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WHATHEFUCKDID HE SAY????

Literally cannot think of a good enough way to apologize to the numerous people who I probably scared the shit out of by going ghost like that. I’m not even sure if some of them even use this site anymore. To all my old friends out there that ARE seeing this I just wanna let you know that I’m sorry for everything. There’s literally nothing I can try to say that could even be close to good enough but I hope you can at least give me a chance to start over.

#maxxy speaks

So Here’s What’s Up

Okay so presumably people have some questions and I’m willing to answer all of them because honestly that’s fair! I went 100% radio silence over a year ago and I’m sure literally everyone I used to interact with is confused. So here’s what happened:

Between May and July of 2019 (SUCH a long time ago jfc), I was going through a lot of pretty significant life events that were taking a serious toll on my mental health. A lot of family stuff was going down, I was going through a pretty nasty end to a long relationship, and shit at uni was getting tough to balance. I stayed pretty quiet about everything online because per usual I was trying to just put up a wall and ignore it. That did not work out well. I had a pretty serious depressive episode and did some shit I’m not proud of. At that point I figured rock bottom is a good enough place to start fresh than anywhere else! So that’s what I did. I cold turkey cut literally ALL social media usage (tumblr, instagram, twitter, discord, etc.) and decided to focus on me. I know it sounds fuckin cheesy as shit but honestly I think it was the best decision for myself at the time. I wasn’t planning on staying away for very long, just long enough to give myself some time to recalibrate yknow? And then all the shit that happened this year happened and that short period of time just kept getting longer and longer. It’s been kinda tough rounding myself back out and getting back to a happy baseline but I’m in a great place that I don’t think I’ve been in since like 2016 lmao.

So uh, all things considered I feel there was definitely a better way to go about this than the nuclear option that I opted for and for that, I’m really sorry. I’m gonna work on getting myself up and running online again and maybe repairing some entirely severed online friendships if anyone even still feels like giving me the time of day after that whole deal. I’m more than willing to pick things up where I left off, but obviously other people may feel differently.

If anyone has any questions, feel free to send em in lol I feel like I did a shitty job on this

tl;dr I went through some mental health shit, nuked my social media, but uh hi I’m back

#maxxy speaks #yikes that was bad

Ahaha fuck

#its uh #been a while lmao #much to explain