VDKA

20 “ILLEGITIMATE SON OF GOD”

[peppermintvdka]

Intro

Pronouns: he/him/they

Cases: any 80s or 90s white boy crime will do, but E&D in particular

Music: Kmfdm, Rammstein, NIN, Pearl Jam, Melanie Martinez, Lana Del Rey

Movies: Reservoir Dogs, Heathers, Scream, and Zero Day

Boundaries: don’t personally dm me if you’re under 18, other than that I love attention so do whatever you want

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Satanic panic

I feel like it’s not acknowledged enough that those dealing with the moral panic after Columbine were the same people that had just gotten over the satanic panic, in fact I’d actually argue that they never really left the panic behind so much as it shifted focus from blood sacrifice to shootings due to the fact that when you put both side by side it’s pretty much the same bullshit

Even just including it in discussions about bullying, fashion choices, and beloved media when discussing E&D feels important because people did in fact already have problems with violent media and goth fashion prior to the massacre, it was just an event that amplified it again

So umm yeah, hail satan and thanks for listening

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Things I wished I said part 1

Gf’s friend: it’s not the smoking it’s just…

Me: you’ve brought up me smoking out of the blue twice now and I actually only ever smoked like 12 cigarettes over a 5 month period, never got a serious addiction and had my gf throw them out because I never actually liked smoking it was just me being silly yet again because I’m in a dark place… but yeah I think it’s the smoking

To be fair I was bragging about it a lot in the beginning and I never made an attempt to hide it, but literally there are bigger problems and the cigs were never more than aesthetic

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Mom

Mom: we’re a lot a like you know, I used to be alternative too

Me: cool, could I…

Mom: you should wash off that make up and be more preppy and also I never liked that industrial stuff you listen to

Me: uhh sure…

I’m just bored and needed something to post

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I’m not the only who watches heathers and has thoughts right? Like oh this is where that comes from… lol

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Designs #3 & #4

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Are there any ripperologist in this community, any Jack the Ripper fans?

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Being told by someone you trust that you scare their friend when you thought ya’ll we’re friends sucks… the addition that it was because of past experiences of people making threats, but you’re still a good person sucks harder and I hate that I tried to fix it

Note I sympathize with trauma this just particularly situation didn’t feel very trauma related if you catch my meaning

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Rebrand

My previous name was more connected to a job as a ghost tour guide and since that’s now as dead as the people I’d talk about I decided it needed a change… so I’m back to this

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Somebody had to come up with the idea that Eric Harris not only approached Rachel Scott (at the start of the massacre meaning they’d have to reveal their weapons) to ask if she believed in god, but when she responded yes his answer was “then go be with him” So first, cool line… second wtf, why have that, why make up, something so unbelievable corny like that! It’s in the diary book, so you can’t blame shitty movie writing either.

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More advice

So I’m going to therapy yet again, I’ve gone a number of times for other reasons, but I’ve never mentioned tcc stuff, should I? If I do what type of reaction should I expect? I think the therapist will be cool, but I’m bringing a lot to this session… what do you think and sorry if it’s personal I just want to be prepared

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Designs #1 & #2

If you like them I could make more or I guess make them if someone wants them on something… I decided to abandon writing cause I’m more of a designer anyway and of course I don’t really believe the second design

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I don’t think I should check out Dave Cullens book from the public library ever again, three times is enough…

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Advice needed

So my family has found my other socials that included some edits and then some instagram posts…. What should I do? I lied my way through the first incident regarding some subtle posts, but I can’t say for sure that I was believed, what should I do with the imminent second incident and even a possible third should this blog be discovered?

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Tv show ideas:

A family style sitcom about bombers row in Florence ADX, every single prisoner of note is an exaggerated sitcoms version of themselves

More of a mini series concept, but a mock trial for E&D, it’s always been my opinion that if it had gotten the same amount of media attention as irl the trial would be just sensational and I’d like to see it in a dramatic yet realistic way

Fashion and food program strictly focused on TCC

Any other suggestions?

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My future daughter: dada why did you name me Arlene?

Me: oh well me and your mommy (especially her mommy) thought it was really pretty.

Arlene: well where did you find it then?

Me: a book connected to a video game, not a crime, you’re not named after a deadly weapon

[kristynfergie]

Dont ever research Columbine or you will get obsessed and it will ruin your life and you will cry every day

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R.I.P. to the friends and family that have left me since I started my research, they ain’t dead just no longer in my life with a few exceptions