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I just deleted everything.

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#i reblog this just to let you know i will be deleting this blog around christmas or so #thank you so much for the great time i spent here #and to those who reached out to me #i really appreciate it

I just deleted everything.

Firstly, I would want to apologize for doing such. I know some of you appreciated my writing and liked to revisit the stories I posted to read them from time to time. I waited for as long as possible to do this, to try to clear my mind before taking everything down, but I finally hit rock bottom. I’ve been having this idea of deleting everything ever since april or so, but I still pushed myself to carry on, foolishly thinking that maybe I would get my motivation and inspiration back, but such thing never happened. And, honestly? The fact that I have to write in a language that brought me so much stress during the last four years doesn’t help. And, sadly, I’m no longer as invested as I was in the fandoms I was in.

My personal life is not at its best moment. I lost a beloved family member and while I knew it was going to happen sooner or later, it still had a very big impact on me. I feel very lost in life, I don’t know what’s gonna happen with me or what I can possibly do to become what I have always wanted to be. I constantly feel like I’m wasting time. No matter what I do, it’s never enough. I just don’t know what to do or how to start pursuing my goals. I need to focus on myself, see if this is manageable. If I even have the strength to try.

Some of you told me that downloaded or even printed my stories, I only want to ask you not to upload them again. I’m pretty sure no one is going to take the time to do so, but I just wanted to say that I do not want them online and that I would really appreciate it if you didn’t do it. I feel very vulnerable and seeing my writing right there made me feel very uncomfortable, that’s why I took it down (and because as I mentioned earlier, I can’t see myself posting anymore).

Thank you so much for all the love and support I’ve received ever since I started posting. I always felt very appreciated and looked after, either by you making me stay motivated or offering help whenever necessary. This experience allowed me to see that I can start and finish a story if I am in the right mind to do so. Now I only need the strength to recover that mindset and see if my passion comes back.

Thank you so so so so much ❤️ -Persi

i won’t say that yesterday was the worst day of my life, but it was the most unfair so far.

#sometimes life gets all like 'lets see how much you can take until you break'