IT'S OUT AND IT'S A COVER MICHAEL DAY ASKED HIM TO BE ON

[inthetags]

Reblog and put in the tags your current favorite song

[skrunglebeasts]

put three f/f ships you like in the tags. doesnt matter how obscure or embarrassing the media, go for it. and no, your m/m ship doesnt count as women

[peculiar-persephone]

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