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Heavy on my mind, as her birthday approaches we use to spend it together. Feels like yesterday I was in Boston for 30. And then 31, which I think was one of the last times I was in Boston. I rolled my ankle on the way to the train but refused to do anything because I was determined to make it a great birthday for her. Either way, as her birthday is near all the memories flood back. I hope she’s happy, people I meet don’t compare to the connection we had yet I know now that people are meant to teach us things. I can feel joy in the good memories we have and feel anger in the bad ones. To me the longer we go without being connected the more I feel the pain. I know some pain is just meant to teach you a lesson so you never repeat it. And I know I learned a lesson. It’s these late night moments that truly hurt the most. I hope she’s happy, I hope she’s successful, and most of all I hope she finds the person that was able to be everything I couldn’t. We will always be looking at the same moon. Took this last week at the beach, and remembered we will always see the same moon.

Tonight was the first night in a long time I thought about her. I was on the phone with customer service representative at Costco and her name was KATHY I could have sworn I heard her voice on the other side of that phone. Then she went on to talk about her mom and her computer. But I really thought it was her. My heart yearned for confirmation it wasn’t even though I knew it couldn’t be I said I’m sorry what’s your name and she said my names Kathy can I help with anything else. I thought to myself ofc course it had to start with that letter. It hurts. And yet I still know that the chaos is so much less with her in my life. I just wonder if she thinks about me. Do u think she avoids moons or certain songs or foods we use to eat together. How about movies or cities we have memories in. Do you think she hurts. I wonder.

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2025; you are the year I know it. You will fuck me over. Until I figure out my worth. It’s currently January and I think I got a taste of what I’m suppose to be seeing this year. It’s not that the year is gonna fuck me over it’s that I will finally take the blindfold off! I will finally see the faces that have made me look like a fool. The ones that have been holding me back from my bigger ideas. Sure know body wants that over and over, it’s exhausting but i actually think it’s time I finally see it. I’m not here to play victim, I really am not. What I will say is that if taking accountability for my misdoings and mindful proceedings is that then maybe I am and I guess I’m okay with it… I should have the space to finally realize where I went wrong, and proceeding with trust.

There is a saying you can take any piece of paper and crumble it up everything you lose trust, in someone then open up your paper you can never get it flat again it permanently altered it.

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