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15/02/26

That can't be the first post on this blog. Makes me sick just reading it. I don't want to say I'm getting better but I've definitely had more good days since then. I'm still looking forward!

19/09/2024

Went from being back seat examined to finding out the house has been sold in one day. Fucking whiplash of it all

Edit 09/11/2025:

Hate this post, makes me nauseous. 13 more days and I'll be free

#I hate this #I hate how accommodating I was #it makes me feel sick just thinking about it

New meds, new me?

#maybe? idk #seems good so far #apart from the headaches and tiredness #xaggitin

TØP

#18/02/2016

11/11/15

I have an assignment due yesterday and I've been avoiding my family and drowning myself in arrow. I don't know why I'm burying my head in the sand instead of just getting on with it. What's wrong with me

electricsexdoll

I’m such a “Look at the moon!” person.

#to be fair the moon is gorgeous #and awe inspiring #moon #lunar #I mean just Look at it

purgeahontas-deactivated2012060

people asking me what kind of music i like is such a stressful experience

#I always end up practising my answer in case someone asks me #because it's always been an awkward experience in the past #like how do I explain it properly #I tend to just say I like everything except country music and hip hop and rnb #but idk #that's not actually true #I think

Fall Out Boy, Leeds

I keep trying to subconsciously make myself miserable and then subconsciously repress that misery. It's a strange sensation and I don't know how to feel as I slowly sink into numbness

Thur 24th Sept 2015

I don't think can handle anymore of this

09/09/2015

Breathe. You’re alive, just breathe

It’ll have to do for now

07/09/2015

SHIT

I don't know what's going on with me, I can't even remember what I did half an hour ago

Wed 12th Aug '15

Am I really that unstable that something as simple as people not being awake on time is enough to make me spiral out of control and question being alive

urie

my depression is just like “hey instead of making you sad we’re going to make you really lazy and unable to function so that people just get annoyed with you rather than feel bad for you”

Im terrified my sisters caught herself up in something which will ruin everything

27/06/2015

It started slowly, I could feel everything slowing down, my mind and my movements, like a blanket smothering me. When I got to the stairs I couldn’t move but it wasn’t paralysis it was more like I couldn’t Will myself to move. I remember thinking ‘oh I can move if I want to’ but I just couldn’t bring myself to move. Then I started crying because this happened Monday when I had that weird episode. Then I heard you moving around and I tried to love but I couldn’t, I tried forcing my head up but all that would happen was that my hand would move like a millimetre and I started panicking because I was straining my head and I Would Not Move and I was screaming but there was no sound and that triggered a panic attack (the hyperventilating) and that plus the fact that you were were Right There and I didn’t even realise you’d moved snapped me out of whatever just happened. So thanks

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