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Blog About My Sexual OCD Experience 😭👍

[perfectlyperverted]

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[datadegroove-deactivated2026042]

what's boobies. heheh i'm a visual learner by the way *someone shows me their boobs* jesus christ what the fuck is that

[perfectlyperverted]

Sorry that I havent posted much lately. I've been focused on other things in life rather than obsessive thoughts so thats cool ^_^

[tonyzaret]

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[thaenad]

tw: suicidal thoughts.

just gathering this because I’m curious how many of us have been negatively impacted by shame caused by fatphobia and sexual ostracism.

feedists, have you ever experienced suicidal thoughts directly related to the shame you felt for your fetish?

yes

no, but it negatively impacted my mental health

the shame did not impact my mental health

I did not struggle with feelings of shame

Voting ended onNov 27, 2024

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[perfectlyperverted]

I'm gonna become homicidal for real idc this shit has me fucked up and idk if I'm just pretending or if its appropriate or not

[perfectlyperverted]

Ive been explaining this shit too broadly and too sanely. I'm gonna get really hyperspecific and irrational and if everyone is upset by that like I actually don't care anymore.

[perfectlyperverted]

Im so scared of things that make no sense and that I cant talk about

[perfectlyperverted]

fatphobia tw

But I can't stop thinking about it.

[perfectlyperverted]

Scared of one tiny thing

[imitationgod]

ahhhh so the guilt is NOT supposed to be neverending and haunting and constant and persisting beyond a doubt over even the most menial of things that i would not be upset at someone else for. i understand now.

[imitationgod]

i think i hauve ocd.

[perfectlyperverted]

I just want to clarify on this blog in case it isn't clear, that there is nothing wrong with feederism or weight gain kinks or sexual attraction to fatness - that stuff is awesome and there's 0 things wrong with any of that.

I just have a disorder that makes me constantly question if anything sexual I do is secretly a symptom of my immoral soul. So those are things that I end up freaking out about a lot, because they're things I do.

I hope the posts I make never have a negative impact on sexual communities or anyone's self-esteem. My posts handle very sensitive subjects and are from a scared and irrational part of my mind, so I hope that everyone takes care.

[charbottan]

stop saying it doesnt matter when im talking about something that does matter. like my penis, which matters to me and pretty much everyone else on earth

[perfectlyperverted]

Humans just have sex with each other and have fun but I'm freaking out over here and making everything be life or death and adding 100 moral layers to everything its absolutely miserable and pathetic and its humiliating how I have to overanalyze everything and distance myself from every harmless thing and act morally superior like ohhhhmy god

[perfectlyperverted]

Im doing the thing again where I think its INHERENTLY UNCONTROLLABLY MY BAD SOUL, and not a trauma that I need to make a conscious strive to improve on

[perfectlyperverted]

Humans just have sex with each other and have fun but I'm freaking out over here and making everything be life or death and adding 100 moral layers to everything its absolutely miserable and pathetic and its humiliating how I have to overanalyze everything and distance myself from every harmless thing and act morally superior like ohhhhmy god

[perfectlyperverted]

❌ Warning for SA mentions ❌

I can't believe I'm still in this mental stage... I didn't realize it would last so long...