Until we Meet Again pt.4
Like a zombie, he went back to Misty’s and found the woman alone, cleaning up the shelf.
“Where is Jack?” he asked in a whisper.
“Gone to fetch us lunch,” she gently replied. “Why don’t you sit down while we wait for him?” He was pretty sure she was going to comment on his aura, and he wouldn’t be surprised if she told him it was dark. He felt depressed.
She sat on the other side of the counter and smiled warmly.
“Such a sad face,” she instead delivered and he snorted. And suddenly found himself crying. It came seemingly out of nowhere and he couldn’t stop. It was not the silent crying type, no, it came with full sobs and a heaving chest, with the sensation that he couldn’t breathe and that a snare was tightening over his heart. Misty’s small and cool hand fell on his wrist as he hid behind his palms in shame.
“I’m sorry, I don’t know what’s happening…” he cried.
“Just let it out, V, it just needs to be let out.”
So he did, it wasn’t like he could really stop it anyway as the stream turned into a torrent. It seemed to go on and on as if he was on a small raft, adrift in an unleashed sea and wave after wave of salted water barreled into him. Until, gradually, it dried up and he slowly wiped his eyes. He felt drained, and so, so tired.
Misty was smiling tenderly at him, as a mother would and that just made more tears fall on his cheeks.
“I just,” he tried, before a hiccup cut him off, “I just, I’ve got all these strange feelings inside like... I learned some things recently and it… It hurts. He is hurting and feels so, so sad for them, and guilty, and, and I’m like, having to live through these emotions too, without actually wanting to… And fuck, they are so strong!" he concluded with a note of anger.
The woman on the other side of the counter frowned and handed V a tissue.
“But V, there is no him and you, there is just you.”
Read it here on AO3. This work is part of the Cyberpunk2077 Big Bang Challenge
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